Chapter 15: Chapter 15

I shout when he threw me on the bed. Yes, the bed is soft, but the bruise on my leg hit on his bed.

I haven’t mentioned it yet. Mom hit my back too, like three times still using my stepbrother’s belt. I thought I am going to die every time she hit me using that belt.

My eyes widened when I turned my gaze to him and saw that he was naked in front of me. I immediately covered my eyes.

No way! What is he doing?!

“H-Hey, what the! Get off of me!” I yelled at him when he’s now at the top of me.

I tried to push him away from me. “G-Get out of here!”

“This is my room, remember? And you’re making me leave in my own room?” I was silent for a second because of what he said.

That’s not what I mean. What I want to say is that he’ll get off me not get out. I think I’ve said it wrong.

“You’re my property Alyana, so you don’t have a right to refuse!” I was surprised by what he just said. It’s like chanting on my mind and I just felt tears falling into my cheeks.

I don’t have a right? This is my body, so I have a right. Why do you always make me feel that I have no right to myself? Ther’re so bossy to me, they always want me to do something that I don’t even like! This is so unfair.

“Shhh ... S-Sorry if I make you cry.” He wiped away the tears and move his forehead closer to mine.

“I’m sorry Alyana, don’t cry please.”

I don’t know but I felt heat in my body when I felt something piercing my stomach and when I realized what is that, I feel hot.

Omg, why do I feel like my femininity is getting wet? What are you thinking Alyana?! Are you crazy huh?!

Damn! I'm so f**king disgusting, I hate this. I shouldn't feel this kind of feeling towards him. I shouldn't let myself to make love with him again... wait make love? That's a wrong word Alyana! It's just a plain s*x, there's no love when you two did that. You two don't love each other!

Wait, I notice that I’ve been swearing more often. Since the first time I saw Stephen, I’ve been getting like this. He’s like a demon and influencing me to be bad.

“Hey, what are you thinking?” I turned my gaze to him.

He is now laying beside me and there was a blanket covering his body, but I know that he’s still naked.

I seemed disappointed. Why did he cover his body with that blanket-- I shook my head at what I was thinking?

“Answer my question Alyana or else.”

“I’m just thinking of something that is not important.” I immediately said.

“Are you thinking about me or is it another guy?!” what kind of question is that?

He’s getting weird.

“Non of the above.” I answered and averted my eyes.

“So, you are not thinking about me and you don’t think of other men too?”

“Yeah.” I nod.

“That’s kinda good, but at the same time, not. You should think of me all the time.”

I look at him in surprise. “What??”

Crazy.

“Nothing!” What did I do again? He looked like upset with me, did I said something wrong??

Minutes passed, and I decided to leave in his room. I was about to stand up, but suddenly he held my hand. He hugged my waist tightly.

“S-Stephen,” I felt his hand slowly moving down to my...

“Stephen?” We heard a knock on the door and we heard nanny Daley’s voice.

“Stephen??”

“Yes, wait a minute nanny Daley...”

“Okay, I’ll just call Alyana then.” Our eyes both widened at what she said.

“No, don’t! I’ll call her instead, nanny!” Seconds later, we didn’t hear a response from her.

Stephen immediately stood up and put his clothes on.

“She’s not in her room... oh, is Alyana inside your room now, Stephen?”

“Yes... I mean no.”

I heard her signed.

“I know. She’s inside your room. I heard her voice don’t lie to me. Are you two doing something inappropriate??”

“N-No--” I covered my mouth. Why the heck did you speak Alyana!

“Yes, we’re doing something, nanny, so can I--- “

“Okay, I’ll just wait for you and Alyana down there. Hurry up, okay!” I hit his arm because of what he said.

Why did he say that! We’re not even doing anything! I was more annoyed when he just laughed at me.

“Why did you say that?!” I looked at him sharply.

“I’m just kidding, but I guess she did really believe that.” He muttered, before leaving the room.

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Were just quiet while eating, no one spoke. Stephen’s only focus is on his food, he doesn’t even look at me even once.

I glanced at nanny Daley, who just looked back at Stephen and me and laughed while shaking her head.

This is so awkward and uncomfortable. I am more used to our house being scolded and hurt. But well, I guess this is better because I think nanny and Stephen won’t use violence on me... for real; I am kind of afraid that Stephen might use violence on me someday.

After we ate, nanny Daley put away the plate so walk towards where she is to help her.

“Don’t worry, young lady, I can handle this. Just go to your room and rest. I’m sure you’re tired of what Stephen and you did early.” Now, I to grave myself alive because of embarrassment!

We didn’t do anything, but why am I like this?

She looks at me intently. “Are you okay? Does it still hurt?”

“What do you mean?” I asked, confused.

She looked down at my private part and I blinked twice when I realized what she meant.

“N-Nanny Daley, Stephen, and I aren’t doing something like that,” I said and awkwardly smiled at her.

This is so embarrassing. Nanny Daley is not even shy when she asked me that question. I know we’re both women, but still, I don’t like that kind of question or even a topic. For me, that was awkward, though.

I walked to the bedroom and saw Stephen just coming out of his room so, I immediately ran.