Chapter 33: Chapter 33
“What are you doing here?” When I was at the door, that was immediately what Cole asked me. Maybe he saw my crazy laugh. Maybe hundreds of questions were going through his brain as to why I was laughing alone in this cabin, even though there was no one here except for me.
“Why did you follow me?” I did not answer the question, but I answered with the question as well. I lost my enthusiasm for this plan. All the excitement I poured out vanished like a bubble. I didn’t look at him and still walked, even though he was blocking. As I approached the stairs to put on my slippers again, he grabbed my hand. No one answered our questions for each other.
“You haven’t explained yet. I didn’t ask you why you weren’t ready to be my girlfriend even though you also showed that you like me.” His eyes were full of questions and he was ready to ask the next questions again, but I knew he was keeping himself from getting angry. No matter what he does, he will never get an answer from me, especially since I feel that the person I trust has deceived me so much.
“Which of the words I used do you not understand?!” I raised my voice a bit, but I still didn’t show that I was angry. I just look irritated because of his excessive insistence. I just want to lie somewhere and be bitten by ants. Why is it so hard to move every time he’s there? I really shouldn’t be hiding from him, but I do. If it’s just like that, it seems like nothing. Maybe I should make him my boyfriend to make everything easier for me, so I don’t have to wait long to get stuck in Adonis’ house. Wendy might just drag me out.
I sighed. That was probably the deepest sigh I ever made. I no longer waited for him to speak and continued walking, even though I knew he was blocking. He eventually left because I’m sure he knew I wouldn’t be happy if he stopped me. Given what happened today, I don’t know what I’m going to do next. As long as he followed me, we did not get together. To let him see that I have no interest in being his girlfriend, I asked him.
“How many of them have enrolled?” I cut the big grass and saw the road. I can hear people’s noises again. Earlier, they suddenly disappeared, and I thought they were hiding. Maybe they just rested.
When a volunteer saw me, they looked at us one after another. I knew what they were thinking, but I just did not poke. I don’t want to joke now. I approached the person who was holding a paper and held out my hand as if asking for money. He looked at my hand, so I took my face seriously. “I need to know the total number of those who enrolled, to know the size of the school that will be built.” I approached him because I knew Cole had no intention of answering me.
“We now have 322 adult enrollees and 457 children. That includes everyone there, as well as those who are in the other barrio. He didn’t look at me and just read the paper. I thought about what he said and bit my finger so hard. How is that? We will last even longer. I thought it would be easier for us to finish because we work together a lot.
“How many estimated months before it’s all over as well as the hospital?” I asked Cole, who was also quietly listening. He looked at me intently, as if his mind was flying and not focused on the subject. Is this the only reason why he came here?
“Can it continue without me? I mean, you don’t need my presence while the buildings are being built. I need to go back to the City.” I don’t care what they say anymore if they say I didn’t stand by my word. I don’t want to stay here while I dig into the things Adonis and I did while I was just walking. He was the one I remembered.
“Why? Just one step and we’re done. Why do you have to go back? ” Finally he spoke. I thought he would just stay stumped until our conversation was over. The volunteer left because maybe he noticed Cole was not in a good mood.
I honestly don’t even know what I’m going to do in case I get back. What shall I say to Adonis? “Why did you make me dependent?”, “Why did you do that to me?”, “Why?” With so many reasons jumping in my brain, I can’t single them out. It was as if needles were piercing my heart and it was as if a single stab again and it would explode and it would bleed profusely.
“I will return, not because I don’t want to work on the project anymore. All I want to do is unwind. We will carry on with the project. Isn’t the foreman and engineer also responsible for the blueprint plan?” It’s true what I’m saying, it’s the workers who have to work then, and it’s a good thing I don’t have to plan how to tame Cole because he appears to be following me even now."
“We can go back. Don’t you also have a problem that needs to end? You know when I repair my phone, I can help you with the virus you say.” I still have the flash drive. Just a few steps and I’m here as I hoped. Just one step and it’s all over. It’s just that my chest tightens when I think I’m leaving that house. I was filled with memories and joy, fantasy and love. But I didn’t think I would have to leave there either. I mustered up the courage to carry out my final plans with Cole.
“I can also answer your question there.” I averted my eyes from him. “If I can be your girlfriend.”