Chapter 185: Chapter 185

Monika Pov's

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Tears were continuously falling from my eyes. I kept everything inside me till now but today when I saw Aaron with Aana, I couldn't control myself and let out all my pain in the form of anger. I confessed the feeling which I buried somewhere in my heart.

Ever since I understood the true meaning of love, I have loved only Aaron. My morning used to start with his thoughts and end after hugging his photo. I love him with everything but he was not written in my destiny. He loves his fated mate. I was broken when I learned this truth. It took me months to get hold of myself. I made myself busy with pack work. I even tried to move on with Patrick whose mate died a few months ago…We thought to help each other to move on.

Despite everything, somewhere I had a hope that one day Aaron would reciprocate my feelings but all my hope broke when he came back with his pregnant mate.

All the feelings that I buried in my heart were awakened. I saw him after a month and he was looking handsome as always and his smile again won my heart. The walls that I built to restrain my feelings for him got broken easily. After seeing him, I got back to where I was before making the decision that I will move on. My feelings for him broke me again. Things got worse when my feelings started making me a villain in their love story.

I never thought that I would do that stupid stunt, becoming blind in love. First I lied to Aaron and Aana that Marry, who is taking care of Aana as a gynaecologist, asked me to tell them to stay away from each other till the delivery. Aaron easily caught my lie and wanted to punish me but his mate Aana saved me that day. Things got worse today when I started behaving like a psycho in front of him. I even tried to harm his pregnant mate.

I clutched my hair frustratingly because of the things I had done a while before. Even I had a fight with Patrick who was mad at me for behaving rudely with his Alpha and Luna. It's not that he was wrong. I indeed behave like a psycho.

"Take this" I looked up and found Patrick standing there with a bottle of tablet and a glass of water.

"What is this?" I asked to take the bottle from his hand.

"It's a sleeping pill," he replied. I look at him annoyingly.

"You know these human pills won't work on us," I said annoyingly. I'm already frustrated and in guilt, because of the stunt I played outside and he was freaking me out more by giving me these stupid sleeping pills.

"I know it won't affect you as it works with humans but it will help you to relax," he said and kept the glass near me. "You are smart, Monika. I know I don't have to tell you to control yourselves as you're aware of the consequences." I raised my eyebrow.

"consequences?"

"Do you think I will stay silent if you try to harm my Luna and Alpha?" He came dangerously close to my face. "I won't think twice before killing you" I smirked upon hearing me. He indeed takes his beta duty seriously.

"Believe me I don't love my life much. It would be a favour only" I said, pissing him off more. He rolled his eyes knowing I was just messing up with him. I'm not the person who will stop living his or her life just because I got rejected in love. He kissed my forehead lovingly.

"You know I care for you" I closed my eyes when he caressed my cheek with his thumb.

"Take rest and plan how you will make up for the things you did out of frustration." I opened my eyes and looked at him before nodding in agreement. He left the room, giving me the space I needed. I take four sleeping pills with water, knowing it won't affect me much but would help me to get a good sleep for a few hours. I lay down on the bed and started thinking how I would apologise to Aana for my stupid behaviour.

I rolled on the bed unable to sleep because of numerous unnecessary thoughts. My freaking overthinking problem. I picked up the sleeping bottle that I kept on the side table and started reading everything that was written over it. Thankfully it worked. I started feeling sleepy. I closed my eyes when my eyelids became heavy.

I was about to turn my body to sleep when I felt something heavy on my chest. I opened my eyes and found Aana's head on my chest.

"Aah" I almost screamed when I saw her this close to me while she got startled.

"Moon goddess.." She kept her hand on her chest. "You scared me," she exclaimed. I rolled my eyes.

"It should be my line, Luna," I said.

"I was just checking your heartbeat," She said.

"My heartbeat but why?" I asked confusingly and then sat straight when Alpha Aaron's scent hit my nostril. I turned my head towards the door and found him standing there, looking at me only with a worried expression. For a moment I felt happy that he is worrying for me but then I shook my head, realising he is worried for me because he is a good person and I'm a member of this pack, nothing else.

"You scared us, Monika," Aana muttered and held my hand in her hand. I turned my head towards her. She was still behaving nicely with me despite everything I did outside.

"Are you really that nice or are you just feeling sorry for me?" I asked, unable to believe that people like her exist in this world.

"Monika" I looked at the door when Marry called me. She rushed towards me and hugged me.

"You scared us, Monika" I look at Aana.

"Scared you? how?" I asked, unable to understand what was going on.

"When Marry told us that you tried to attempt suicide. I and Aaron came running towards your room only to find you lying on the bed unconscious. This fucking sleeping pill bottle in your hand."

"Suicide?" I chuckled and looked at innocent Marry who misunderstood my sleeping body as a dead body.

"I can't believe this... You find everything funny" I looked at my Luna who was fuming in anger and a smile formed on my lips seeing how worried she was for me. Aaron is not wrong when he calls her Pearl. She is indeed a rare and beautiful Pearl.

