Chapter 14: Chapter 14

" Lea! You aren't obligated to do this!" Allan says.

All what he will say right now will not change my mind.

"Am not obliged, that's what I want!"

"Lea!"

"Stop Allan, do you want it or not?" I ask.

He sighs.

"Okay Lea, I will."

" Alright." I come towards him and cover him.

" Do you not have something to do tonight?" He asks.

I remember what Derick said. He needs to see me at 9 pm if not, he may conclude I have chosen Allan. I can't leave Allan now, he needs my support and I have to imperatively be with him.

" No...no I have nothing to do tonight!"

I make him lie down on his bed before Elizabeth and Spencer knock at the door. Allan is surprised to see them and with a great smile, he invites them to enter. I decide to leave them to talk a little and return to Taylor's room.

" Hey, girl! So what happened? Have you talked to Allan?" Taylor asks.

I come closer to her bedside, she redresses herself and I sit beside her then sigh.

" Yes, I did!"

" And sooooo…" she asks insisting.

" So I will get married to Allan," I say sadly.

" What? Why? Have you change your mind on the way to his room?"

" No!"

" So what is it?"

She is also our friend after all and she deserves to know all the truth. I must tell her.

" Lea!" She repeats my name.

" You must be strong Taylor. I have bad news!"

She looks at me impatiently.

" Allan has just one month or less to stay alive, he has heart cancer at the final stage."

Her face suddenly decomposes in front of the news, she bends down her head to assimilate the news and get it up after a while with tears running from her eyes. She throws herself into my arms and together we cry, we sob, thinking we will never see him again. Life is so damn complicated, he is still young but yet has to die so early. Life seems not to care about the project or what someone must accomplish, once he chooses you...there is no turn back.

At 10 pm Taylor and I are in Allan's room, we decided to stay with him, laugh with him, and remember all our amazing moments together. We have to all try to forget this miserable news, forget that he may go leaving us alone. We have to show him we are always going to be with him rather than crying.

Allan has always been with me, I wish I could love him as he does for me, I wish I could love him the same as he does...but my soul and hearts are tied forever with Derick's own.

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In the morning! Very early Allan prepares to get back home with his father with a wheelchair that he has to use for two days, and I am in charge of bringing back home Taylor.

To our home, Taylor seems glad to come back after so long. She sits on the chair and invites me to come and discuss. I admit I need to do it.

" What will you do with Derick?" She asks.

" I will go and see him, he needs some explanations!"

" Yeah! I think this is right. Am sure he will understand and accept the fact!"

" Yes but after, what will happen to us, Taylor? what will I do of all what I feel for him?"

" I can't answer these questions but what I can tell you is to talk with him cause together you may find a solution."

I agree and go to my room, then wear something else and direct myself to the Holiday Inn Hotel, ready to confront Derick.

At the hotel, I forward to Derick's room and stay a little in front of his door doubting his reaction. I take up my courage and knock finally. He opens the door as my heart knocks hard on my chest.

Without saying anything he let me enter while returning inside. I enter and close the door myself. I don't like his silence!

" I can see you aren't in the hospital nor ill, so you have no excuse for not coming yesterday. Apart if you finally decided to stay with Allan." He says while taking one glass of whisky.

How can he drink so early?

" First of all, put down this glass, and let's talk!" I say.

" Don't worry princess, am not yet drunk, so we can talk." He says before taking a sip of his drink. " So tell me why you didn't come yesterday"

" yes, you are right! I have finally chosen Allan."

He looks at me and smiles, then puts down his glass and claps harder.

" Congratulations Lea!" He says ironically.

" But I have a reason!"

He takes up his glass of whisky and looks at me.

" Allan has heart cancer, he just has some few days before...he dies. And the only wish he needs now is to get married to me and as his friend, I have to do that for him. I have to sacrifice myself for him to be happy before everything finishes for him, he is my friend Derick."

" And you trust him? Wow, you are still the same, the same girl who thinks everyone is good and not bad, you are very naive Lea. Open your eyes! Was he the one who told you that?" He asks.

" Yes, I even saw his results test!"

He approaches me.

" Don't you know he could have falsified his results only to have pity from you and force you to get married to him? Open your eyes, Lea, he just wants to separate us and you are falling deeper into his trap."

" Are you normal? Are you hearing what comes out of your mouth? Allan isn't that genre, he can't play with such news only to get married to me. Life isn't a game. I trust him."

" AND YOU DON'T TRUST ME!!" He says, throwing his glass of whisky on the wall.

I get afraid of the man I am seeing right in front of me. He wasn't the Derick I knew. His expressions were different, I couldn't recognize him.

" Derick I have already taken my decision!"

He comes closer to me and holds my arms with force.

" Then why are you here? Go and see him, stay with him and never come again." He says, still holding me with more pressure. His eyes deep into mine but unfortunately full of anger.

" Derick I feel pain, leave me," I say trying to get out of his control.

He leaves me and gets to the door before opening it and inviting me to go out. I massage my arm and turn to look at him.

" Get out Lea! I wish you the best!" He says.

I go closer to him.

" I thought you would have understood me, but I was wrong, you are just a fucking bully. Allan has always been with me all these four years waiting... and you, where were you? " I say while getting out.

To my car, I sob realizing all the pains he is procuring me. How could he talk about Allan like this and worse, treat me like shit? He deceived me and if everything has to finish, then let it finish. I have already spent four years waiting for him in silence, so I can try to spend all my life without him.