Chapter 40: Chapter 40

I returned from the Neutral dimension. Lately, I've been spending a lot of time there to calm myself and stabilize the newfound powers I received after the awakening I experienced. However, my current goal isn't my home in this human world. Right now, what I want to see the most is my soulmate, the one who makes me strive hard to restrain myself.

I immediately rush to her house, and it's not difficult for me to jump straight through the window that she didn't even lock on the second floor where her room is located. I sit on the window sill, looking at Aurel, who is sound asleep under a thick blanket. I realize she might be disturbed by the gust of wind that could disrupt her sleep, so I quickly descend from the window and close it again.

I lean against the wall and continue watching her, engulfed in the strong scent that fills the room. Just inhaling it makes my entire body react intensely. I can even clearly see the rhythm of her heartbeat and her steady breaths. Right now, I yearn to hold her tightly in my embrace and never let go. I want to inhale her scent as deeply as possible, to touch every inch of her skin without missing a single detail.

But I can't act selfishly right now; I also have to think about Aurel. I can only smile when I see how worried she looks, observing my current state. It's amusing how she's quick to offer her help to assist me. Who is worrying about whom here?

What she should be concerned about is herself because she can't turn back from being bound to me anymore. If only she were the same kind as me, maybe I wouldn't hold myself back this much, but she's different. I can't recklessly make decisions. I'm slightly startled when she stirs from her sleep. She turns to face me, hugging her stuffed animal.

I approach, extending my hand to brush aside the hair covering her face. Even just touching her hair makes my entire body feel hot. I gaze at her exposed neck; I so badly want to leave my mark there, to claim her as mine.

"Maybe you should do that now. She wouldn't refuse. After all, she offered her help for us," says Alpha, my wolf soul that's now merged with me, the Alpha that emerged within me after my awakening.

"We can't be hasty, Alpha. We need to consider Aurel's condition if we push it," I reply, attempting to reason with my wolf soul.

"But how much longer do we wait? Haven't you been patient enough, waiting for me to merge with your soul? What else is there? We can't leave our Soulmate like this, can we? I truly don't want to lose her. You know she's human; there are many dangers that threaten a human without the power to protect herself," Alpha says, leaving me speechless. Yes, she's a woman who seems fragile, possibly even shattered just by a tight embrace from us.

"That's why it's our responsibility to protect her. So, please, be patient for a little longer. I promise I'll make a decision as soon as possible, Alpha," I say again. Just then, Aurel slowly opens her eyes, startling me. My heart races, and my eyes glow with a grayish light—Alpha's signal that she's taking over my body.

"Gray," Aurel says, looking slightly surprised. Then she quickly sits up.

"You're really in my room. This isn't a dream, is it?" Aurel asks, and at this moment, I need to compromise with my wolf soul. I can't allow her to take impulsive actions. I need Alpha to be patient.

"Let me handle Aurel for now. You're not ready to face her yet, Alpha," I say to my soul, causing Alpha to snort in annoyance. At that moment, the glowing gray in my eyes dims. There, Aurel looks at me with confusion.

"Are you okay?" Aurel asks, making me nod. Alpha is now calm within me. It seems she can still think logically for now, but not for the long term. Her patience is thin; she has a fiery passion, and I struggle to control it as we've only recently merged. I still have to learn how to suppress my wolf soul in front of Aurel.

"Did I wake you up?" I ask, and Aurel shakes her head, holding my hand that's near her face.

"No, I'm glad you're here. Did you just return from the Neutral dimension?" Aurel asks, and I nod. She then pulls me to sit right next to her bed.

"You scared me when you disappeared suddenly. Don't ever do that. At least leave me a message or meet me briefly before you actually calm yourself down," Aurel says, looking at me with a worried gaze. I just tug at the corner of my lips, trying to comfort my Soulmate.

"I'm sorry, I was really in a hurry, and I didn't want to wake you when you looked so tired," I say, causing Aurel to once again place the palm of my hand on the side of her face.

