Chapter 43: Chapter 43

I looked at the guys around me as I turn around to face Ana, who was now giving me her usual worried look.

"Don't."

"No, I will. It's already been three weeks Katy! You're telling him again tonight."

"Tell him what? That I want to leave and hear him beg me to stay again? He's never going to let me leave Ana, why can't you see that already? " I placed the glass of water next to the counter.

"So you're going to keep staying here? In this hole full of utter jerks-"

"Ana" I mumbled, eyeing the Ivanov brothers, who were now standing right behind her.

"No, I'm serious. They think they're the real shit just because god blessed them with the looks? And to be honest, that waiter Daren, I dated? Even he had a better face than these overrated vampires-" She held up a hand when I tried to stop her. Ana seemed to read my expressions and her mouth slightly hung open.

" I'm already hurt," Franklin gave us his "fake" disappointed look. "Right here." He poked his chest and Ana scoffed before turning to face me.

"Let's leave. Don't talk to them." Ana pushed me.

"Really, Ana? You're still going to make her shut up? It won't kill her to talk to us, you know?"

"Oh, but it can," she protested, turning to glare at David, who groaned in annoyance.

"Don't start, Ana, I swear if -"

"As long as she's staying here? She is not going to talk to any of you." Ana raised her voice as the guys rolled their eyes.

"You guys are so immature."

"Boys, what's going on here?" Rihana came down and give me a fake smile before snapping her head towards them. "Where's Alex?"

"He'll be here soon." My heart ached at the mention of his name. It's been nearly three weeks since I've had a decent conversation with him. I always ignore him or completely shut him out when he attempts to talk to me, and as time flew by, he stopped trying too. Mostly because he is always busy with "work" and taking care of "things". I guess it's for the best. I was finally healing, slowly moving on from my feelings and I certainly do not want to give him the chance to tear open that wound again.

"He's always busy these day," Rihana mumbled and from the corner of my eyes, I could see her glancing at me. "And Katy, please try to loosen up a bit?" I snapped my head towards her harsh words and narrowed my eyes at her hard expression.

"Whatever do you mean, princess?" Ana cocked her head to a side, taking the words right out of my mouth .

"I am not trying to fight, alright? It's just that she's been giving him a hard time and I think that it's in both our interests that he stopped pushing himself so hard to find Terry." Rihana countered. I mentally scoffed at her words.

"I never told him to find Terry. That has nothing to do with me-"

"It has everything to do with you and you know it!" she suddenly snapped and I heard the boys hiss at her to keep quiet.

"What's that supposed to mean?" I took a step forward towards Rihana, who didn't back away either, instead she scowled in distaste.

"It means that you keep playing with his feelings, confusing him and leading him on. He's already having a hard time dealing with this and you have the nerve to ignore him? The only reason why he's going out to find Terry is because he thinks you are in danger, which you might be, who knows-"

"What's your point, Rihana?!" I started to lose it, my whole body itching to punch her right in the throat. She thinks I am the one playing him and confusing him?

"My point is that you are what's holding him back and the reason why he is in danger. You are the reason that he is out all the time, day and night, not staying to spend a single time with me!" she suddenly yelled at the end .

"So this is about you then, huh?" I watched her bite the inside of her cheeks and I swallowed the lump in my throat as well. "And for your information, it's Alex who is holding me back-"

"Geez, fucking stop it you guys! I swear, if you both don't shut up right now, I'll make sure I do it for you." Danny threatened, sending me a deadly glare. I was about to burst out in anger when a hand grabbed my mouth from behind, pulling me back. I stumbled back and turned around, ready to push whoever it was. David.

"Let me go, I'm fine!" I pushed his hands away and attempted to walk away.

"Hey, relax." David stepped in front of me , causing me to let out another huff.

"She is just so infuriating and stupid -" my teeth still gritted in annoyance. I just hate everything about her.

"Damn." David chuckle a bit, his eyes still widened a little in shock .

"Can you get me a glass of water?" I asked out of the blue, glancing back to see Ana arguing with the boy's right next to Rihana. I didn't care at this point, all I wanted was to let out my frustrations.

"Sure, wait here okay?" he said and left. I turned towards the main door. I came out of the mansion.

"Great, just great." I muttered under my breath in frustration, staring at the heavy rain pouring in front of me.

"You're the one who's holding him back." Rihana's words rang through my mind as I tried to calm myself down but nothing was helping anymore. With a grunt, I started walking .I was already soaking wet, but I keep on walking. I didn't know where I was going or for how long I could keep walking like this but I didn't care. I just wanted to go for a walk, even if it meant for a few minutes. I gasped when thunder started to came down from the sky, causing the rain to pour down on me even harder. I let out an uncontrollable sob, hugging myself as tightly as I could.

"Am I holding him back? Using him? Playing him? Who the fuck do you think you are?!" I yelled, my tears blurring my vision as I kept walking. "What do you know?" I asked practically no one and by now, I was too weak to even shout or yell. "You're just some stupid, ugly girl who-" I stopped as a car stopped right next to the pavement I was walking on and the window slide down to reveal Alex's face, causing my heart to race faster than ever.

"Get in." he said softly but I stood up straight, before hugging myself tighter, ready to start walking again . "Katy, I'm serious, get in the car." He had a more demanding tone and I quickly replied with a sharp "no" before hurrying my pace. I could hear him yell something along the lines, "I'm not playing with you right now, Rina. Get in the car or-" but I couldn't care less. It wasn't long before he came out and try to drag me towards the car but I wasn't going to take it tonight.

"Let go-"

"You're going to catch a cold, get inside." I yanked my hand from him and glared at him.

"Then so be it." I said bitterly, hugging myself only tighter, trying to stop my body from shaking any further.

"Rina," my heart almost melted at his voice but I didn't show it. "Can you please get in the car?" he asked softly. I noticed that he too was now getting soaked and as soon as he opened the door for me, I stepped inside, knowing that I'd be blamed if he walked back home all wet and cold. I didn't even bother to send him a glance as we drove off. I could feel his stare on me every now and then.

"Rina?" Alex called and my breath hitched at his voice. So much for ignore and moving on. "You're going to ignore me again?" I responded with silence and he huffed but I didn't even bother to look at him. I don't want to. It's already been more than three weeks since we last had a decent conversation and I plan to keep it that way.

"Rina? Can you at least give me a chance to talk?" I ignored him yet again and gasped when the car suddenly turned to a corner before coming to an abrupt stop.

"What the hell, Alex?!" I turned to glare at him but stopped when I realized that he was now leaning closer to my seat now, his fingers already holding a gentle but firm grip on my chin. My heart almost dropped as I stared into his deep, mysterious blue eyes causing the butterflies in my stomach go haywire. Oh, how I wanted those lips on mine.

"Say something," his voice was now hoarse making me melt. "I miss your voice." He mumbled out and I froze when I felt his thumb caressing my bottom lip gently, causing goosebumps to rise all over my body. This familiar feeling of warmth and comfort, I couldn't take it. In a swift motion, I brushed his hands away and pressed myself against my seat, trying my best to even my heartbeats.

"Just Take me back." I said harshly . Alex looks disappointed as he pull back before nodding slowly. This is exactly what I don't want to see. I don't want to feel like I'm the only one who's making him feel this way. It only get my hopes up and I don't want to go through that phase again. Then, we drove off in silence. I could use some alone time to think and get my shit together already. I have to.