Chapter 14: Chapter 14

“It’s okay. I have no plans to swim in your pool, anyway. It might just be dirty.”

“It won’t get dirty if you don’t get it dirty, right?” he sighed.

I was about to speak.

“Okay, fine, that’s better. I don’t really like you taking a bath in my swimming pool, like you said it might get dirty.”

I feel like I’m hurt by what he said. Am I really that dirty? I take a bath every day... I mean, not every day, but I have a reason I don’t take a bath sometimes, like when I slept late at night or didn’t sleep for some reason.

I’m the one who insists not to swim in his pool and now when he said that you’re acting that you're hurt?! I know I am stupid.

I just shut my mouth.

Nanny Daley came here again and said she would take me to my room. Stephen just nodded. It’s like he’s saying that ‘go on, just go with her.’

“Here’s your room.” Nanny Daley opened the room.

“Thank you, nanny Daley,” I said and smiled. I entered the room.

I look around. I was amazed seeing the size of this room. Hmm, Stephen is probably rich. What do you mean, probably Alyana? He’s not just rich, he is differently a billionaire!

Didn’t you see the painting and vase that cost a million already? How much more are the other things in this house? I saw those painting on the internet when I was just in high school. We did some research on that day because we have a project and I saw it when I scroll on google. I think I’ll never earn that money till I die.

I should be really careful because I don’t have money to pay if ever I break or damage any things in here.

I put my bag on the floor first; I sat on the bed. I can’t help myself from smiling. This bed is soft and wonderful!

I lay down and stared at my hand.

“I miss mom and dad,” I said softly to myself and sighed.

It’s my fault, it’s all my fault! Maybe I deserve to suffer like this. If I hadn’t been so stubborn back then, if I hadn’t insisted on going to the playground that day, that wouldn’t have happened to my mom.

If I hadn’t left the house alone, mom wouldn’t have left the house to look for me. She wouldn’t have been run over by a car if I was just at home playing.

I wiped away my tears and tried to calm myself. I know mom doesn’t want me to blame myself for what happened to her.

Someone said to me before that ‘everything happens for a reason' I just have to accept what happened to mom. I guess it is really her time to disappear from this world.

Minutes have passed and I felt thirsty all of sudden. I forgot to drink water early that’s why.

Is it okay if I go to the kitchen? I’ll just drink some water anyway. Why do I seem afraid? What am I afraid of?

I bite my nail and slowly opened the room.

“Are you going to steal something in here?” I jumped in shock. I slowly faced Stephen, who was standing behind me.

“W-What? Of course not! I’m just thirsty so, I thought to get some water in the kitchen.” I explained.

Why would I steal anyway?

Even though it I’m poor, stealing never crossed my mind. Mom told that it’s bad to steal other things. Well, I guess we all know that it’s not good to steal, right?

“I have some water in my room. Want to come?” Suddenly, my heart beat fast.

It’s like he’s seducing me, or I am just assuming? I think he will do something bad for me. For me, it’s bad, but for him it’s not, I guess.

“I-It’s not okay. I'll just go get in the kitchen-- "

“Okay fine,” he said and went back to the room... His room and my room are just next to each other... Oh, I’m not used to being called a room, it’s not really my room.

What I mean is it’s not my house, it’s not my dad’s house or my family’s, so I’m reluctant to say the word ‘mine’

Then when I drank the water, I came back. I was about to turn the doorknob when suddenly someone pulled my hand.

“W-What are you doing??” I nervously ask him.

“You’re going to sleep in my room.” He said, and that made me more nervous.

Sleep in his room? Is he crazy? After what happens to us that night, it just reminds me if I am going to sleep there. Why would I sleep in his room? I have my own room now, right?

“H-Ha? Isn’t this my room?” I said and pointed to the room that was just next to his room.

“Yeah right, that’s your room, but it doesn’t mean that you’re going to sleep there every night.” My eyes widened at what he said.

So, it’s like his room is my room because I sleep every night there... Every night??! Will something going to happen again??

But wait, it is not night yet, it’s still afternoon.

“W-What? You mean I’ll sleep in your room?” I just want to make sure that what I’m thinking is really right.

“Bingo.”

“Oh, I forgot to tell you. I bought you to warm my night. I’m telling you this because maybe you’re thinking that I bought you to be a maid or something.”

Warm his night?

I closed my eyes and bite my lower lip when I realized what he was saying. I forgot it he’s a f**kboy.

How is it? I really don’t want to have to sleep with a man that I don’t even know, especially when talking about s*x. My plan is that I’ll give my virginity after marriage. I’ll just have s*x with the man I truly love.

But now, it’s gone. He took everything. It’s okay Alyana! If ever you meet the right man for you, and if he truly loves you, then he’ll understand and accept that you are not a virgin anymore. Anyway, virginity is not important, because if you are just a woman just because they’re beautiful, sexy, virgin, smart, have so many talents, rich or poor, etc... then that’s not love.

You love them just because of their physical appearance that will never be called love because real love doesn’t just show in front of you, you can feel it by your heart.

I stiffened when he suddenly moves his head close to my neck. I could feel his breath and, little by little, I could feel his lips touching my shoulder.

“C-Can I not for n-now? I still need to fix my things you--- what the! T-Take me down... Oh my gosh!”