Chapter 44: Chapter 44

I coughed for the nth time and let out a groan before tossing off the sheets, my eyes looking around for Ana but she was nowhere to be seen now. With painful headache , I sat up straight to grab the water bottle. But I couldn't reach it. I grumbled . Then someone switch on the lights and I sighed in relief, expecting it to be Ana but my eyes widened when I saw Alex leaning against the door.

"I told you."

"Don't , I'm fine. Just need to drink water and sleep." I grumbled impatiently and reached out to grab the water bottle from the table again.

"You're not fine. I could hear you coughing-"

"I'm sorry I ruined your sleep. I already took my medicine, I'll be fine, thanks." I cut him off and stopped reaching out for the table when Alex appeared in front of me, taking the water bottle and give it over to me.

"You didn't ruin my sleep." He said shortly as I sipped down some water before giving him a look, trying to ignore his hard abs that were now staring directly at me, calling out to me, haunting me and- I shook my head to get rid of those thoughts.

" Thanks. Good night now." I flushed when he shook his head. I opened my mouth to say something but froze when he suddenly touch my forehead and I just sat there stiffened for a few minutes before swatting his hands away, my heart racing at his touch. I hated feeling this way. I don't want to but I keep wanting to at the same time, why am I like this?!

"You're having severe fever, Rina. I'm not letting you sleep like that." He raised his voice, his eyebrows slightly furrowing together before he sat next to me and I crawled back away from him. My eyes widened when he suddenly brought his wrists closer to his mouth, his sharp fangs sinking right into his skin, making my whole body shiver in displeasure.

"No-no!" I snapped, shaking my head repeatedly as Alex frown at me, slightly gulping down his own blood, which he was probably going to make me drink. "I do-don't want you to kiss me." I said finally.

"I either pour it down your throat or you drink straight from my wrist, Barbie doll. Your choice!" I gulped softly before turning away, my mind going blank for a few seconds.

"Guess I'll have it my way then." He said as his arm wrapped around my waist, pulling me closer . I shook my head, grabbing his hand before he could drink from it. He look at me as I brought his wrist closer, my fingers trailing the veins of his arms. I could feel his body tense up at my touch. I took a deep breath and gave him a pleading look. But He raised an eyebrow and point at his wrist, motioning me to hurry up . I let out a sigh in defeat, knowing that he would do it his "own" way. I licked off a drop of blood and scrunched up when the bitter taste filled my mouth.

"You have to drink more than that."

"I can't do it, it's gross!"

"Well, I'm not really giving you a choice right now, am I, Rina?" Alex shot right back and his sudden outburst made me jump a little before I looked at him with wide eyes, tears glistening inside them .

"I'm sorry ,ok? But I am tired now, Katy . But I can't see you sick like this so please just-" before he could finish his apology, I started sucking on his wrist. I mentally gagged as I drank, my eyes closed the entire time and finally pulled away with a cough. I am feeling dizzy.

"Happy now? Go, thanks for your help." I said softly and was about to lay down when he grabbed my wrist, holding me in place. I was about to say something rude but my breath hitched when he leaned his face closer to mine. We just stared at each other, our breathing gets heavier with every second. It happened so fast, yet so clearly. His eyes almost pleading, along with an unreadable expression on his face that made my heart melt. It was frustrating because I wanted to know what was going on in his mind but he was never good with words. But then, he was never good with emotions either so could you blame me?

I froze when his eyes flickered onto my lips and before I could react, he started leaning closer, making my whole body stood still. I wanted to move but I couldn't. I flinched when he licked the corner of my lips and then slowly pull away. I hate that he have this effect on me.

"Can you not do that?" I asked, my voice barely audible when he lean closer as I inched away.

"Do what?"

" kissing, touching me. I don't like it." I lied, giving him a disappointed look . I turned away and Alex stood up from his position, ready to leave when the door opened to reveal David weary face. His hair was a mess and his eyes looked crazy, not to mention his worn out clothes.

"Are you for real?!" David snapped at me, suddenly plopping down right next to me on the bed and before I could even realize what was going on, I was pulled into a tight hug, causing goosebumps to rise all over my body.

"Wha-"

"You fucking scared me to death! I looked everywhere for you, where the hell were you?" he pulled away . I opened my mouth to say something but stopped feeling guilty. David has always been a sweet guy and I always giving him a hard time with my stubbornness .

"I took her in." Alex sharply said as David glanced at him and then back at me before sighing in relief, a wave of emotions filling his eyes.

"So-sorry, I really am. I just-" I stopped and gave him an apologetic look. David then kiss the side of my forehead. My mouth dropped open. Alex stood there emotionless, watching us the entire time.

"It's alright, just glad you're fine." David said shortly, standing up straight . Alex take a huge step forward but come to a sudden halt . I watched his eyes turn a shade darker, his jaw clutched as he turned away . David left after giving more advices, almost making me yawn and not feel bad for him again. It's like talking to your dad. As soon as the door shut behind me, I glanced at Alex, who was now leaning against the wall, his hands folded across his chest as he stared at my face the entire time.

