Chapter 57: Chapter 57

Aviena's POV

"I only like you, My love," I said, looking at Camillia, who immediately pouted.

“I mean Dad, Mom. Not me,” she said so I just laughed before messing up her hair.

“Just eat. Maybe you're just really hungry,” I laughed and changed the subject. I just told her to te her some stories when she and her Auntie Ocean are together.

I also can't help but look around just to see how secure the place is. When we finished eating. Both River and I just clean the place. I have also become accustomed to cleaning since I have a child. I can't be so messy anymore.

After a while, I also cleaned Camillia's body. River also entered the bathroom after us while I just fixed the television that Camillia and I would watch later. There are three rooms here. River said we will stay here in the big one.

When Camillia heard the door open from the bathroom outside our room, she immediately ran to call her father. I just smiled too. I like how there are no uncomfortable and awkward moments in the two of them.

I just stopped when I saw her holding her father's hand as she guide him inside our room. I then lowered the comb I was holding. I just kept quiet there.

“Mama and I will be watching, Papa. You can join us,” Camillia said so River looked at me. I just let them be. We also quietly watched cartoons. Camillia was in the middle of us. She couldn't stop herself from hugging me. River was just combing her hair with his finger while watching the television. Camillia was just seriously watching too. I also didn't even notice that River and I were in the same bed. When that was over, Camillia was also drowsy. She's really tired of wandering around earlier. I can't help but smile.

"Are you sleepy now?" River asked her. Camillia nodded.

"Good night, Princess," River whispered before kissing the child on the forehead. Camillia looked at him as River stood up.

"Where are you going, Papa?" Camillia asked her father.

“I’ll let you sleep now. I'm going back to my room,” River said, still smiling at his daughter.

"No need for that, Papa," Camillia said so River and I both looked at her.

"You can sleep beside us," our daughter said excitedly so I almost choked on my own saliva.

"Is it really fine?" River asked so Camillia nodded one after another. While the smile was still wide on her lips.

"It's fine, right, Mom?" Camillia asked while smiling at me. I smiled awkwardly at her. My daughter is cute– I wanted to pinch her cheeks until she cried.

“It's fine…” I had no choice but to say that so Camillia immediately smiled with joy.

River ended up sleeping beside Camillia. We had the child in the middle. I don't know how I can sleep with this setup but it's fine, River is also far from me. I couldn’t help but sigh when Camillia still wanted me to hug her. And that was also what River did. I couldn't stop my heartbeat beating so fast when River's hand reached out to me as well.

"Good night…" River said weakly. His voice was soft so I knew it was for Camillia right away. I just nodded and tried to close my eyes because I could also feel River looking at me.

I don’t know how I was able to sleep that night. All I knew was that I woke up the next morning already trapped by River’s arm. I saw both of them peacefully sleeping. Both are facing me. I couldn’t help but smile on my lips as I watched them. They really look alike. Maybe that's also one of the reasons why I can't forget River. Because every morning, Camillia reminds me of him.

I almost choked on my saliva when River opened his eyes. I immediately met his blue eyes. He didn't say anything but he was just looking at me. I immediately calmed down and tried to remove his grip on my waist when it tightened even more.

“Let’s just stay like this for a while. Camillia still sleeping. ” His voice was still hoarse so I couldn't help but keep quiet and just close my eyes for a second but when I open it again, I saw how he look at me. I don’t know how to avert my eyes from him.

“What are you two doing, Mama, Papa? Are you having a staring challenge?” Camillia asked hoarsely but with a laugh. I was immediately taken aback and blushed when I realized that she was awake now. That's my cue to get rid of River who had no intention of making me go but I immediately slipped through.

“Let’s get ready now. I thought we'll go there at 8?” I ask. I could see River's smile but when he saw me looking at him he just looked back as if he wasn't happy anymore. I can't help but roll my eyes.

"Sulky," I whispered softly to myself.

We are already getting ready for our trip.

When we were in the car I also couldn't help but smile at Camillia who was also excited while looking around.

I was nervous and excited at the same time too. I can't deny that in every place I actually go to now, I feel twice nervous as before. I don't know if it's because Big Sister's just around or something like that.

We tried the Bohol countryside tour first. They even finish right away because they were immediately excited about our next destination.

We're going to go try Danao Adventure Tour now. Both of them are excited to zipline and to try cable cars so that's where we went next.

