Chapter 152: Chapter 152

I stood up because of what Mark said. I didn’t want to ruin my way to persuade Sasha to tell me what she really saw.

"We will be more tolerant ma'am Luna if we don't say what our real purpose is. This is better.” Because of what Mark remarked; I was only more confused. Are they crazy already? What if this woman is afraid of me? We’ll just be equally miserable because we won’t get anything in the end.

“If you think that I witnessed the whole incident or that you are going to ask about the plane, you approached the wrong person. I did not see anything." Sasha told me sternly.

At that moment, my heart beat faster and I squatted in front of her again. I shook her shoulder so that she could tell me the truth but it seemed vague that it would happen when she removed her hand from me and stood up as well. The rain is also slowly fading and I don't know if destiny is really teasing me because I can see the rainbow.

Wouldn’t it have been better if it had just poured out harder to grieve with me.

“N-no…” My voice was gone. "Tell me…"

She didn't hear the last thing I uttered. When my body fell on the sand she walked away from us.

But after a while, she went on again, so my heart was revived.

I thought she would resurrect my dead hope. I made a mistake because she just put more emphasis on it to make me even weaker. I did not expect her to say these words.

"Don't wait for what's gone, don't kill yourself because you have someone alive in your heart."

Maybe because of the rapid shedding of my tears I could no longer track her departure. When I felt Mark's hand to help me stand up, I pushed him away from me.

I threw a lot of sand in the air to vent my anger. I tried everything possible to calm me down but nothing happened --- I still remained crushed and didn’t know what to do.

It's like I'm blindly looking for someone who doesn't want to show up. I touched my chest while sobbing non -stop. I knelt on the sand in the hope that by that moment Adonis would come out and tell me that I was just getting childish.

I saw Raymond arrive who was still a bit breathless. When he saw me hugging myself while crying in grief, he slowed down.

He stopped between Mark and me. At first, he was quiet but soon he spoke.

“… I asked people here… And there was a fisherman who told me that…”

He couldn’t keep up with what he said but because of his dead voice, I didn’t have to think or ask questions to answer the question in my brain about what he wanted to say.

I covered my ears and closed my eyes. I have already started whispering to myself. I will promise myself that I will believe nothing else until my own eyes see it. I never saw his mouth open or even his lips move.

“No… No. No. No.” Like a crazy person, making myself believe.

I won’t leave in my slump until they stop pursuing me about Adonis ’condition. I knew I was the only one hoping he was still alive, but even though my mind told me to believe them, my heart was screaming differently.

“Ma’am Luna, please ..” Even with my ears covered, I can still hear the voices of the two of them begging me.

"Shut up!" I shook to show them that I will not be discouraged.

I turned my head and saw Nana approaching me.

“Ajios! Child! What are you doing there! Stand up!" She panicked suddenly but I didn’t follow her wishes.

My hand is no longer in my ear but I still continue to shake my head. I do not want this.

I knelt on the ground and joined my two palms. “Lord, God, Almighty, Buddha or any other lord that exists, I beg you, if you are listening, give me a chance to correct my mistakes. Don't make me feel the pain I felt when I was a child.”

I bowed my head in the sand. I felt the rough sand go down my forehead.

"… I will do everything… I beg you." I could no longer feel my whole body. It was as if I was dying inside because of my excessive burden of hot stones in my heart.

"Child." Nana called me again. I could already feel her hug me. “Everything will be fine as well. Stand there. ”

She caressed my back to calm me down. I did not lift my face from the sand.

"Ma'am Luna, let's try the search again tomorrow. It's going to be late, perhaps you're just tired.” It was Raymond who spoke.

I didn’t hear Mark’s voice but I could see on my peripherals the cracking of the wet sand because of the kick he was doing.

How could I go on if even Mark had lost hope.

It was Raymond who helped me.

“Please be patient with Mark, he's just tired. Maybe that's how he behaved because even he was anxious.”

No matter how much he talks to me, nothing enters my mind. I tried to stand on my own but I couldn’t stand myself properly so I still needed the support of Nana and Raymond.

I try to recall everything that happened yesterday. From being excited to me and to how I ended up like this today.

When we arrived at Nana’s hut I couldn’t see Mark but I saw someone I didn’t expect to be waiting for.

It’s Apo Tilo.

Sasha already went home, what he still doing here?