Chapter 42: Chapter 42

I'm beginning to think that I should stop it right now before I completely lose control. But as I'm about to break our lip lock, Aurel tightens her grip on the jacket I'm wearing, not allowing me to move away even slightly. I'm slightly surprised when Aurel continues to kiss me passionately, sucking my lips forcefully and slipping her tongue between them.

I'm still trying to hold back so that the Alpha doesn't take over me.

"Aurel, I really need to stop this now," I say in between our kisses. But it seems that Aurel isn't listening at all, until I finally grip her shoulders, breaking our lip lock. In that moment, I can see the disappointment in Aurel's eyes, but then she appears shocked and tries to sit up.

"I'm sorry, did I push you too far?" Aurel asks, looking guilty. I then pull Aurel back to sit on my lap. She seems hesitant to meet my gaze.

"I just don't want to lose control, Aurel. That's why we need to stop before it goes any further," I say, making Aurel look at me with a questioning expression.

"Do you not want to do it with me?" Aurel asks again, and it's the most foolish question she could ask me. I shake my head immediately.

"Of course, it's not about that. How could I refuse your desire? But right now, I still have to hold back. I don't want to hurt you," I explain.

"I won't be hurt by you, I promise. I don't know why, but I can't hold back either. That's why I want to do it with you. It's not a sudden decision I'm making just for now. I've thought about it since the last time I was at your house, after you said I'm your soulmate. So, I don't see any harm in doing it," Aurel says, her face showing a mixture of hesitation and anxiety. I gently caress her face, trying to reassure her.

"You know, even now, I can't hold back from devouring you right at this moment, making us meld into each other's bodies. It's difficult, but I don't want to be selfish. I don't want to hurt you. Maybe if I were human, I'd give in to your desire, but we're different. You won't be able to handle the way I am and how my wolf's soul goes crazy for you, Aurel. So please, just bear with it a little longer. I'm also being patient. It's not that I don't want to be with you. In fact, right now, I want to hold you close and keep you just for myself, believe me," I say, trying to reassure Aurel. I just don't want her to have any misconceptions. I want to make it clear that I'm struggling with our situation too.

"I'm sure you won't hurt me. I just want us to not be apart from each other," Aurel says, her words bringing her face closer again. She moves in to kiss me, and I'm left speechless as Aurel's lips once again meet mine. She sucks on my lips, unable to hold herself back. I know it's not just her desire, but also the Soulmate bond between us that's clouding her logical thinking.

She's simply thinking about how to release the intense desire she feels for me. I grip Aurel's waist again as she sits on my lap, receiving the hurried kisses she's bestowing upon me. It's as if Aurel doesn't want me to change my mind.

"What else should we wait for? Didn't Aurel agree to it too?" Alpha's voice murmurs in my mind again, and this time I can feel Alpha merging back into my soul. And this time, Alpha takes over the kiss from us. He continues it fiercely, matching Aurel's intensity as he lays her down between the bed and our large bodies.

"Aurel, I can't hold back much longer," Alpha's words echo in my mind, and Aurel only becomes more eager, pulling me even closer to unite our lips. I start sliding my hand back under her clothes, cupping her breasts and massaging them gently, causing a soft moan to escape from Aurel's lips. I lower my kisses again, trailing along the red marks I left earlier.

"It's getting really hot, Gray," Aurel says, and my whole body reacts once again.

"Keep calling my name, Aurel. Say my name," I urge her, for some reason thirsty for the soft moans that escape her lips.

"I can't hold back anymore, we can do this, okay?" Aurel says, and I respond by giving her a gentle bite on the neck, not to hurt her or mark her as I should, but to kindle an even greater desire within her. In that moment, Aurel removes her nightwear, revealing her chest covered only by the bra she's wearing. It gives me even more freedom to touch every inch of her soft and smooth skin with my rough hands.

"I really want you," Aurel says, doing the same as she places her small hand on my hardened stomach, sending an electric shock that seems to pierce my skin, making my whole body tense up and harden.

"Damn, your scent is getting stronger, Aurel," I say as I truly feel like I'm sensing her pheromones filling the room. Just as I'm about to resume caressing her chest, suddenly my body is thrown back and away from Aurel, crashing into the wardrobe with a loud noise. The shock and surprise seem to snap us out of the moment.

Aurel looks at me in surprise, and I let out a slight grunt from the impact on my back. She quickly sits up, worry in her eyes.

"Are you okay?" Aurel asks. I try to get up, glancing at the wardrobe to ensure there's no damage, only a few items that fell off the top.

"Come here, I need to check. Are you alright?" Aurel says, reaching out her hand.

"It's fine, I'm okay," I assure her before returning to her side. I look at Aurel, who's now sitting up and gazing at me as I stand in front of her.

"What happened?" Aurel asks, her expression puzzled, as if wondering why we suddenly repelled from each other like magnets with opposite poles.

"I don't know, it seems to be some sort of boundary between us, Aurel," I reply, making her furrow her brows in confusion.

"Didn't I say that I'm your partner? Then what happened?" Aurel asks. I fall silent for a moment.

"It's because we didn't mark it quickly enough, damn it," Alpha chimes in from within my mind.

"Yes, it seems we need to do something about this. It's my fault for not being able to hold back. That's why we can't go any further, or things like this will happen," I explain, prompting Aurel to reach out and pull me to sit back by her side.

"I'm sorry for pushing you. I didn't know this would happen," Aurel says, worry evident on her face. I then glance at her clothes scattered on the bed, pick them up, and help her put them back on. I cover her modestly and fix her with a serious gaze.

"You don't need to apologize. We just need to go through certain stages to truly become one," I explain.

"What do we have to do? Shouldn't we do it as soon as possible?" Aurel asks. I look at her exposed neck, reaching out to gently stroke it with my hand.

"I need to mark you first. After that, we can truly unite, but before that, I need to figure out ways not to hurt you. I promise it won't take long, and you must promise to wait for me and be patient. Promise to stay by my side, okay?" I say, making Aurel nod without hesitation, as if she trusts my words completely.

"Of course, where would I go? Haven't I always offered my help to you? If you're struggling and not allowing me to help in the slightest, if you keep trying to handle everything on your own, it's as if you don't need your partner," Aurel says, prompting me to hold her tightly once again.

"It's not like that, Aurel. I just don't want to complicate things for you. I want you to follow me without any burdens. So please, just give me a little more time," I say, and Aurel finally lets out a sigh. She then leans her face closer and kisses my cheek gently and warmly.

"Of course, I'll always wait for you," Aurel responds, making me smile. I then try to lay Aurel down slowly.

"Go back to sleep, it's still late at night," I say, pulling the blanket to cover part of her body.

"You should sleep too, sleep with me," Aurel suggests.

"And tomorrow morning, Rex will probably drag me away if he finds out I've been sleeping with you until morning," I add, making Aurel fall silent.

"In that case, just stay with me until I really fall asleep. I just want to feel your warmth, Gray. I don't know how much longer you'll suddenly disappear after a week, and for the past few days, you've been vanishing without a trace. I don't know how to reach you, it seems like after regaining your power, you don't rely on your phone as much," Aurel says, making me smile faintly.

Well, in truth, we don't really need phones all that much. Once I've truly marked Aurel, we can communicate through our mate bond, and our connection will be automatic, rendering our phones almost unnecessary.