"Are you sure you can try it, my love?" I asked Camillia who immediately nodded. She wanted to try zip line as well as the kayaking activity. I know she's really brave but I can't help but be nervous. It will be my hobby to get nervous for both of them.

We really went there, they were the first to try the zipline while I was just watching them. I can't help but remember the time I tried to face my fear with River. But I can't really handle it right now. I was already filled with bodily fears.

"Mama, you don't want to try it?" Camillia asked me. River looks at me too. I just smiled and shook my head.

"I'll just take a picture of the two of you," I said so she just nodded. The two of them will try together now and Camillia can't stop her excitement. She always wants to try these things but I can't accompany her so she has no choice but just try water activities first.

I just took a picture of them. I also couldn’t help but smile when I saw how happy Camillia is. I want everything to stay this way but I know too that it can't really happen. There are still things that I haven't solved yet. Should I talk to Big Sister? What will happen if she's still as mad as she was before? What will happen if she's still using things she's supposed not to use? I don't know anymore.

I tried not to think about it when I met Camillia and River. They're both smiling at each other. There is no equal in Camillia's happy face. She looks genuinely having fun and I always want to see this smile.

“Next, Mom! You should come with us this time, please… you don't have any choice but to say yes… ” Camillia said, who almost tried to beg me. Cable cars remind me of some rides in our fair at that time. I don't think I can ride that one. Yes, I tried zipline before but it's more different.

"Please?" Camillia asked, still holding my hand.

“We can just ride together, princess. Mama's not good with that,” River said who noticed my silence. He knows me. He knows everything about me. Camillia nodded sadly.

"I'll try…" I said. I also want to face my fear. I practiced a few times while I was trying to heal. Maybe I can try to deal with my fears.

“You don’t have to force yourself if you can’t, Aviena. I'll look after our daughter,” River told me but I just smiled at him before shaking my head.

"It's fine… I want to try it too…" I said so he just kept looking at me. Is he worried? Does he still care then?

I'm sweating bullets when we finally went there. I couldn’t even keep the nervousness out of me. River's eyes also went back and forth between the two of us and Camillia. When I got there, I just closed my eyes in fear and nervousness. Gradually I remembered the events of the past but I also immediately stopped when someone held my hand. A small hand and a big one. When I look back at River and Camillia, they are both worried looking at me.

"Are you okay, Mom?" Camillia asked me. I slowly calmed down when I heard her voice. I also smiled slightly there.

“I am…” I said.

"I'm sorry for forcing you, Mama… I just want you to have fun…" she said so I kept smiling before messing up her hair.

"Mama's having fun watching you and your father enjoying yourself," I said smiling at her. She also smiled back at me there.

“Look, Mom, Dad! Isn’t it pretty?” she asked as she looked around. It is… I also can't help but laugh because the second time I experienced it again but with the two most important people in my life now.

We just enjoy our view before we go down. They are still not satisfied there and want to go kayaking right away.

Camillia was still amazed as she watched those who do root climbing so I couldn’t help but scold her.

"Holy cow, Camillia, if you want to try that, just kill me," I said to her because she looked at her father as if asking him if she could try that too. Now that she's seeing more adventurous sports, I feel like I'm just going to die of nervousness because of her. She sighed before laughing.

“I’m just looking at it, Mama. I won't try it yet. Maybe when I'm a little older like I'm already 7 like that… ” she said so I immediately looked at her.

"No," I countered immediately so she looked upset. She even wanted to try Cliff Rappel and River Trekking when she saw that they have that too but I immediately stopped her. I don't know if she wishes to kill me early.

“But I’m old when I’m 7, Mama. I can even try diving if I'm already at that age,” she said so I immediately sat down in front of her

“Don’t even think about that. Do you want your mom to die earlier?” I even asked her so she just nodded and shook.

“But you won't die if I try i—”

"Camillia," I mentioned her name so she slowly nodded before falling silent. She even pouted as if sad with what I'm saying.

"I'll let you when you're 3 times older than 7," I said so she pouted because of that.

“What if I can’t reach that age? That's too long… ”

"Fluvuis Camillia." She knows that I'm already serious when I already say her whole name so she calmed down and stopped. But now, of course, she already has someone to talk with. She immediately look at her father who looked so amused looking at the two of us. I noticed the smile on his lips so I immediately frowned at him. He tried to suppress that but he couldn't. He just rolled his eyes at me before facing her daughter.

"Let's just follow Mama for now," he said so I couldn't help but frown.

For now, huh? What does he mean by that?