"You didn't even think once before taking this stupid step. At least you would have thought about the people who love you. Look at Marry who had tears in her eyes because of you.

"Luna"

"It would be better if you kept your mouth shut" She growled, shutting my mouth.

"You scared us, Monika. Look at Aaron. He was feeling miserable with the thought of something happening to you, feeling guilty. He was blaming himself thinking you took this step because of him." I shook my head negatively.

"I didn't and I'm absolutely fine"

"So should we wait for something to happen?" She yelled.

"Believe me, I'm absolutely fine and You shouldn't be stressed. It is not good for your health." I muttered and passed her glass of water from the side table. Before I could clear her misunderstanding, the pack doctor came inside.

"Please doctor check her. She took this stupid pill" Luna said, passing him the bottle of sleeping pills. I hit my head, seeing the whole drama. The doctor held my wrist to check my pulse and then he checked my heartbeat through a stethoscope. I wonder how loud it would be for him to listen to it as a werewolf.

"You and your thoughts" My wolf shook her head. "if you're done with your stupid thoughts then clear Luna's misunderstanding"

"Yeah," I replied and looked at Luna who was waiting for the doctor to open his mouth and give them the good news that I'm absolutely fine.

"She is fine, Luna."

"See. That's what I was telling you. I'm absolutely fine"

"But she took the sleeping pills"

"Human pills don't work on werewolves." I shrugged my shoulders. "Patrick told me to take some tablets as it will help me to relax my mind" She took a relieved breath.

"Moon Goddess" I looked at the door when I heard Aaron's voice. He was standing with the support of the door.

"It means you didn't attempt suicide?" He asked.

"What? Suicide... No" I exclaimed and looked at Aana then turned my head back towards Aaron. "Don't tell me you all think I tried to attempt suicide just because a stupid rejected me"

"Monika behaves," Marry growled when I called our Alpha stupid.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it but you only tell me who committed suicide because of such a stupid reason. It's a sin. Moreover, life is precious and I'm not gonna waste it over a man who didn't value me. " I yawned, feeling sleepy because of the tablet I took.

"We got scared for you, Monika." She muttered. I can smell her emotions which indicate that she is not pretending to care about me.

"I'm sorry"

"Why? For scaring us?" She asked confusingly. I shook my head negatively.

"For behaving like a psycho outside. I don't want to harm you or your pups. It was just my feeling that took control over me. I'm sorry and promise this won't happen again. Also sorry for asking that stupid question from Aaron."

"You don't need to explain yourself, Monika. Anyone at your place would have done the same but yeah, remember this he is mine." She said,

"Even I don't want a used piece" She laughed at the choice of my words and kissed my forehead."I don't have any younger sister but I got one today" she said with her beautiful smile, overwhelming me. I hugged her.

"Thank you for understanding me and I promise to protect you despite being your younger sister" We both laughed. She broke the hug and looked towards his mate who was still trying to calm himself after everything that happened. She stood up from bed and went towards Aaron then held his hand. I turned my face in another direction. No matter how much I try, I can't see him with someone else. It will take time for me to accept everything.

"She is fine… Relax"

"Monika" I looked at Aaron when he called me. "I know I hurt you but it was not intentional . I'm sorry." Aana started rubbing his arm when his voice became heavy.

"You don't know how scared I was when Marry told me that you tried to kill yourself. I'm glad it was a mere misunderstanding otherwise I wouldn't have been able to forgive myself.. Please, no matter what happens, never think of hurting yourself. Please..." I smiled at his words and nodded my head.

"I love you with everything, Aaron. It becomes almost impossible for me to bear the pain of seeing you with someone else. That's why I reacted like that in the hall but I'm not psycho Aaron who will take his life. Moreover, I believe in the moon goddess. If she gives me this pain then she will only send someone as my healer" I wiped the unwanted tear from the corner of my eyes. He smiled at my words and nodded his head then pulled Aana closer to him. I can say he became anxious because of a misunderstanding. Anyone would become as no sane person wants to become the reason for someone's death.

"You called me Alpha" I heard Patrick's Voice. He comes in front and looks at me then his Alpha.

"She did something again?" He asked with a hesitation.

"Yeah… I kicked on your ball" I mocked him. Aaron and Aana started laughing at my comment while he glared at me.

"I called you here to send you on a trip," Aaron said.

"Trip?"

"Yeah… A trip of five days with Monika and I won't hear any excuse. It's your Alpha order" Patrick and I gawked at each other. Yes, we thought of marking each other to move on in our life but we are not that close till now. It was a long journey but it seems like our Alpha wants me to move on soon to get rid of me. I smirked at my thought and looked at my chosen mate who was trying to come out of the shock our Alpha gave.

"It will be fun to have a trip with you beta" I mindlink him with an evil grin to tease him.

"Fuck you" He replied.

"Yeah we can try that" I replied and laughed after seeing his expression. He was looking at me like two horns popped out of my head.

"This trip is indeed going to bring change in my life. Either I will move on with Beta or will be alone for my entire life"