"Stop staring at me. Good night." I mumbled out before burying myself inside the blankets, hoping he would leave but to my disappointment, Alex stood still with a blank expression plastered on his face.

"Alex, can you please leave? You are being creepy ." I muttered, but I couldn't ignore the disturbing feelings growing inside of me. Of course he was upset and I know why too. I guess it could be because I took comfort from David and not him? We all know that Alex doesn't like to share his "toys".

"Seriously? You're just going to stand there?" I tried to conceal the guilt in my voice but it was getting hard to just ignore it so I tossed the blanket and walked right up to him, my eyes narrowing at him as he stared down at me with no emotion.

"Hello? Alex?" I waved my hand across his face and gasped when he caught my wrist in a swift motion, yanking them roughly before straightening his posture. I cringed a little as he towered over me, making my heart race faster.

"Don't ever do that again." He spoke as I frowned at him.

"Do what?" Before I could say anything, he walked to the bed, plopping on it casually. I glared at him in a warning manner but he didn't even bother to look at me anymore. Instead, he turned around, slumping the blanket over his chest and closed his eyes ignorantly, making my blood boil.

"Really Alex? You want to act childish?"

"Now's not the right time to fuck me up with that attitude, Rina."

"Stop making it sound like I'm always at fault, Alex. It's the other way around remember?!" I let out another huff and climbed into the other side of the bed, not even bothering to tell him to get off. He always do what he wants anyways.

"Do you really hate me that much?"

"Yes." I replied almost instantly, ignoring the fact that he was speaking in a very soft and low tone by now.

"How can I change that?" his words caught me by surprise as I switched off the light.

"You can't." I stopped when he turned around to face me. Even in the dark, I could clearly see his desperate blue eyes but I have to stand my ground.

"I'm serious."

"So am I." I said sharply and about to turn around when he grabbed my wrist.

"Rina, please." he squeezed my hands a little, as if he was afraid that I would pull them away again. "Don't make me beg."

"I never asked you to nor do I want you to. So stop already. And I also told you to stop touching me." I said with a hard expression as his eyes turn a shade darker.

"So it's okay for David to do whatever he pleases but it's a crime for me to get a chance to make things up for you?" he raised his voice and I just stared at him in disbelief.

"You're acting childish Alex. You have no reason to get mad about it unless you are jealous."

"I am not jealous. I just get pissed when people take away what's rightfully mine." He was angry. So, instead of arguing with him, I decided to calm him a little.

"Alex, I am not his to claim, alright? We're just friends and-"

"Yeah right." I watched him turn around to stare right up at the ceiling as I raised my eyebrow at him. "I see the way you look at him, Katy." he turned to face me again. His face only an inch away from mine. "And I see the way you look at me." At this point, my heart ached for him. Even in the dark, I could see the pain and hurt in his eyes and before I could say anything more, he concealed the hurt with his usual expressionless mask, causing my heart to drop. "It's just different."

"I could say the same about you and Rihana." I finally had the guts to say what i am thinking. He sit up straight before frowning at me in displeasure.

"I am trying my best to keep you and her safe, Katy. There is nothing going on between us and I have tried to tell you this over a million times but you are too stubborn and ignorant to listen to me!" he suddenly snapped. I sat up straight as well, tossing the sheets as I glared at him furiously.

"And what the hell makes you think you deserve one?! You have been nothing but an asshole to me ever since I came here and to make things worse, you kiss her and make me sound at fault for getting upset about it. You keep lashing out at me because you can't digest the fact that you still have feelings for her, Alex!"

"Why the fuck would I have feelings for her when you're the only person that's been on my mind, every damn second?!" he grabbed my shoulders and my eyes widened at his words, so was his after he realized what he had just said. I gulped softly before biting my lip gently, taking in his words.

"Don't do that right now." He let out an exasperated sigh, his eyes suddenly landing on my lips and I just stared at him silently before finally asked him.

"So what am I to you, Alex?" he gave me a confused look. "Am I someone you care about? Have feelings for or what?" He sighed as I held my breath for his answer.

"I don't know, ok? I'm still trying to figure that out so-"

"Am I just a blood bag?"

"Just stop, alright? I told you, I'm trying to figure this out so just give me a little more time. I just want to finish dealing with Rihana too and it's annoying when you both fight over dumb shit and-"

"What's your point Alex? That I should just take all this and deal with it? For the past few months, I have been putting up with everything, but this? I can't. She's rude and acts like a bitch towards me for no reason and-"

"How am I supposed to defend two people I care about, Rina? I can't alright? I am trying my best to protect you two and you both fighting each other is not good." At this point, I just want to slap him but I somehow managed to hold back. This guy keeps trying to do the best thing for everybody and ends up making the whole situation worse than it already is.

"Have it your way then." I muttered getting up from the bed and walking to the window. He cursed himself as we are away from each other. I glanced back to see Alex on the bed, leaning his back against the headboard with his knees up, both his elbows slumped on them with his head hung between his arms. He was just as exhausted and frustrated as I was.

"I just don't want to lose you, alright? I want you to stay here and be happy too, Rina."

"You've already lost me, Alex." I breathe the fresh air, blinking away the tears.

"And there is nothing you can do to change that."