Chapter 97: Chapter 97
SIMOUNE
I woke up to Bruce knocking on the door of my room, I immediately got up and went to the door of my room and let him into my room. He immediately hugged me and kissed me on the forehead
"You stay in your room too much, Nanny Lily is already here in the living room. Mommy and daddy and Lucy's parents are also downstairs waiting to see you" Bruce said
"I'm not ready to see Nanny Lily lying in the coffin babe, I want to stay here in my room" I said
"If it's really what you want, I won't force you as long as you call me when you need something, okay?" Bruce said
"Yes babe" I said
"I'll go downstairs and take care of the guests in the living room" Bruce said
I just nodded and then he left my room. I was not ready to see Nanny Lily lying in the coffin. How can I handle seeing Nanny Lily in a coffin? It's hard, the pain is painful for me, I can't do it yet
Because when I woke up, I couldn't escape the sadness, so I started crying. I don't know when the pain I feel will end, I just want to be happy, but why am I experiencing this?
I stood up and went to my table. I looked for the albums where I see daddy and mommy happy, I also see Nanny Lily here who is very young and happy while she’s carrying me. I hope it's like this, I hope they're alive again, I hope daddy and Nanny Lily are alive again. So that I am not alone and without company in this house.
I lay down again holding the album and staring at it, I couldn't stop crying until I realized that I fell asleep
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Someone is tapping me and it's none other than Bruce, I feel headache probably because I'm about to crying all day and of course also because I've missed a meal
"Babe, your mommy is here" Bruce said
"Mommy? I thought she was in another country?” I asked
"They called her and they said that Nanny Lily is dead so auntie immediately booked a flight to come here" Bruce said
I immediately got up because I had nothing else to do but go down to the living room and face this challenge. When we got downstairs, I saw mommy and other people in the living room while talking, mommy greeted me and hugged me
"Simoune" Mommy whispered
"It's good that you got here mommy" I said
"I was confused when I booked the flight, I couldn't go with your uncle and your siblings because they still have school and work. Condolences dear" Mommy said
"It's okay that they didn't get here, I understand why" I said
While mommy and I were talking, other guests approached and said "Condolence" to me. I hugged them, after mommy and I talked, she told me to look at Nanny Lily's coffin.
"I can't look at Nanny Lily yet, mommy" I said
"Why not? You have to face and accept that she is gone dear, you can't run away from reality" Mommy said
I didn't do anything anymore and mommy and I got up, we slowly walked towards Nanny Lily's coffin. I couldn't stop crying because my feelings were so heavy I couldn't understand, so I immediately ran to my room and locked myself in. I really can't handle the pain of seeing your loved one lying in a coffin, it's hard
I didn't do anything else but cry more and more. I feel like it's the end of me because I can't even open my eyes properly because it's so swollen. I don't know what to do to stop the pain I feel because it really hurts
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Simoune did not realize that she had fallen asleep due to the mixture of fatigue and stress she was experiencing, on the other hand Bruce was busy taking care of the guests. Bruce is his parent's helper because Nanny Lily is no longer there to take care of him
Bruce and his mommy took turns sleeping because he couldn't handle it if Bruce was the only one who would take care of him, Simoune's mommy also helped in taking care of the guests because she was here. They didn't do anything when Simoune entered her room, she didn't want to disturb her so they didn't knock on her, they understand why Simoune is acting like this because no one can bear the death of a loved one
Bruce slept for a while in Simoune's daddy's room, because he was very tired, luckily Lucy was helping him take care of the guest so he wasn't alone. Many people attended Nanny Lily's hill. Their classmates and Simoune's daddy's troops were here.
You never really know when and how the person will disappear, so you need to love and appreciate the person you are with while they are still alive. Let's love our loved ones with all our heart while it's not too late.
When Bruce woke up, he put Lucy to sleep so they could rest, Bruce went up to Simoune's room but it was locked so he didn't continue to knocking at the door because she might be fast asleep, even Bruce was saddened by the loss of her loved ones in Simoune's life so there is nothing he can do but take care of the guests because Simoune is not really ready to face this problem, I really hope that Simoune will overcome this sadness, pain and hardship.
Bruce just returned to the living room and attended to the guests, serving food and even coffee to the guests who arrived. They are also looking for Simoune but Bruce says that she is sleeping and she can't deal with what happened now, the guests understand so they don't ask about her again. When Bruce finished serving the snack, he sat next to Nanny Lily's coffin and there he was talking to her that he hope Simoune will be okay because she didn't eat, Bruce was already worried about what could happen to Simoune so even Nanny Lily who is silent in the coffin, he still talking to it and wanting for an advice.