Chapter 34: Chapter 34

Cole did not complain about my offer to him. The construction workers arrived just a few days ago and even exceeded what I expected to come. I didn’t know that he would take seriously what I said that needs to be made easier because it is better to teach people who want to study earlier. But I think it’s also good that he dug into what he worked for because of the 20+ he took to haul the equipment. They didn’t have a hard time. I was right when I said that they could not enter the vehicles because it was too muddy. The mixer truck also did not enter, so they were mixing the cement manually.

Somehow there is a beginning even though they have only been here four days since they came here. As I watched all the cement, the worker’s Cole stood beside me. I was wearing an orange dress and white shoes. When the strong wind passed through my face, my hair ruffled, so I put the sharpened hair back behind my ear. I saw him seriously staring at my face, but I didn’t pay attention to him. The bitterness in my heart still hasn’t been removed that Adonis didn’t even give me head ups he would leave me.

Cole walked over to me, but I just left his hand there. I didn’t want to show him I still had doubts in my mind. He suddenly brought his mouth close to my ear, but I just stayed in my position. I didn’t show any reaction to him. I wondered what I would do next after I gave him the flash drive. Shall I answer him then? Eventually, whatever I thought just hurt my head. We will be back in the city. There are already many volunteers here, so I think everything is fine.

I removed his hand that was holding me, then did not speak. I walked into people, watching how people work. I didn’t have a hard time because I got their attention right away. Smiling children and a few adults looked at me. Maybe they were happy that they would have a hospital and school. It is heartwarming to know that somehow you are helping. I just hope it’s always like this.

“Thank you so much for welcoming us until today. I am happy to have once been a part of this place. I hope you will always be guided by the Goddess.”

I look up to the family that is giggling. The father lifted his son while the mother chuckled. I watched how happy their family was, but I didn’t realize that Cole had turned to me again. Ever since I told him I would think about what I would say to him about the topic of being his girlfriend, he has never left my side. Everywhere I go, he is there. Everywhere I looked, he was staring. He doesn’t even think what he’s doing is a bit scary; he looks like a stalker obsessed with an actor. That’s what I always see in the news.

“Do you want a family like that? I can give you such a happy family as long as you just give me your sweet yes.”

I frowned at what he said. How can he say such a thing? Isn’t he horrified? He killed people, then he wanted to have such a happy family? How could such a cruel man say these things? He would have kissed my cheek, but I suddenly put my hand on his face so that it would not continue.

I went back to my room to pick up the suitcase. I don’t know who will carry our suitcases. It’s embarrassing to send people here. Especially with volunteers. They are the ones who helped for free. It’s embarrassing if I will order them. I know that the companies that sent them here paid for them but I would also like to give them, however; I don’t have any money to pay for them.

When I pulled out the suitcase, there was a sudden whistle. When I looked at who it was, it was Dong. The one who picked us up at the airport to help us get here..Two people his age approached me and took my suitcase. He placed it on his shoulder and the other lifted Cole’s. That had just come out. I smiled at them. Ever since Adonis left, I have noticed my smiles are not the same as before. It’s no longer the same as before reaching up to the eye. Now even just lifting the edge of my lip seems like the hard part.

“Wait.” I grabbed the man holding my suitcase, leaving as he should. Cole also looked at me because I made a restraint on the man, but he didn’t ask so I continued. “I’m going somewhere first. Give me 20 minutes.”

The man lowered the suitcase on his shoulder, probably because he was already struggling. “Don’t follow Cole. You just need to wait,” I told him because I knew he would follow me again.

I immediately ran to the place I was going to. As I was jogging, my tears kept falling. I couldn’t stop sobbing. I just wipe the tears that run down my cheeks because they fall one after the other. When I got into the big grass, it was still a bit slippery but I still tried to run fast. When I got to Adonis’ cabin, I was expecting him to go back there. That maybe I just made a mistake that he left. But I only saw the open door.

Just as I left that door last night, it is still the same. What the room looked like when I went and left it, nothing had changed that even the wind didn’t seem to have changed it. I sat on the airbed and I hugged my knees. For a few days, I thought it might not be true that he left me here after he cried over my virginity, but this is probably the answer to my question. No Adonis. There is no trace of him. At least he left a note as to why he left.

I could hear my voice throughout the room. Even the sea wind and the whipping of the water did not want to accompany my crying. I just cried all the doubts in my heart. When I leave this province, will I also leave all the memories that Adonis formed for us in this room? When my sobs subsided a bit, someone showed up outside the door. Even if it was Cole, nothing; my heart still really hoped that it might be the person I was hoping for.

Was he there since earlier? Maybe now he was wondering. Maybe he already had the answer to the question in his mind about why I didn’t answer him. But no, I thought Cole would get angry because I had a guy else I liked, but he didn’t rebuke. He entered the room and hugged me, which made my sobs even louder. I thought my tears were gone, but they didn’t. My heart ached even more. Why do you have to treat me like this? I plan to destroy you! I want to tell him that.

“Whoever hurt you, maybe he doesn’t know how to look for gold as you.” I could not speak to what he said. I thought, he just thinks of me like everyone else.

I don’t want to be like this. The world has made me feel bad enough; I don’t want to go back to how my life was. If I don’t stand up, nothing will happen. I moved away from Cole’s embrace with me. He looked me in the eye, so I did the same. I won’t show Adonis that I was too affected by what he did to me. Maybe so, maybe so, and this is the exchange for him helping me. This is probably what he says he will ask of me. And at least, I can somehow tell him I have recovered 1/4 of the assistance he gave me.

I grabbed Cole’s collar and kissed him like the kiss I did to Adonis. I kissed him to prove to myself that my feelings for Adonis were superficial. That was not enough to renounce revenge. I already said the words Cole was waiting for. I won’t wait any longer to get home to the City. It doesn’t matter if I say it here or there. I broke away from the kiss and wiped my lips.

“Will you be my boyfriend?”

I know it’s unromantic, but the only thing that matters to me is what he replies. I don’t care what he responds but of course I still 101% know what his answer is. His eyes suddenly lit up. I smiled at him. Suddenly, he hugged me even tighter.