Chapter 45: Chapter 45

I am unable to fall asleep despite Alex was sound asleep right next to me. We talked a bit more but after I told him that I wasn't going to give him a chance. Did he really have feelings for me? He's actually trying to apologize and begging me to give him a chance.

I finally tossed the sheets over and got up from the bed, silently tiptoeing my way towards the door but froze when I heard Alex call out my name, his sexy, sleepy voice almost making my knees weak.

"Where're you going?"

"I am just going to walk around the mansion..-"

" what- now? " he asked in disbelief, rubbing his temple in annoyance and sitting up straight. "It's midnight, Katy, can you please sleep?" he groaned, running a hand through his hair and face as I folded my hands across my chest stubbornly.

"But I want to right now. I can't sleep."

"I can fix that so just come here." He said, waving an arm at me and motioning me to come closer but I didn't budge. I walked to him and sighed

"Can you come with me then?"

"Must you really walk tonight?" his words dripped in sarcasm as I tried to switch on lights. Alex let out a soft growl and stuffed his face with a pillow but I snatched it away immediately.

"Come on, Alex! why can't you just come with me? I've been living here for more than 3 months now and you still haven't showed me all the rooms and I don't know, secret magic doors and stuff." I ran out of words and Alex gave me a blank look.

"You're not very good at convincing people." He stated bluntly and I threw the pillow back at his face before muttering a quick "Fine, then stay." I opened the door and started heading out, slightly glancing back to see if Alex was following but to my disappointment, he wasn't. A scoff escaped through my lips before I marched through the hallway, trying my best to adjust to the darkness.

WI turned to notice a door and decided to explore this room first, slightly curious to know whose room it was. I knocked and when no one answered, I slowly opened the door only to be greeted by darkness.

"Why no lights?" I mumbled out before cautiously walking inside, squinting my eyes to make out any figures. Just as I took a few steps forward, someone slammed the door shut behind me and I let out a gasp before turning around, my heart almost ripping out of my chest.

"Who's there?" I asked, taking a step forward and gasped when I heard something clatter from behind me. "Who-who's there?! David if this is you, I swear I will kill you. This is not funny." I shiver when I thought of Terry. Wha-what if it's him?

Tears started glistening in my eyes as I took a step back, my movement suddenly coming to a halt when I bumped against someone.

"Boo." With another gasp, I spun around to see who it was in the dark,I see Alex's blue eyes flickering in amusement, causing me tremble.

"What the hell, Alex?!" I snapped angrily but Alex laughed as if it's funny.

"It's not funny, you scared me." I said softly, trying to get Terry out of my head.

" You fine? "

"I'm fine, I just thought that you were Terry or someone else." I said causing him to stop laughing.

"You're safe as long as I am around so don't worry about him." Alex went back after turning the lights on. It was a simple room, clean and tidy without a bed or wardrobe.

"Katy, there is fucking nothing in here, can we please go back?" Alex asked me. I went out to the terrace. He followed me.

"I am tired ,Rina. How long?" Alex started groaning again, walking up to me as I sigh before frowning at him. We're near the pool.

"Alex, come on, it was just a-" without warning, he lifted me in his hands. My eyes widened and I grabbed his shoulders tightly.

"Alex, I'm serious, if you dare to-" I squealed when he dropped me in the cold water, causing me to panic but it didn't take seconds for someone to pull me back up.

"You're such an asshole!" I growled, hitting his chest as he let out a chuckle.

"Oh, baby. You deserve it for ruining my sleep." My heart fluttered at his words but I quickly brushed them away.

"Jerk." I muttered and pressed my back further against the walls.

"You still don't know how to swim?"

"Yes, looks like we're not sleeping tonight then."

"And whose fault is that?" Alex's words dripped in sarcasm but I was too busy to counter them with an insult. Instead, I just stared up at the starless sky and smiled a little.

"If I ever leave this mansion, I will mias this terrace. Maybe the guys too. " I looked at him as he stared at me.

"And me?" my heart raced at his words as he inched closer .

"Tell me." He said softly, standing in front of me. I held my breath as I looked up at him, his icy blue eyes making me feel weak to my knees.

"You? " I asked with a fake gasp but he kept a straight face, though I could see him expecting a yes.

