Chapter 19: Chapter 19
Two weeks went on and it is already 9 pm. Am preparing for my engagement party, Taylor is in charge of preparing me. Today everything stops for a while, my moments with Derick end until new order. He didn't have a good mood these weeks along, he was a little distant from me, he must surely be anxious about what is happening and angry. I can't blame him but can't regret what am doing. Allan is more important for me now and no matter what is done today I will never regret and continue my road.
" You are amazing Lea!" Taylor says.
I stand and turn to her.
" Thank you best," I answer.
" But not as alright as a future engaged girl!"
" Yes, of course, am not alright. How can I be when am not going to get down and find the man with whom I always wanted to get married."
" Be courageous dear!"
" I will!"
" Let's go "
She takes my hand and we forward to the door, but my head suddenly pains, like stomach aches and I feel like something wants to run out of my throat. I stop Taylor and touch my neck a little to stop the unpleasant moment.
" What is it, Lea?" Taylor asks worriedly.
Without answering I run very fast to the toilet room and close inside before bending and directing my mouth to vomit. The feeling was unpleasant, I thought my intestines were going to come out from my mouth, I couldn't stop vomiting.
" Lea is it okay?" Allan ask.
I cough a little while holding my chest and get to the sink to wet my face and mouth before looking at me intently in the mirror. What do I have? For some days already, I can't stop having this violent headache and vomiting. But this time around, I vomit at night and not in the morning. Is it possible that… no I can't!
" Lea!" Allan insist.
I decide to get out and face my friends.
" Look at your face, you look pale," Taylor says.
" It's okay Taylor!"
" Have you vomit again?" Allan ask.
" Yes!" I say shyly.
" That's not the first time," Allan says.
" It must surely be something I ate, I mean I surely digest badly."
He turns and goes to the small dresser beside the bed and pulls out something. He comes closer to me and puts in front of me a pregnancy test, I look at him shocked by what he is trying to do and I may admit am a little bit anxious about what he is trying to make me understand.
" What is this?" I ask troubled.
" You perfectly know what it means, and you also know it may be a possibility. So get inside there and make a test, let's be sure!" Allan says assuredly.
I didn't have any choice, and on the other side, I also wanted to know if I may be pregnant or not. I take the test and get to the toilet.
I open the test package, lift the protective cap and pull out the absorbent tip. I try to urinate and point the bottom of the test to this urine. I put the protective cap back on the end and I wait for the results to appear.
Three minutes later, I can see the results of the test. My heartbeats accelerate when I finally discover what I thought but didn't want to admit. I get out of the toilet in front of the impatient face of my friends and show Allan the test.
" It's positive!" Taylor says.
" Am pregnant," I say.
" We can't be sure, is always good to do such things early in the morning and pregnancy test aren't always reliable. So tomorrow we are going to the hospital okay?"
" But how comes? I don't understand when we didn't protect ourselves… wait! I didn't have my menses this time around. Oh no! Allan, no need to go to the hospital am pregnant." I say panicking.
" Calm down, we are going to verify!" Allan says.
" And if am pregnant?"
" Then it means you have to stop everything!" Allan says.
Madam priscille comes inside and asks us to get down. I try to calm down and we all get down.
Madam priscille and Mr. Kevin present to us many personalities, Allan and I get in front of everyone while paying their attention and he officially asks me in marriage, I accept and everyone congratulates us. I am not comfortable being here, I can't stop thinking about the possibility I may be pregnant. Why is life playing with me like that? when am on my way to do something, life always remember me to lay down and do another thing. All I want is to help my friend, all I want is to love, all I want is to be happy… why can I not?
" Excuse me, Lea, am coming back!" Allan says.
" To where?" I ask.
" Am out, am coming!" He says before leaving me.
A few minutes later, all this cinema tired me and I get to Taylor and take a glass of wine to de-stress a little.
" Nooo!" Taylor says snatching my glass before I drink." Do you want to kill the baby?"
" We aren't sure there is a baby inside here, so give me the glass I need it."
" No Lea! What is it? Are you not happy to be a mother?"
" I don't know if I should be happy or not, that not what I expected for my life, Taylor. My life was traced, perfectly trace in my head, I had to realize my dream, get married to the man I love, have children, and get old full of happiness. But that's not the case, I am getting married to a man I don't love, I will have a child without a lovely marriage and worse is that am not sure my parents may accept that. I may also finish by losing Derick with all this game."
" Don't you think it's time for you to end all this? I mean, it is clear Derick and you are made to be together and this baby is the proof of what am saying, cause even if Derick and you do not get married now, this baby will be a sort of union between you two."
"Arghhh Taylor I don't want to talk about that now, let go and find for Allan."
She agrees and we get outside to search for Allan. I can see him but he is not alone, he is with Derick and it seems they are quarreling. I attract the attention of Taylor before seeing Derick giving a punch to Allan. I shout his name and get afraid, I hurry to him and ask him several times if he is okay, but seems he has difficulties breathing. Taylor tries to get him up while I stand and face Derick.
" What's your problem, Derick?" I ask.
" Let him not interfere in our problems okay? What is between us, is between us and it doesn't concern him." Derick says angrily.
" You don't deserve her!" Allan shoutq still trying to take control of his breath.
" Open your mouth once more and I will kill you!"
I slap Derick been shocked about what he said about Allan. He redresses his head in front of me.
" Nobody will ever touch Allan and until God decides to take him from us. ARE YOU CRAZY? It isn't sufficient for you to know he will die? You also want to kill him?" I say yelling at him and furious. " Go, Derick!" I order.
I get back to Allan and help Taylor to carry him for us to enter before throwing a regard on Derick.
We enter the house from behind in order not to worry the people present at the party. We arrive in his room and make him lie down while arranging his pillow. I ask Taylor to give me his medicines before giving him to swallow them.
" Please don't tell what happens to me, to mom please!" Allan ask.
We agree before Taylor decides to go down to tell madam priscille Allan is a little tired.
" Why did you fight? I know you don't fight normally!" I ask
" For nothing!" He answers.
" Tell me Allan, am not in a good mood today."
" Am not the one to tell you, he is the one. He doesn't deserve you."
" But…"
" If he loves you, then he will tell you why we fought!"
A few hours later, madam Priscille and Mr. Kevin already came and see how Allan was before going to sleep a little because I decided to stay with Allan tonight.
" You are not up large to stay!" Allan says.
" No objection!" I say.
I arrange his head on the pillow and cover him before he sleeps.
Taylor after answering her call enters.
" Who was it?" I ask.
" Derick! He wanted to know how Allan was and how you were. He also wanted to talk to you."
" And… what did you say?"
" That Allan is well and that you decided to pass the night with him."
" Okay!"
He acted so boldly today, I can't recognize the same Derick I loved. Yes, he had the habit to fight but not carelessly like that. Why did they fight? And why is Allan not telling me what is wrong?
I arrange a place beside Allan and sleep with him, hoping tomorrow will be better even though I don't think so!