Chapter 32: Chapter 32

My jaws were left open with what he said. I was still in the revenge phase while he was already flirting. Take note: he is already asking for an answer. His question stunned me; I didn’t know what to answer. How can I tell him I’m not ready yet? That was my only remaining reason for answering his question. Can he just ask something else?

“Y-you know, Cole, I’m not ready for those things yet. And that’s not what we went for here, is it?” I hesitated to take his hand away from me and then smiled awkwardly. I didn’t want to offend him, but because he suddenly asked, I wasn’t feeling good. I’ll just assume I haven’t heard that.

I left him there because his jaw stiffened. I’m hoping they complete what they’re going to do soon because I want us to leave here and I’m starting to feel uncomfortable with him again. I thought I’d feel better every time I saw him, but it was just momentary since he was acting the same way he had previously. Even though we don’t have a label, he becomes strict with me. I was already breathing freely as I entered the room. I clutched my chest as though Tom and Jerry were chasing each other within.

I immediately got clothes in the cabinet that I could wear. I can still feel the viscosity in my body. While thinking about what happened last night. I couldn’t help but shudder. I slapped myself hard to wake myself up to make sure I wasn’t dreaming. When I didn’t wake up I tried again on my right cheek and it wasn’t fake what happened to us. What will I do? How will I show him my face the next time we meet? Also, what is our relationship now? Are we boyfriend and girlfriend? Isn’t that so, when you give yourself to someone and also do what they did, does that mean we already have mutual feelings for each other?

I sneaked out my door so I couldn’t meet Adonis or even Cole at all. I don’t want to see Adonis first because I might not be able to stop and show him how crazy I am for him. I didn’t want to see Cole because he might force me to say that I had to answer him and that I had agreed to be his girlfriend. It was good, and the volunteers were still doing something, so I didn’t get much noticed. I think they will finish what they are doing today as well. When the enrollees are finished, the construction workers will arrive to start the work. Just in case, I’m wondering how the deliverer can get in the materials to be used. With the ground so soft, they might just stick as they go.

Or will the materials just be taken? Just thinking that what they were going to do seemed exhausting. I also think that Cole and I can go home after the facilities are done. The volunteers are here. Maybe we just need to wait for the equipment for the hospital. Hopefully, people will continue to inspire like them. There are many things to focus on in this area, but even a simple school and hospital center alone might be enough. I will also try to support such events next year. Adonis’ plan is also a win-win situation because he helped a lot.

When I finished and got dressed, I would have attended the listers but they were done. Some were already stretching their bodies while others were already yawning. They finished well and early. I don’t have to think about them anymore and I can rest as well. Before I sleep, I checked in with Cole to see whether he was still unhappy about what I said. Anyone certain; when they are shown lovely gestures, they will presume that you like them, but they will be disappointed when they discover that you do not feel the same way. I believed he liked me, just like Adonis, with his simple charming gestures, but then a woman emerged to present herself as his fiance.

“Ehhhh! Miss Luna is looking for Cole!” My eyes suddenly widened and I quickly looked at the rather large-eyed woman as she teased me. What? What is this woman saying? I was just looking for Cole because I wanted to see if he was still angry. Maybe my plan might suddenly stop because of the simple rejection he received from me.

The noise spread quickly because of what the woman said. I want her to be quiet, but I might just look guilty because of what she said. They became even more aware that I was taken aback by their jokes, but no matter how strongly they tempted me, no Cole came out. I just shrugged my shoulders until the people calmed down and entered their house. I can also feel the pain in the middle of my thigh.

Because maybe it’s noon and everyone’s doing everything, I don’t see anyone playing anymore. It is also a pretty hot day. I first made sure no one was around before I headed to Adonis ’cabin. I was so happy running that someone will think I had just been released from prison. I plan to scare Adonis when I come down. I removed my slippers as I made my way down the stairs. I noticed that I could not hear the little squeaks of things inside. That’s what I usually hear every time he’s in the cabin.

Still fresh to me whenever I remember that— here I have given my virginity. It seemed like it was only an hour when it all happened when I finally gave myself to him. I want to giggle because for the first time I will see his startled face. I wondered why the door was cracked, but even so, I kept going. I bent my back. It’s like I’m a witch who will give the apple to snow white.

When I opened the door, he was gone. I went in to look for him because maybe there was only a part that I didn’t notice, but I saw only hanging clothes left. His luggage is gone. It was as if he hurried to get away and left the wet clothes hanging on the wire he had made.

“HAHAHAHAHAHA!” I laughed out loud, as if I was going crazy. I laughed as I slowly knelt. Why did I believe him that he wasn’t Wendy’s fiance? Why else do I always let him give me fantasy words that take me to another dimension? There were no tears in my eyes.

Because the door is unlocked. The sun is no longer shining within. The influx of air likewise came to a halt. As the room darkened, I stumbled to the floor. I rose and brushed the sand away from my legs. When I stand at the door and confront the barricade. I start with my feet. There is air in my heart that wants to escape. It seems constricted, and I believe that letting go of that helps me feel better.