"Yes, I would." I finally breathed, my eyes staring at his eyes. "Despite everything you did, I would still miss you, I guess. But that doesn't change the fact that you are still an devil so don't flatter yourself because-" I stopped rambling when he cupped my cheeks and kissed me . My arms already wrapped around his neck as I kissed him back hungrily. It felt like time stopped as we took our time, savoring every moment. His tongue flickered on my bottom lip and I gladly let him in, knowing that I was going to regret this later but he was such a good kisser, it was almost impossible to resist. The kiss started to get more intense as Alex took over, slipping a hand under my shirt from the back before parting his lips and placing wet and sloppy kisses down my neck, causing me to moan in pleasure.

"I can't do this . I shouldn't be kissing you, no." I turned away before he could even open his mouth to speak , I turned to leave.

"Rina, wait." He grabbed my wrist, turning me around and I was about to say something but froze when my eyes landed on my wet clothes. The thin fabric was now stuck to my skin, barely concealing anything. To make it worse, Alex had now shifted his gaze from my eyes to my body .

"Stop being such a pervert!"

"What, no! I was just worried because you kept staring at yourself , so I thought you're hurt, Rina, I'm not that low." he muttered under his breath, turning away and I narrowed my eyes at him before letting out a groan.

"Your expressions turns me on every fucking time." He mumbled, his blue eyes flickering in both lust and excitement, making my heart beat fast.

"Fuck you." I went back to insult him to hide my embarrassment.

"If you keep saying that, I really will fuck the living hell out of you, Rina. Your outfit is not in your favor tonight." I blushed harder and opened my mouth to say something but shut it right back, knowing very well that he would use my own words against me. So instead, I just walked right past him, ignoring his annoying smirk.

"Oh come on, I'm just kidding, baby," He said in an amused tone as he followed behind me. I rolled my eyes and stopped when he appeared in front of me, taking my hand with his and smiled at me.

"What now?"

"Nothing, I just wanted to hold your hands." He said softly, giving them a small squeeze before turning to walk along with me. Our hands were interlocked together and I couldn't help but smile a little. His hands felt so perfect in mine, warm and comforting. It just felt right.

"Alex?" I stopped walking.

"Hmm?"

"Thank you," I said finally and I watched him raise a brow. "For spending time with me tonight." He chuckled a little, causing my heart go wild.

"Anything for you, Barbie doll." He slumped an arm around my shoulders and I looked up to say something else but froze when I found his lips connected to mine again. It took me a few seconds to kiss him back and it felt like everything was finally perfect again. It was just us, me and him, and I didn't have to doubt anything anymore. All I want is for this kiss to last lifetime.

"What the fuck, Alex?!" a familiar voice broke our kiss as we pulled away. Rihana standing in front of us, her whole face burning with both hatred and anger, causing my heart to drop.

Oh boy, here we go.

"Rihana." Alex called softly and I saw something flash in her eyes before she turned around, disappearing from our sight. "Wait!" Alex yelled before taking his hands from mine. My heart sank as he started bolting towards the door but then He turned around , suddenly appearing in front of me before pulling me into a tight hug.

"I'll be right back, can you go back to your room?" he pulled away . I didn't say anything. I gave him one final look before turning away. "I'll be back in a minute." He disappeared and I was left standing alone in the terrace.

After a few minutes, I found myself back in the bedroom and quickly changed into different clothes before plopping on the bed as I shed more tears. I waited for Alex for about an hour or so but he didn't show up. I then realized that he was not going to show up anytime soon, so I decided to go to sleep.

After telling Ana about everything happened last night, I was back to avoid Alex and Rihana. So, here I was, back at the library and reading my fourth book for the day. I wanted to get my mind off about what happened last night.

"Katy, we need to talk." Rihana's voice almost made me jump up and I stood up, turning around to face her.

"Yes?"

"I just want to know about what's going on with you and Alex?" My eyes widened at her words but then she already saw us kissing so of course there was no point in hiding anything anymore.

"I don't know. He says that he's figuring things out."

"He already figured it out. Look, I understand that you both have a thing now, but Katy, I didn't go through hell to come back for you to take him from me. I need him and he needs me. He is just confused right now and he is in a lot of pain, which is why he is using you to forget about me. But that's not happening anytime soon because I don't plan to give him up." She went on .

"How are you so sure that he doesn't have feelings for me?" she flinched at my question .

"Because he loves me, Katy. We have been together for a long time and you can't expect those feelings to just go away for some random girl he keeps around for pleasure." At this point, I literally had to hold back the anger I've been trying so hard to keep in since last night was slowly beginning to rise again.

"I just want what's mine, Katy. Wouldn't you fight for something you worked so hard to build? We both have seen the good side of Alex and I know how much you care about him. But so do I. And we both know that he is still in love with me, not you." Her blunt words formed a painful lump in my throat but I had to keep a straight face on.

