Chapter 18: Chapter 18

I took a sideways glance at Ethan beside me. He fell asleep between my arms. I don’t have any idea how long we stayed in this position. My arms are getting drowsy from keeping his head soothing. I heaved out a hefty sigh, and a thought came to my mind like a light bulb that’s been switched on.

I gulped when I tried to touch his hair. I’m afraid he might wake up with the sudden sensation, but he didn’t flinch or move to my luck. He’s sleeping soundly as if the world had stopped evolving around him, and he’s in his harmony. I couldn’t help but leer while stroking his hair, gently for him. He looks tranquil as if nothing’s going to stop him from taking this moment.

Many questions are still occupying my brain, and one of them is why he had a sudden breakdown, and he doesn’t want me to leave him. He cried so hard, almost howling and changing his half body into his werewolf form. I was ruffled, not knowing what to do. However, he didn’t do anything against my consent but a bolt from the blue. Instead, he rested his head on my chest until he passed out from weeping too much.

“Natasha…”

I stopped dead on my spot, my heart beating so fast, and my fingers stopped mid-air as I looked down. I’m anticipating him to do something, getting berserk for touching him, but his eyes didn’t unbolt. Instead, he changed his position. His face is resting right between my breasts, making them his comfortable pillow. I let out a smile and caress his feature.

“I don’t know why you’re crying earlier….” I whispered right on his lips, and then I touched his long thick lashes that were flaunting.

“If you’re hurting, don’t hesitate to talk to me. I don’t know why my fear or anger towards you suddenly puffed off like a speck of blown dust, but I do now understand you.”

I rested my forehead on his and closed my eyes, letting my heart palpitate due to tension. I took a deep breath then I kissed his forehead.

“You’re just like me. You needed someone beside you.” I whispered softly to him, my hand fondling his back.

I slowly let my head rest on his. My eyelids weighed down. I can feel the sleepiness conquering my system. I let myself dazed off to sleep, but before I could even do so, I felt someone lift me, and a soft, delicate thing touched on my lips.

A blaring screeching sound sprang me up. I frantically looked around, looking where the sound was coming from when it landed on a shadow upfront. I squint my eyes, trying to identify what it is, when the darkness suddenly stood up, towering over me as I gaze at him. He steps up, showing me his half-naked body.

“Ethan.” I lost a breath when our eyes met. He didn’t say anything. He intimidatingly walked towards where I was. When he stopped, he looked down at me, and his eyes were gleaming as his hair was bedraggled. Where did he go?

“I’m setting you free. I’m done with you.”

I almost choked on my saliva as I didn’t take what he said. I blinked multiple times, and my head was tilting sideward.

“E-excuse me?” Did I hear him right? Does he want to let go of me?

“You heard me. I won’t repeat myself.” he turned around, giving me an access view of his broad shoulders from the back.

“You deserve to live a life. Go before I changed my mind,” he growled like a mad beast. I gulped and didn’t say anything as I tried to process what he said. Silence crept us both, feeling each other’s existence. When I didn’t get up like he wanted me to do, he suddenly appeared in my face in just a blink of an eye.

“YOU HEARD ME! LEAVE!” he lost his temper as he shook me forcefully. He’s almost strangling me, not letting me retake a breath when he stops.

He let out a soft curse under his thin alluring lips then let go of me. He violently ruffled his hair. It looks like his patience is running out. I got up from the bed and traveled towards his spot.

“Just…please…go. I-”

I embraced him before he could be finished what he wanted to say. He stiffened in his place. I would expect him to push me away, as he doesn’t like physical contact like this. Instead, he slowly lowered his hands and let them rest on his side as our hearts pound in sync.

“I’m not going to leave you, no matter how many times you will push me away.” I sunk into his flesh as my tears started to form. I bit my bottom lip, retraining them from falling.

“I know you made bad decisions in your life. I know it’s hard for you to control yourself. I know everything is falling apart…” my hands tightened, my shoulders moving slightly. I controlled my sobs. I don’t know what I am saying. I don’t know why I didn’t choose my freedom.

