Chapter 53: Chapter 53

Chapter 53 A penny for your thoughts?

?PAMELA'S POV

"Why does he look like that? That happened to him?" I asked hesitantly.

I was so scared to even speak.

Lucius was lying down on his bed, but his face and body had completely changed. He still looked like the same demonic monster I saw in the dungeon that night.

"Five years ago, after the great war, a witch cursed him. He would turn into this demonic monster every full moon. We have been searching for a cure, but without a witch's help, we cannot?create a strong serum that can either slow down the transition or completely stop the curse. He was doing okay until he met Maia. We have a reason to believe that even in his demonic state, he's still trying to protect his mate. He started becoming stronger each time he shifted ever since he had marked Maia. With Maia gone, his curse seemed to have gotten worse." Neal explained.

"What do you mean, it has gotten worse? How?" I asked.

I was worried, but scared at the same time. That was not the same guy that I loved. How was I unaware of that? Witch had cursed him for 5 years and I did not know.

"He has gotten stronger than before, which means the stronger he is, the harder it is to chain him down during the full moon. It even takes him long before he can shift back to himself. Right now, he has been like that for 9 days. We don't know what will happen if he does not shift back to his normal self soon. It has never happened." Neal explained.

I looked at him again as he looked so peaceful in his deep sleep. When I was in the dungeon that night, I never really got to stare at that face of his. Even while he was asleep, I could still feel the fear creeping up my spine.

"All this time I had been so adamant about becoming his mate without even knowing about his curse. I can't be mated to someone who turns into a demonic beast every full moon and is stuck with it for the rest of my life." I mumbled.

"What are you trying to say, Lady Pamela?" Neal asked.

I looked at Neal and shook my head.

"I can't be a mate to someone like him. No matter how handsome he looks by day and for the rest of the month, he turns into this monster on a full moon. We don't even know if he will still go back to his normal self. What will people think about him? They will fear him and might go after him to kill him. I don't want to be a beast's mate. That would be the death of me." I said.

"Are you saying that you don't want to be his mate just because of how he looks?" He asked.

I thought for a second and took a deep breath.

"My family has an excellent reputation. I can't let someone's ugly-looking face taint it. I don't think I can live with someone who looks like him. No." I replied.

I closed my eyes and shook my head.

"I'm sorry, Lucius. I can't do this. No matter how much I try, I can't shake off the demonic image of you. This is just too much for me to handle. I am sorry." I mumbled with my eyes closed.

"Lady Pamela," Neal called me out.

"I can't do this, Neal. I'm sorry." Saying that, I ran out of the room.

I kept running until my feet brought me to my room. I locked it and sat on my bed, hugging my legs to myself.

"No. no. no. no. I can't. What if he stays like that? I don't want to be known as the demonic beast's mate. I can't." I mumbled to myself as tears ran down my face.

No matter how much I loved Lucius, I could not bear the thought of being mated to that ugly face of his that was caused by the curse. I knew that the moment the word got out about him being cursed and turned into a demonic beast, every full moon, people would go after him. Even if I could stand his face, just the mere thought of people going after him made me worried.

For the next couple of days, I stayed in my room. I was too afraid to go out. What was I supposed to do when I saw him in the hallway and he still looked like the demonic beast he was? Deep down, I knew he was still Lucius, but seeing him under the curse was traumatizing.

After locking up myself for over a week, I mustered up the courage to leave the castle. I needed to get out of there even for a while. I needed to think.

I immediately changed and went to the town. Fresh air should help.

As soon as I got out of my room, the guards stopped me.

"Where are we heading to, Lady Pamela?" one guard asked.

"I'm going to town. Don't follow me. I want to be alone." I simply said before heading towards the elevator.

Thankfully, none of them followed me. I needed that time to think and I would not have been able to think if they would have followed me like a lost dog.

After walking into town for half an hour, I sat in my favorite café and sorted out my thoughts over a cup of coffee.

"Welcome to Heaven's Café! What can I get for you?" The lady at the cashier counter greeted me, asking for my order.

"I'll have one venti caramel macchiato," I replied.

I handed her the money before finding an empty seat. Luckily, I found one at the very corner of the shop.

A couple of minutes later, my name was called, and I went up to the counter to take my drink. I went back to my seat as I sipped on the cold drink that was in my hand.

'What do I do? I can't get mated to him when he has this curse. It will taint my name and it will shame me once others see his face. No matter how much I want to be Queen Luna, I can't stand his face. Just the mere thought of the things that can happen in the future scares me more,' I reasoned with myself, sipping on my coffee.

'If he was your actual mate, would you be in doubt right now?' Ella, my wolf, asked.

I let out a sigh as I pondered on her question. Ella's got a point. Would I be feeling the same way if a mate bond really connected us both? Would it matter to me how he looked or what the future would be if he was the mate that the Moon Goddess had chosen for me?

Just when I was about to answer Ella's question, someone sat on the opposite chair.

"A penny for your thoughts?" A very familiar voice asked.

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