"Rihana-"

"Are you falling for him?" my heart raced faster than ever and there was no way that she was not able to hear them.

"No." an obvious lie but Rihana nodded, as if she had just made a point in all of this.

"So let him go and let him be happy. If you really care about him then let him go. Because at the end of the day, he will always choose me." she finally breathed as if we were both already coming to an understanding. "So are you going to back out or keep playing the role of a mistress?" I scoffed at her words .

"Okay, first of all, Rihana, you need to take a step back and not make this about you-"

" I'm just being honest with you because I care about you too and wouldn't want you to get hurt. I know how many girls Alex has used in the past for his own pleasure while I was gone. You just happened to be a bit special because of your blood, darling, it's making him crave for more. He's a vampire, Katy and you're a human. That's never happened before. He is never going to fall in love with a human."

"And what about you?"

"I was different because I was the first girl he ever fell in love with. And after I was taken away? He never fell in love, and I really hope it stays that way, Katy, am I clear now?" she was starting to get impatient and for the first time, her words got to me. I somehow found myself agreeing to everything she just made up.

"Maybe this is for the best. I was never good enough for him and if I stopped trying so hard to get something I can never have, then maybe I can finally move on. It's kind of true that he is confused, I did believe in him, in us, but that was just my fantasy and I had to face reality now. As painful as this may be, I needed to let him go.

"Thank you, for understanding." She said softly, touching my arms gently and giving them a small squeeze as I nodded with a weak smile. After that, she just disappeared and I dropped back down on my chair. Alex doesn't really care about whatever we had, or else he would have made it clear last night when he went to talk with Rihana. But he didn't. It's crazy between us. One minute, I want him, the next minute, I just want him to stay the hell away from me and just move on.

Later that night,

"Hey, how're you feeling?" David asked me as I walked towards the living room.

"I feel good actually, thanks." I lied, giving him a genuine smile though and he nodded back with a smile too .

"Come sit, Katy." Rihana moved away to create a space and I hesitated but slowly sat down on the sofa next to her.

"Try to act happy so that you can convince them and Alex that you're fine with me." Rihana barely mumbled, her eyes darting everywhere as she spoke and I narrowed my eyes at her. "Please, this is for Alex." She said softly yet harshly .

An hour flew by as everyone talked about random stuff, including life stories and their childhood. They were all joking and laughing now, having a good time but I had to force myself to keep a straight face. The guys are fun but acting nice around Rihana was annoying and just suffocating.

"So tell us an embarrassing childhood accident that happened to you, Katy." Rihana nudged my shoulders and everyone waited for me to speak. I cleared my throat and went deep into my thoughts, trying to remember one.

"Oh god, one time, when I was six, I sleep walked up to the living room in the middle of the night, thinking that it was the toilet," I cringed at the memory. "And I just stripped off my pants and was about sit down on the couch ready to go all out when my Dad saw me and stopped me." Before I could finish, everyone had roared into laughter, causing a bright shade of pink to creep up on my cheeks. We were still laughing and cracking more jokes when the door opened and in came Alex.

"Hey, Alex!" Rihana squealed and I could feel him staring at me but I pretended to talking with Joey.

"How was it?"

"Couldn't find it, but I'm getting there. Franklin is helping too." Alex breathed and I went silent for a bit, along with everyone else.

Everyone decided to paly truth and dare. Both Alex and David backed out. When it was my turn, I choose truth.

" Tell us if you love someone? " Joey asked while eying Rihana. She looks at me anxiously.

" I can't answer it. " I shaked my head causing the guys to grin like Cheshire cats.

"That means only thing, darling,Take off your shirt." Rihana whispered in my ears causing me shudder.

"Can't you let it go?" I asked softly and everyone shook their head, making my heart race faster than ever.

"It's either that, or we compel you into telling the truth, babe. Maybe reveal the name too and-"

"Alright!" I cut them off and grabbed the end of my t shirt, ready to take it off and get this over with. I mean anything would be better than telling them how I felt about Alex. I was about to slip it off when a hand grabbed my wrist, suddenly jerking me up from my position. I winced and looked up at Alex, who was now glaring at me, the expressionless mask he had on was now gone as his blue eyes piercing right into my soul.

"Game's over." He said with so much venom that everyone grew quiet . I was about to open my mouth to say something when he started dragging me out.

"Alex, it's just a game." Rihana stepped in front of us .

"I want to talk with her alone right now so go back, Rihana." He spoke in a dangerous tone

"Just calm down, Alex." Rihana said in her sweetest voice ever . I just awkwardly stood there, waiting for the right time to walk away and let them have a moment together or something.