“But one thing I know is that you’re alone. You needed someone. You’re earning something, something we both wanted. Something called appreciation.” I weep on his back, not caring at all of his reaction. I wanted to say this because he needed them to hear it.

“I’m here, Ethan. I won’t leave you! Even though you treated me like trash or a fucking toy you wanted to throw away, still, I won’t let you feel what I suffered in my existence! You’re not a bad guy! You’re just a lonely man who wanted to feel considered of this harsh reality!”

I densely slide down on the ground while bailing my eyes out. I covered my face with my palms. I don’t know why I’m crying. I don’t know why I sacrificed my life just to stay with a  treacherous man. But one thing I know is that…

“You’re the only one I had left,” I said, more like whispered to myself.

He didn’t say anything as he stood there straight, letting me on the ground. I halt myself from crying after an hour. I suddenly realized what I had said. Unawares shame and trepidation crept into my heart. I know my words don’t mean anything to him, but still, why do I have the nerve to tell him what I felt around him?

I stood up, my attention on my feet as I walked away. Those words are nonsensical to him. I shouldn't even fuss. He doesn't need me anymore. I should be complacent and blissful about it because, finally, I'm free. I can do whatever I want to do. I can talk to anyone without the thought of getting scared might kill them on the spot.

I unlocked the door was ready to go out when I felt a sudden arm wrapping around my waist, turning me around, and lips crushed on mine, kissing me. My eyes widen. Ethan's kissing me, but he's not in a hurry this time, as if he's taking his time to flavor my mouth.

I attempted to protest and ask why he was doing this, but he secured both of my pulses and pinned them above my head as his kisses grew deeper. I can feel his body heat. Every time I touch it, I feel burning.

“E-Ethan…” I huffed a deep sigh when his kiss trailed down my neck. His fangs are tracing the sensitive parts making my body shiver and my hair stand at the back of my neck. I grasp on his hair, and he lets me hold for it while he’s doing wonders over my body.

He stopped when he was in front of my private area. He looked up at me. His eyes are asking. It's just astonishing because he seems to be asking permission from me. Even though I wanted to stop, my body betrayed me as I nodded my head, signaling him to do it.

He didn’t waste any more time as he tore my clothes using his fangs, letting the cold wind stroke my flesh. Before I could even comprehend what was happening down there because it took him more than five minutes of just staring at it when he opened my legs, he rested them on his shoulder as he devoured me down there, making me shriek and bit on my fingers. I cried in pure ecstasy as his powerful tongue licked, lapping and playing with my clit.

“Ethan!” oh god, what is he doing to me? Why is my stomach turning upside down? Why does it feel luscious?

I felt a tingling sensation in my abdomen. I feel like I'm about to reach something. I looked up and let out a series of moans as he combined his finger and tongue to play with my womanhood. I can't take it anymore! I arched my back, and my legs were about to shake uncontrollably when he stopped!

“Ethan!” frustration was evident in the tone of my voice.

I thought he wouldn’t continue, but I yelp in surprise when he held my both waist and threw me on the bed. As I lay down and looked at him from my feet, I saw him unbuckling his belt. When he showed me his thing, my throat went scorched. I couldn’t deny the fact he’s incredibly huge. He strangled on his specialty, his lips slightly parted as he stroked it up and down.

“Spread your legs, open them for me.” he got on top of me, and I couldn’t help but stare at his necklace that’s hanging around his neck. It was directly on my eyes. He grabbed my jaw and forced me to look into his eyes. He holds his necklace then bit on it while his other hand caresses my inner thighs.

I slowly spread my legs, but he was impatient as he was forcefully laid them using one hand then positioned himself in between. I gulped due to anxiety while looking at his thing. Does it go to fit again? He lowered his head to catch my lips which, I openly let him suck my tongue. He let his thing stroke my inner part, letting me grasp on his hair because of the sudden contact. Oh god, he’s even inside of me yet, but I feel like I’m about to reach my limit.

“That’s it, cry in pleasure. I want to hear you moan and beg for me to cum inside you.”

He didn’t break his promise as he was racking my body for hours until I passed out.