Chapter 15: Chapter 15

I saw her gaze, even from under the helmet, and the next thing I saw she was clinging to his back and disappearing into the night with him.

"What the shit!" Jayden cursed and looked down the street in the direction they had disappeared.

"What's your problem?" Ethan asked and Jayden walked right up to him.

"What's my problem? Have you looked at the guy? Have you looked at the bike!?" he yelled at him, but I stopped listening to the two of them arguing because I felt Samira on my hand, which always still carefully trying to wipe the blood from my hand.

"Can we go to the trailer?" she asked quietly and I could see in her eyes that the whole situation weighed on her. I really didn't want to do that to her, didn't want to think about Lou, but I couldn't help it.

"Yes," I said simply and she immediately took my intact hand in hers and pulled me past the two brawlers, who then followed us and were still discussing what kind of person Alec was. I wondered that too.

Could he make Lou happy? Can he offer her what she deserves? Can he love her like I did?

I felt sick realizing myself that it was me who didn't deserve her and without saying a word I let go of Samira's hand and ran to the side of the road to throw up violently. All that shit burned my throat and I felt the warmth of the tears on my cheeks.

"I'm here," Samira breathed and stroked my back soothingly, but I turned around and roughly grabbed her wrist.

"I don't need your help!" I yelled at her and immediately saw her start to cry in terror.

"What's wrong with you?" Ethan came and grabbed my arm while Jayden stayed with Samira.

"Leave me alone!" I snatched my arm from him, whereupon he provocatively pushed me and drove me mad with it.

"What are you going to do now Chace? Slap me? Go ahead and still the hate you feel is only for yourself! You can't break up with Lou because of your mate and then treat her like shit just because you Don't you dare mark them!"

He glared at me and I averted my eyes from him.

"You seriously think a tag changes something? You wanted Jo so much before you tagged her, exactly she wanted Jayden with Chiara. I didn't have that, I felt an attraction, nothing more and I thought I did do the right thing if I succumbed to fate!"

My voice got louder and louder and he rolled his eyes and just screamed.

"Just tag her! Then everything will be different! She will become one with you and you can be happy! Why don't you want to understand that?!"

"Because I still love Lou!" I yelled so loud that even Jayden and Samira, who were standing far away, looked over at me in horror.

Ethan said nothing more, he just shook his head and put a hand on my shoulder.

"You broke not just one, but three hearts," he whispered, shaking me. "Get clear to yourself what you want first and don't take it out on the woman who is your mate. She isn't to blame for your situation, nor is that idiot with the bike or Lou. YOU need to be clear about what YOU are want. Not fate, not God or anything, just you."

I looked Ethan in the eye and thought about how Jo had changed him and then looked over at Samira who was crying in Jayden's arms.

"Can you take her home? I need time to myself," I asked calmly and he just nodded at me before going to the others.

I walked on alone to the trailer, let myself fall exhausted onto the small bed and stared at the ceiling in tears.

I just didn't understand it all. The connection should make me forget Lou. But why was I only thinking about her? why did it hurt so much I didn't want to feel this pain anymore, just wanted to be with her right now . But she was happy, even without me.

I slowly opened my eyes and was the first to notice that there was a strong thunderstorm outside. The lightning kept lighting up the gray sky while the thunder shook the forest.

Still flashed from last night, I reviewed the ride on the death machine. I closed my eyes and remembered the strong wind, the passing surroundings and also Alec, who, like a gentleman, had really only brought me to the front door and then politely said goodbye again.

I tried not to think about Chace and after hearing a knock I stood up and walked to the front door in my fluffy brown pjyama.

"Good morning, or should I say noon?" Ludwig greeted me and had a small basket of rolls with him.

"Lunch is good," I replied, yawning, and opened the door a bit more to let him in.

"Where were you last night?" he asked me as he was about to put the rolls on the table and take off his soaked jacket. Poor guy, had to go through that storm because of me just because nobody else was there, but that had changed since last night.

"I enjoyed the absolute freedom," I replied with a grin and quietly closed the door. He immediately turned to me and looked at me in surprise when he saw my smile.

"That sounds good."

He smiled and ran a hand through his blond hair, then sat down in the chair with his eyes on me.

"Yes, it was really good, too," I confirmed and sat down on the couch to immediately grab one of the warm sandwiches, which unfortunately got a bit damp despite the towel, but they tasted good anyway.

"I rode motorcycles with Alec," I told him, and he nearly dropped the bun.

"How did that happen?" he then asked excitedly, leaning forward in the chair to toss his blond hair back and eye me curiously.

"I don't know, just happened."

He looked at me thoughtfully for a moment and then smiled gently. Chiara was right, he could really give you peace and serenity, just with his charisma.

"You really seem to be doing better, then I don't have to do my patrols twice a day anymore."

He smiled and fell backwards as if a weight had been lifted from his shoulders.

"I'm sure I'll get on your nerves," I laughed and he shook his head with a grin.

"Oh nonsense, I would just like to spend an evening with Isabell again."

"She's really lucky with you," I replied and he suddenly beamed from ear to ear.

"Oh no, I'm really lucky."

He got up, put on his black jacket and took the basket in his hand.

"I'll come by in the morning anyway, because you really don't get on my nerves."

One last smile and he disappeared out into the storm, pulling the door shut behind him, leaving me alone, but something was different. I didn't feel as empty as I had in the past month. Taken, of course, and I still had sadness and pain in me, but it was bearable.

I got up thoughtfully and then ran to the bathroom to get ready for work. Of course, I didn't need to put makeup on or style my hair in this weather, so I just brushed my teeth and then changed into black jeans and a gray hoodie. Finally, my rubber boots and a red rain jacket and I ran to the door to then run to work.

The sky above me roared loudly as the rain pounded the ground loudly.

Arrived at the store, I suddenly saw Jayden, who looked at me angrily.

"Are you completely out of your mind?" he immediately started teasing me and kept stroking his wet hair away from his face.

"What do you mean?" I asked, but I could already guess it.

"You're getting on with a strange-"

"You mean with my companion," I interrupted him and crossed my arms provocatively, whereupon he glared angrily.

"Nobody knows him and you get on a motorbike with him in the middle of the night!"

I stared at him in disbelief and bit my lower lip in anger.

"Are you kidding me, Jayden? You talk about mate here mate there and I'm supposed to get over Chace and then what I'm doing isn't good?!"

I gave him one last scornful look and then walked past him into the store. The main thing was that the pack was doing well, that was important to them, everything else was not. I was so annoyed that my heart rate skyrocketed and I had trouble even taking my jacket off in my excitement.

Only when I had calmed down did I go about my work and distracted myself from everything.