Chapter 41: Chapter 41
Silence between us makes it increasingly difficult for me to restrain Alpha from rebelling. Right now, I can only gaze at Aurel's face, which is close to mine. I keep stroking her face, making her look comfortable. Eventually, I decide to give Alpha a slight chance to avoid her rebelling within me, to suppress her thirst for Aurel.
I tilt Aurel's chin up to make her look at me again, and just as she's about to ask what I want to say, I lean in. One of my eyes starts glowing gray, the color of our combined souls—my soul and Alpha's soul. I instantly feel the warm breath from Aurel wash over my face, her lips sweet and soft as I press mine against them. Aurel is slightly surprised by my sudden kiss.
However, she soon follows the rhythm of my lips. I start to move them, sipping at her lower lip gently. I extend my other hand to pull her waist closer, our bodies pressing against each other. Even this simple touch makes my heart race so fast, causing both pain and an intense ticklish sensation simultaneously.
Alpha growls as she senses Aurel's response to our first kiss. I try to balance our movements so that Aurel isn't surprised by our burning passion. I release our lip lock when Aurel seems to struggle to breathe, and she looks at me with a gaze full of enjoyment.
"Your eyes are glowing now," Aurel comments, making me nod.
"I didn't mean both, usually I see both your eyes glowing, but now it's only the left one," Aurel says, making me nod again.
"I know, that's a sign that my soul and my wolf soul are merging," I explain, smiling when I see Aurel looking at me in confusion.
"I'll explain it slowly, but not until I'm done with this," I say again, pulling Aurel closer. I embrace her and rest my face in the curve of her neck, inhaling her scent deeply, causing my whole body to react intensely. I'm struggling not to let my fangs appear and bite her, marking her as mine.
"This isn't enough for me, Gray. I really want to mark her right now," Alpha says, making me growl. It indicates that I disagree with her decision.
"I've already said that we need to take it slowly. We can't startle or scare Aurel. Do you want her to start avoiding us again?" I reply, making Alpha curse before doing what I want. I savor Aurel's scent again and then kiss her, feeling how she grips onto the jacket I'm wearing tightly.
Aurel looks so lost in our kiss, and I try my best to control Alpha's urges, to make it a sweet and gentle experience for her.
I'm certain that it's not just my body reacting, but also Aurel's, because she's bonded to me. I can sense what Aurel is feeling right now, although it's still faint. I feel her whole body heating up, and her stomach tingling due to my actions. I extend my tongue and savor every inch of her neck's curve, as if inhaling her scent alone isn't enough for me. I decide to leave a kiss mark behind her neck.
Suddenly, I'm surprised when I hear a gasp escape from Aurel. I immediately stop my actions and look at her face. Her cheeks are flushed, and she seems shy, averting her gaze from me, not meeting my eyes.
"I'm sorry," Aurel apologizes, making me slightly tug at the corner of my lips.
"You don't need to apologize. I should be the one apologizing for going too far with touching you," I say, causing Aurel to look back at me, shaking her head.
"It's fine. I just didn't want you to be uncomfortable with my sound," Aurel says. I then pull her face towards mine again and place a kiss on her lips.
"I like your voice. I like anything that comes from your body, anything you do, anything related to you. So, never hold back," I say again, causing Aurel to fall silent while continuing to gaze into my eyes, which might look unfamiliar to her. I pull the neckline of Aurel's clothing again and press our lips together. Just a short kiss doesn't feel like enough for me.
I slide my tongue between her lips, and she opens her mouth, letting me play with her tongue freely. I then pull Aurel to sit on my lap, feeling her fingers curl around my neck. She plays with her slender fingers around my hair and massages my scalp, fueling my desire to taste her even more, creating a beautiful melody in our ears.
Another gasp escapes from Aurel's mouth as my hand touches her waist. I touch her back from beneath the pajamas she's wearing. The softness combined with the coolness of her skin contrasts with her warm body temperature, making her blush. Aurel then pushes my shoulder slightly, breaking the kiss between us. She presses her forehead against mine and covers her face, her breath heavy. I can only stroke her small waist as I ask, "Was I too hasty?"
Aurel shakes her head, still not opening her eyes. She seems to be trying to calm herself down.
"I don't know why, Gray, but this feels different," Aurel says, leaving me silent.
"Different in what way?" I ask, prompting Aurel to slowly open her eyes. Our gazes meet at such a close distance.
"The kiss we just had felt really different from before. Right now, I can't seem to control myself. I don't know why," Aurel says, and I understand her sentiments. The stronger our bond becomes, the harder it is to restrain the emotions swirling within us.
"I don't know either. I can't predict how long I can hold it in. I'm just trying to hold on until my last straw. And I understand what you mean. As I said, you're my Soulmate, and it's natural for this to happen. You'll feel more and more connected to me," I explain, making Aurel fall silent again.
"Then what should I do? My entire body feels so hot and burns when our skin touches," Aurel says, echoing my sentiments.
"I know what you're feeling, Aurel. We'll only do what we want, and I'll stop it if we reach a point where we can't handle it anymore. You're free to do anything you want to me, just as I am with you. So, don't overthink it anymore. Just focus on what you want to do, Aurel," I say, causing Aurel to fall silent before nodding.
Slowly this time, she pulls my face towards hers, pressing our lips together again. It's as if I'm allowing Aurel to take control of the desires between us. She sips at my lips, playing with her small and incredibly soft lips. Her slow movements make me impatient. I pull her waist closer, pressing her body against mine. I open my mouth and capture her small lips, kissing her fervently. Aurel grips onto my hair gently, fueling my passion even further. I'm slightly surprised when Aurel doesn't sit still on my lap, something hard down there almost bursting to life.
Perhaps that's the instinct of Aurel's body that is starting to heat up. It seems she truly can't hold back what she wants to do. Right now, Aurel slowly unzips the jacket I'm wearing, leaving the t-shirt clinging to my body. She does it as if she can freely move her fingers on my neck and shoulders. Just like me, I'm not staying still. My hands are playing with her back and caressing it gently.
I release the connection of our lips and start to kiss the hollow of her neck, causing Aurel to tilt her head back. At that moment, Aurel's scent becomes stronger, filling the room as if she's emitting pheromones like a female in heat, even though it's impossible since Aurel isn't a female wolf from our clan. But for some reason, the scent she emits is much stronger than the pheromones of females in heat.
"Your scent is so sweet, Aurel," I say in between my kisses on her neck, making Aurel tilt her head back and close her eyes, feeling every kiss I place on her neck. I leave a few red marks around Aura's neck, causing Aurel to let out a soft moan, her voice melodious, and I immediately lift Aurel's body and gently lay her down, this time with my body pressing against hers.
I kiss Aurel's lips again, our tongues intertwining as we play with each other. Then, I caress Aurel's stomach, slowly moving up to touch her rounded and firm breasts. In that moment, Aurel grips my hair tightly, her desire burning intensely, as if it can't be restrained any longer.
"Gray, my body feels incredibly hot," Aurel says, causing me to stop my movements.
"I'm sorry, it seems I can't control myself," I reply, but just as I'm about to pull my hand away from her chest, Aurel stops me.
"I'm enjoying it. Do whatever you want, please," Aurel pleads, looking at me with those beguiling eyes. She looks even more beautiful with her flushed face, full of desire. I can't resist any longer. I kiss her lips again, especially given the Alpha's state, which seems on the brink of losing control if I don't attempt to rein it in. Even I struggle to contain Aurel's scent, let alone my wolf's instincts. We can only growl and wait, not wanting Aurel to be torn between my embrace and the Alpha.