"Your body temperature is warm, I like it," Aurel says, closing her eyes, allowing me to see her long, black eyelashes framing her beautiful hazelnut eyes. She opens her eyes again, looking at me with those hazelnut eyes.

"I missed you," I say, surprising Aurel slightly, but she smiles afterward. I like that thin smile of hers; it's sweet.

"If you missed me, why do you often disappear from me?" she asks, making me gently stroke her face with my thumb. She seems comfortable with it.

"That's why I have to do it, so I can suppress this longing," I reply, making Aurel fall silent. I know she has questions in her mind, but it seems she's holding them back not to trouble me.

"And when you disappear, I talk to Miss Brenda."

"Just call her Brenda. She's no longer the school owner of our school," I say, causing Aurel to look at me with a questioning gaze.

"Is that so, then?"

"She handed it over to the person who should manage the school properly. Don't worry, everything will go on as usual," I reply, making Aurel stay silent, seemingly digesting everything.

"Does that have anything to do with your awakening?" curious, Aurel asks, and I nod.

"Yes, after that, she'll be busy enough to return to Werinta, and she won't be able to meddle in the human world anymore. That's why she let go of everything," I explain.

"What about Rex? Will they always be together?" Aurel's question makes me raise an eyebrow as I look at her. It seems Brenda has really spilled the beans, including Rex's situation.

"You know everything already?" I ask, and Aurel nods.

"Yes, in broad strokes. Miss Brenda told me, although there are still many questions that need answers. But I'm patient enough. She also mentioned that you'll surely tell me something," Aurel explains, leaving me silent.

"Then, what's your opinion on all of this?" I ask, making Aurel fall silent again. After a moment, she shrugs nonchalantly.

"I don't know, I'm not too surprised. Maybe because I already knew your identity beforehand. So, finding out that Rex is one of you only made me wonder a bit. Where he could get wolf blood. Miss Brenda told me, so I understand. From the beginning, I knew Rex wasn't Aunt Anna's biological child," Aurel explains, making me nod. She then moves the blanket aside and pats the empty space on the bed next to her.

"Come on, let's get on the bed. We can talk comfortably like we do at your house," Aurel says, making me fall silent. I then glance towards her bedroom door, and she seems to know what I'm thinking.

"Don't worry, I always lock my room whenever I sleep," Aurel responds, and I can only offer a wry smile.

"Even though you lock it, your cousin probably knows when I'm in your room. You know, being in the same pack means having a Pack link and pack bond. We would sense each other's presence. And it seems from the beginning, he already knew I was here. Maybe he's currently restraining himself from breaking down this door," I explain, causing Aurel to furrow her brows.

"But isn't he on night duty?" Aurel says.

"Yes, he might have been earlier, but for hours now, he's been around the house. I can smell his scent, but don't worry, he won't dare to disturb us," I explain further. Afterward, I follow Aurel's request and climb onto the bed, leaning against the headboard like she does. She rests her head on my shoulder, allowing me to catch a whiff of her hair's scent that makes me want to keep doing it.

"Don't you want to sleep again?" I ask, making Aurel look up.

"It's really hard for me to sleep again once I'm awake like this," Aurel explains, making me smile.

"Tomorrow, you'll be sleepy at school. You have school tomorrow, don't you?" I say again, making Aurel look at me with a questioning gaze.

"By 'we,' do you mean us? Aren't you also supposed to go to school?" Aurel says.

"I can't go back to school just yet. I might be absent for a few days," I reply.

"Why? Oh, I'm sorry. I know you're still struggling to control your powers. You need time for that," Aurel says, making me extend my hand.

"It's not about that. I just don't want my wolf soul to go wild at school just because people are getting close to my Soulmate. I'm still trying to control my wolf soul. After that, I'll return to school and accompany you," I explain, making Aurel, of course, feel confused by all the explanations.

"Slowly, you'll understand what's happening to me. So, be patient, okay?" I say again, making Aurel nod while giving me a sweet smile.