"She's right, it was just a game." I said in a calm voice and Alex snapped his head to glare at me.

"You're tired, you need to rest." Rihana said softly, trying to touch his hand but Alex roughly caught her wrist, his eyes still on mine while he did so.

"What I need to do," he started painfully slow, turning to face Rihana as she flinched in fear. "Is talk to her in private, so , Rihana," his tone grew colder. "Fuck-off, because I am really not in the mood right now." He pushed her hand away and turned to grab mine before dragging me back upstairs. I glanced at Rihana, ready to give her an apologetic look but stopped when I saw her glaring at us. What was her problem anyways? Can't she see that I am trying my best to stick on her side?

"No, I don't want to go inside and talk." I said, roughly jerking my hand away as he opened the door for me to enter.

"No, I want to talk so get in."

"And I said that I don't want to get in so talk here." I folded my arms across my chest and watched him let out a huff in frustration.

"Fine, have it your way then," He cocked his head to a side and I gasped when he slammed his hands on either side of my neck on the wall that I was somehow already pressed against. "Talk." He demanded shortly, his eyes already turning a shade darker.

"Talk about what? Will you relax, Alex? You made Rihana upset now." I said softly.

"Rihana? Since when did you care so much about how she felt?"

"Since I realized that she wasn't so bad." I lied, he opened his mouth to say something but stopped .

"I want to talk about last night." His words made my heart skip a beat but I faked a smile before brushing his hands away.

"It's fine." His eyes widened a bit at my words.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Alex jumped right into the question I was badly wanting to avoid.

"Nothing, why?" I asked back in a calm voice, hoping I would bore him somehow and make him leave.

"Really?"

"Yes, and Rihana? Don't just yell at her like that, it's rude." I glanced at him once and quickly averted my gaze, just in case he could see through my little act.

"Stop concerning yourself about her and stop doing whatever she asks you to do," he suddenly inched closer. "You're not her servant, Katy-"

"Alex, you are exaggerating, I am just helping her out." Alex sighed.

"Tell me what's going on, Katy-"

"Nothing's going on, can you just stop asking it?" I was trying my best to keep up the act but Alex poking me to open up is clearly not helping right now. It was getting too painfully suffocating now and I barely even started this little act.

"Katy, stop lying," his soft tone caused a lump in my throat "I know something's up, you're acting differently, Very different." He grabbed my wrist.

"Alex, please stop already." Tears glistened in my eyes. He didn't budge.

"I just want you to stop alright?" I finally choked out and Alex fixated his gaze into mine. "I just want you to be with her already so that I can finally leave."

"Katy, listen-"

"No, you listen Alex. I have been listening to you all this time and I can't anymore. please stop playing around with me? If you want a toy to play around with then find someone else, just let me go." Tears rolled down my cheeks and I immediately brushed them away.

"Hey, shh," he suddenly wrapped his arms around me and I held in a sob, the lump in my throat only getting tighter. "I'm sorry, can-"

"No, Rihana was right," I pulled away, brushing away more tears and shaking my head slowly. "I never stood a chance." I stated weakly and lowered my eyelashes on the ground.

"Rihana told you that?" My eyes widened and I looked up at Alex, who was now frowning at me in suspicion and I quickly shook my head with a weak smile.

"No, I am ju-just saying-"

"You're lying." His eyes grew a shade darker.

"I'm not, she never said anything to-" I froze when Alex made me look at his blue icy orbs.

"Tell me what she said." He demanded and my heart raced at his words.

"She told me that I never stood a chance. That I was just another one of your whores that you were using in order to forget about her." I blabbered out before I could stop myself and my eyes widened before my jaws dropped open at my own words.

"You compelled me?!" I screeched, jerking away and Alex took my shoulders. "Don't do that, don't ever do that!" I started hitting his chest repeatedly but Alex just gripped my upper arms, an unreadable expression growing on his face. It wasn't a good, expression obviously. He was pissed about something but so was I.

"Alex," we both stopped to look at Rihana and my eyes widened as I quickly turned away, trying to hide my face that was now full of tears. I didn't even have a chance to brush them away because of Alex.

"She thinks you don't stand a chance, hunh?" Alex was now looking at Rihana as she started walking up to us, a small smile forming on her face. "Well, I kinda wonder how she'd feel about this then." Without warning, Alex grabbed my neck, swiftly leaning into a rough kiss as I stiffened in my position, my eyes widening in both shock and disbelief.

"Did he just...?