Chapter 96: Chapter 96

SIMOUNE

I woke up early, that's why I thought of getting up and going to the kitchen to make coffee, when I got to the kitchen and I made coffee I thought of taking a peek at Nanny Lily to see how her sleep was. I slowly walked towards Nanny Lily's room and saw that she was still sleeping so I immediately went back to the kitchen and continued drinking coffee, because Bruce was not awake yet I thought I would cook

I got eggs and hotdogs of course I need oil, while I was frying I also sifted some rice for us to eat, a few minutes later I saw Bruce coming down the stairs and still rubbing his eyes

"Good morning baby!" I said energetically

"Good morning babe, why did you cook? You should have just waited for me to wake up, are you hungry?" Bruce asked

“No, I just want to try to cook just yet so you're not the only one who gets tired of cooking, right? I will help you as long as I can" I said

I hugged him and kissed him on the forehead, while I was cooking Bruce's arms danced around me which felt good. After I finished cooking, Bruce helped me serve it on the table

"Nanny Lily isn't awake yet?" Bruce asked

"Not yet, maybe she was just tired yesterday that's why she hasn't woken up yet" I said

Since we were waiting for Nanny Lily to wake up, Bruce made coffee first and then we sat outside the house, chatting until it was 9 in the morning. I'm surprised that Nanny Lily hasn't woken up yet because she usually wakes up really early

"Can I wake up Nanny Lily? It’s already 9 in the morning?" I said

"Alright so Nanny Lily can drink the medicine too" Bruce said

I went to Nanny Lily's room again and immediately tapped her

"Nanny Lily, wake up it’s already 9 in the morning and you haven't eaten or taken your medicine yet. It's bad to go through hunger and medicine, remember?" I said while tapping her shoulder

I was wondering because no matter how much I patted it, it didn't wake up so I lifted Nanny Lily's blanket and found that she had peed on her bed

“NANNY LILY!!????” I screamed while tapping her shoulder

“NANNY LILY!????? Why aren't you waking up!!???” I yelled

Bruce heard my screams and immediately went to Nanny Lily's room and checked if she still had a pulse and when Bruce looked at me he just shook his head.

It's getting dark around me and I'm crying. Just yesterday we were happy with Nanny Lily so I can't believe that now she's gone. I can't accept it, it hurts, I thought everyone was happy, I thought there was no problem, but why is this happening? Why did you leave me?

I didn't realize how we got to the hospital, because my mind and emotions were blank, I didn't do anything else but cry and cry. When the doctor came out, he and Bruce shook their heads

"She was attacked while she was sleeping that's why she couldn't fight it and she died completely" Doctor said

I was even more depressed when I heard, I felt like I was weak because I didn't think that this would be the day that Nanny Lily would be gone. I thought I would be able to take Nanny Lily with me on my graduation day. I thought I was lucky in the part that I got her out of the hospital, but it seems that I am not lucky. Why do I still feel unlucky now?

I didn't notice that Bruce called Lucy and said to take me home because Bruce will take care of everything that will be Nanny Lily's hill, as we walked to the car my mind seemed to be closed. I just want to cry and cry until my breath and tears run out

I just stared at the view until we got home, I immediately went to my room and lay down. I'm crying like I don't know when my tired mind will stop. While I was crying, I thought of emailing the company I worked for and telling them what happened to me today why I won't be able to work for a few days, only a few minutes later they immediately replied and said "Condolences for your loss, Ms Simoune”

Lord did I think everything was okay? I thought there would be no problem? But why is it like this that you are punishing me for everything that happened to me? Nanny Lily is not my blood but she took care of me from when I was a child until now that she died. She is the second mother I taught because she puts me first more than anything else, she is not like Mommy who left me, she is always there even when I am tired and naughty. She never left me……..

It was so deceiving that I thought yesterday that everything was in agreement, I thought she would be the one to go up on the stage where I graduated, I just thought that. I know, I don't deserve this pain, because it's too painful to accept. This is what daddy is saying that my problem will not end because it continues and all I have to do is end the problem

I just lay there and looked up at the ceiling while thinking and cried. What am I after this? How am I? It's like this house is so sad and I'm the only one here. How else can I start this? How about me?

With every tear that touched my cheek it was a sign of pain, fatigue and sadness. I don't want to blame everything on you Lord because maybe you have a reason why you gave me this problem, and the only thing I can do is accept and face this problem. I hope I can see the tunnel to the one where there is no problem and no pain to feel.