Chapter 14: Chapter 14

Even before I opened the curtain I could smell her and my heart started to ache. The loud house music got into my ears and I pulled Samira behind me by my hand to walk through the curtain and I immediately felt her walk into me.

"Sorry, I-"

She trailed off and I looked into her familiar warm brown eyes. My heart was beating so loud I thought everyone would hear. Jayden and Ethan stood next to us and I was still looking down at the little one who seemed really lost and whose eyes were on the clasped hands of Samira and me. I would have preferred to spare her this sight, but when I wanted to free my hand, Samira's grip became tighter.

Ashamed and overwhelmed, I avoided Lou's gaze, who then turned to her brother. I heard her voice and my pulse was racing. How long had I not heard that sound? Only now that I saw him did I realize how much I had missed him.

"Fancy shoes," I suddenly heard Samira say and looked down at Lou to see the yellow rubber boots she loved so much. I knew that because I was the one who gave it to her and I immediately realized that she was making fun of her. I looked at Lou worried and only casually heard her brother's question as to who she was with.

She suddenly looked at me so intensely that I caught my breath and forgot everything around me. I stopped hearing the music, only saw her eyes and the light flickering in the background until Samira snuggled close to me and subconsciously forced me to take my eyes off Lou.

She stuttered something and looked around at the bar, where I immediately recognized Alec, whose smile I wanted to smack.

"Oh, haha. Now I understand your question. I'm here with Alec," I heard the brunette say and had to suppress a growl. Then, when that smug ass walked up to us, I thought I was going to freak out, but Lou looked so happy smiling to herself that I didn't really care. She should be happy, that was the most important thing for me.

"Are you coming, darling?" he suddenly asked her and I looked into her sweet face to see, horrified, that she looked deep into his eyes and her cheeks turned red. I couldn't stand it any longer, had to leave here immediately, otherwise I would tear the whole place apart. I pulled Samira behind me and sat down at one of the black tables from which you could see everything well. When Jayden and Ethan came, I didn't even notice them, instead my gaze fell on Lou and her companion, whom I would have liked to jump on.

I only felt hate for him and stared after the two and how he helped her onto the stool, fuck man! I saw them laughing together and had to turn away. what was wrong with me I left her to follow my destiny, to be with the woman who would make me happy, but then why wasn't I happy?

Apparently my sense of what was right had deserted me. I felt bad about being jealous of Alec. I felt bad about Samira for not getting Lou out of my head. I was just a wreck inside.

The hours passed and I downed one drink after the other, lost in thought. I only took part in the conversations on the side and occasionally stroked Samira's back like a robot, simply because she deserved it. It wasn't her fault either, I was the only one to blame for everything.

When I suddenly saw Lou and Alec leaving the club, I felt a sharp pain in my chest that spread to my hand. I wanted to get up to follow them, but Ethan suddenly grabbed my arm and waved in front of my face.

"What's going on?" I snapped at him and felt Samira's hand, which shocked me and put a napkin on my hand.

I had crushed the glass and my hand was covered in blood and broken glass. I didn't feel the pain though, because the pain inside me overshadowed everything else. Maybe Jayden was right. Apparently Lou was happy without me and should stay that way. It would certainly be best if I tagged Samira as quickly as possible before I broke on it.

Hours passed in which I was able to learn a lot about Alec. His passion was weight training, his tattoos, his guitar and his motorbike. His parents lived somewhere far away and he had turned his back on them when he was 18 years old after they hadn't told him who he really was. He was really interesting, I had to admit, but my eyes kept wandering to Chace, but Alec didn't say anything. He remained calm and let me freeze until he suddenly stood up and gave me his hand.

"Let's go, I'll show you something."

"And that would be?" I asked, slightly unsure, but I still gave him my hand and let him pull me out of the club.

"You'll see then," he whispered as we stood between the curtain and the door close to my ear, which took my breath away for a moment.

He pulled me on and when we got outside he and I steered straight for a black motorcycle parked out here in the dark by the curb.

"No," I breathed anxiously and immediately let go of his hand.

"Trust me, okay?"

Er nahm den Helm vom Lenker und wollte ihn mir gerade aufsetzten, da machte ich einen Schritt nach hinten und schaute ihn verwundert an.

"Ich kenne dich doch gar nicht, außerdem hast du getrunken."

"Nur Wasser und du weißt schon mehr über mich, als der Rest der Welt."

I looked nervously down at my rubber boots, breathing deeply in and out as he came closer to me again and gently lifted my chin.

"You can go back in there and mope, or you can just trust me and I'll give you a sense of freedom you've never felt," he breathed close to my face, his eyes locking on mine and me again admired the beauty of his different colored irises. Gray and blue, just how I always imagined the deep, wide sea.

I turned my gaze to the door that just opened and saw Chace and the others busy tending a wound on his hand until all eyes fell on us and Jayden walked towards us, wide-eyed.

"I'll come with you," I said immediately, looking at Alec for help, who was beaming at my words and carefully put the black helmet on my head.

"You don't seriously want to get on there?" my brother asked with a trembling voice, but Alec, wearing his black t-shirt and dark jeans, had already jumped onto the bike and started it so that you could hardly hear his own word.

I looked through the helmet at Chace, who was staring at me with the same shock as my brother, and then turned my back on them to swing behind Alec and wrap my arms around his waist.

I thought it was somehow really nice that he saved me from a situation again, but I was also scared when he suddenly accelerated loudly and we rushed rapidly down the dark street, leaving everything else behind. I closed my eyes and pushed myself even closer to his back to clench my hands even tighter around him and then I suddenly felt his hand on mine, which made my eyes widen in shock. This crazy guy was really driving one-handed and then, as I peered over his shoulder with a racing heart, I immediately understood what he meant by freedom.

There were no cars on the road and only the dimly glowing lanterns gave us a view of the street, while the forest and the houses just rushed past me in seconds. It felt good to feel the wind on my body as we moved faster and slower across the tarmac, and as soon as the fear subsided, an unexpected smile spread across my face.

I clung tighter to him again and laid my head sideways on his back to watch the trees pass by next to us. I wanted to spend my life driving in circles with him, listening to the sound of his engine while I could feel him breathing through the tight hug, but then, as the sun began to rise, he pulled to the side of the main road where the forest path that led to my cabin.

I dismounted first, trying not to accidentally end up in the ditch while he turned off the engine and then gracefully dismounted.

"Did you like it?" he smiled and came over to help me take off my helmet.

"More than that," I smiled slightly and then looked through the trees.

"I'll take you home and don't worry, I won't set foot in your home again until you ask me to."

I nodded to him, relieved at his words, and together we walked in the direction of my hut, talking about God and the world.