Chapter 35: Chapter 35

“Hello, Ms. Luna! Why did you arrive so early? I assumed you’d stay a little longer!” It was Estella. She was the only person I noticed cleaning the living room. I didn’t see Nana Sena or even Father Adelard outdoors gardening. Mark was not present since I failed to notify them. I went there on purpose and then unexpectedly returned home.

“Oh!” Estella let go of the mop she was holding, as if something had crossed her mind, and dashed to the kitchen. “I remember! It’s still morning, so maybe you haven’t eaten yet!” I can hear the pans already.

I haven’t eaten anything yet. Cole offered. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t seem to get hungry. Cole and I didn’t chat the entire trip. I was just staring outside and did not bother me since he knew he was my boyfriend. The relationship has lost its significance for me. When Estella started cooking, I didn’t even protest. I left the luggage and followed her into the kitchen.

“How are you doing there?” Estella’s cooking appears to be fried, which is OK because I’m not hungry yet. “Sir Adonis hasn’t come home yet so I thought he followed you.”

What she stated did not surprise me. I anticipated Adonis not to return here, so my rage grew even more. I even beat up a toy barbie that was thrown away when the owner became bored with it.

“It’s just alright. It’s normal, same like before.” I’m floating as I say this. It seemed as though my mind was racing and I had no idea what words were coming out. She also didn’t respond, maybe because she realized I didn’t seem to be in my dimension just now. I used to enjoy making her laugh. It appears that I just must act immediately and get back to myself.

I’m still debating what to do after I have eradicated the virus. What other information should I obtain? Cole would certainly ask me to his house as a result of saying yes to him. Everything will be over when I discover Cole’s secrets; that’s what I had to do, and it’s just one step away. I will broadcast all the data.

When I smelled the bacon in front of me, I fell back into a trance. Nana Sena cooks here, so Estella may have no option but to prepare for me because Nana Sena appears to be quite busy. I went upstairs once I finished eating. I took out my phone and flash drive. I still don’t have a new phone. It seems that I am in desperate need of it right now. I’ll also be going to Cole tomorrow.

Because my eyes were awake throughout the trip, I fell asleep quickly. I woke up to a knock on the door. When I opened it, I saw the face of the person I was looking for. It’s funny that even though he’s standing in front of me now, I can’t even feel the anger. This is how it is when hearts learn to love. Even hitting them with a hammer-like a normal pumpkin is okay. As long as you see the person, it seems to jump. Sometimes they even happen to want to offer that it’s okay for them to get hurt.

Even though the brain is connected to the heart, the brain cannot teach the heart who to love.

I fixed a stern glare on Adonis. I also wanted to demonstrate that nothing bad had occurred to us in the province and that I could carry on with the plan without him. He looks at me as if he can see into my soul. He made it appear to be able to read my mind, so I averted my gaze and turned away. I didn’t welcome him in and simply walked away. This is his home. He is free to do anything he wants.

“I’m sorry, and I left without saying goodbye to you. It happened suddenly. ” The tone of his voice looked like to convince me to believe. He didn’t have to explain. That’s his life. I can’t control anything that he wants to do or must.

I should not obligate him because it feels better to know the person is sure of you.

It’s hard to walk into a mirror. You don’t know when it will break. That just in case you fall, how many wounds will you get? Who will treat you? Will someone be ready to catch you?

“You don’t have to explain.” I attempt to answer him in as few words as possible. Even though I speak phrases that will make my heart feel better, I know there is still grief in my heart. That reminds me of blood that has cooled. If only he could not do that now, to abandon me and leave me in the dark. The first was with Wendy; for a few days, I believed I was being trampled on, but the second time he did it, abruptly abandoning me for no reason, was too much.

I felt alone again. I made a decision that I didn’t know was right. Cole was there with me. Instead, he should be with me. I stood up to go out. I’ll just sit in the living room so I can have more fun.

But I returned when he suddenly hugged me. I sat on his lap when he dragged me back. I was astounded by what he did. I couldn’t move because I was frightened of moving the thing in the center of his legs. Maybe when we give our body heat again, we won’t be able to identify how we feel for one other. Maybe all he feels for me is sheer body heat, but me? I’m certain of my feelings for him. I wanted to get to know him more, but he didn’t show interest in doing so. He’s like a box that you’re not supposed to open since it contains a wealth of information and secrets.

“Tell me, how do you feel about me?” I couldn’t help myself and it came out of my mouth deliberately. I held back. God knows how much I restrained myself because I didn’t want to be hurt by the answer I could receive from him. I was more courageous because I could not see the sea of ​​emotion in his eyes. I wasn’t afraid to ask because he couldn’t see how tense I was, but I just felt heavier, asked more questions, and was disappointed again. Not just for him, but for myself as well. I’m hoping again. I expected it again even though I shouldn’t have.

“I can’t. I feel I have no right.” It’s not clear what he said, but there’s only one thing I’m sure of, he’s not sure of me. So why would I gamble with someone who doesn’t gamble for me? That I do not get assurance. That I am not given a clear answer or to the peace of my soul.

I removed the hands that were hugging me. His leaning forehead suddenly rose, and I removed the hand wrapped around my waist. I shook my head as if showing the wrong answer he gave me. I am expecting he will mention three words. But he did not.

“I answer Cole. I answered him as my boyfriend because I want to end everything.” I looked up so as not to shed the tears that wanted to precede the dripping. “Maybe I won’t be able to come home much because I’m sure he has a lot of plans for the two of us right away. I’ll get all the information I can get by that time. So I hope you can put up with me until I can do that.”

His eyes are shocked, but he prevents himself from showing it. Look at those emerald eyes. An Alpha eye. One eye can do everything, but that is also the eye of the unscrupulous.

Similar to Zheijang province. How I left that province with a heavy and painful heart was the same as how I closed this door. As soon as it closes, the tears start flowing.

I want to get to know you better always, but how?