Chapter 146: Chapter 146

Aaron Pov's

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I was standing outside of her room, waiting for her to open the door but she didn't and then suddenly I started feeling uneasy. It didn't take me long to understand that she is not okay. I put my ear on the door and heard her breathing which was uneven.

"Fuck.. she is having a panic attack" I growled and broke the door using Rex's strength. I went inside and looked around, only to find Aana laying on the floor of the washroom, fully drenched in water.

"Pearl" I rushed towards her and pulled her into my embrace. Her whole face turned red while she was breathing heavily, closing her eyes.

"Pearl" I tapped on her cheeks and in response she clutched my shirt.

"Aaron" she called me…

"Yes… it's me.. please open your eyes"

"Please save me… Please save me from this bastard .. Please... They will rape me… Please save me. Please... I'm not liking this touch... Please save me. Please" she yelled and hugged me. I scrunched my eyebrow, not getting what she meant.

"This is not the time to entangle yourself in questions... calm her" Rex snarled, making me realise my stupidity. I moved my hand on her back to calm her.

"Relax Pearl... No one can touch you without your will when I'm with you... no one… Please calm down. Please" she broke the hug and looked at me. Tears streamed down from her eyes.

"Pearl." I cupped her face in my hand while she was trying her best to calm herself.

"Take a deep breath" She closed her eyes and did as I asked but before I could have commanded her to release it... She pushed me away.

"No... No.. no… Please don't touch me. Please" She started yelling, moving back on the ground.

"Pearl"

"No... Don't touch me. Please let me go... Please" She was continuously yelling the same thing until I stopped in my place, assuring not to touch her in any way. After a while, she calmed down a little bit when she didn't feel any touch and opened her beautiful blue eyes filled with tears. My heart twitches after seeing her like this.

"Pearl" I called her and took a small step toward her.

"Okay... I'm not coming near you... Relax" I muttered when she moved back, attaching herself to the wall. She was about to close her eyes when I held her hand.

"Don't" I hissed. She looked at our hand and then at me in fear.

"Sorry," I release her hand and sit in front of her. "Only look at your Aaron," I whispered. She stares at me breathing heavily and raises her hand to hold me. I immediately moved closer.

"Aaron?" She called me, unsure that I was standing in front of her and then she clutched my shirt tightly in both of her fists when I nodded my head.

"Aaron… Please" I put my finger over her lips, not letting her complete. She looked at my finger and then at me. I don't want her to say anything because I know this time it's important for me to stop her from thinking about her horrible memories.

"No one is here but you and me. So calm down" She looked around and then at me.

"Don't" I growled when she was about to close her eyes, knowing that if she closed her eyes then she would again recall her past and forget about me which is not good because she calms down only when she senses my presence near her. She always says my arms are the safest place for her and today I realised how much she meant those words.

"Didn't I tell you not to close your eyes" I cupped her face and wiped her precious tears.

"Take a deep breath and release it without closing your eyes' ' She nodded her head and did as I asked. I make her repeat the same process until she calms down. She rested her head on my chest.

"It's okay" I moved my hand on her back. Thankfully, she is calm but I can feel that she is drained of energy after having this freaking panic attack.

"What happened all of sudden that she had a panic attack?" I thought but didn't ask anything, knowing she will again have a panic attack thinking about her horrible past. I picked her up in my arms and took her towards the bed.

"No" I stopped her when she was about to lay down on the bed then bring one of my shirts from our room.

"Let me change your wet clothes" I said and started undressing her then made her wear my shirt. The whole time, she was silent and I know her silence is the inner turmoil which she is going through.

"Would you like to share something?" I asked, kneeling in front of her. She looked at me and a tear rolled from her eyes.

"My psychologist told me that I'm having a temporary recovery" I scrunched my eyebrow not getting what she meant.

"In simple words, I'm not healed but distracted. According to him, I can't recover until I face my past and start sharing what happened" She clamped up. I immediately held her hand in mine and kissed her knuckles before she would again start thinking about the past and have a panic attack. She looked at me and took a deep breath.

"I'm fine," She mumbled.

"What else did he say?"

"I will have this panic attack until I accept whatever happens and let it out" She whispers in low town. If I wasn't a werewolf then I wouldn't be able to hear her.

"So"

"I can't" She interrupted me and looked into my eyes. "I can't share anything. Even I shared a half-truth with Alice because remembering those things tremble my soul" I nod my head, unable to understand what I should say or do.

She lay on the bed and closed her eyes. Tears streamed down from her eyes.

"I don't think we will work out like this," she muttered.

"What do you mean?" I asked. She looks at me and then closes her eyes.

"He is right, you're my temporary distraction. I have to stay away from you until I move on from my past. I decided, before holding your hand, I have to break my tie with" She clamped up. I thought she would continue after a while but instead, she slept.

"What does she mean by breaking ties and about whom she is talking?" Rex growled in jealousy. I didn't reply and blew a blanket over her.

#At_Present

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"We should have gotten to know her real face after that day only that she was seeing someone behind her back. Remember that day she was being rude to us like she wanted to get rid of us." Rex growled. I tightened my lips, not able to understand what I should say to him.

After that day, Aana's behaviour towards us drastically changed. She started ignoring us and whenever we asked her why she was doing this with us then she asked for time.

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#flashback

"Aaron" She held my hand. "I want some time alone."

"Huh?"

"After three days, we decided to mark each other. Right?" I nod my head. "Then please give me time. We will mark each other on your birthday."

"Okay… Don't mind me but why did you start using perfume?" I was not able to control my anxiety after the sudden change in her behaviour. She left my hand and turned her head in another reaction.

"Be--Because I like this perfume" She stuttered.

"Why is she lying to us?" Rex snarled.

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#Present

I gave Aana time despite Rex not being okay with it. he was forcing me to ask her the reason behind her behaviour but I fought with my wolf for her. We didn't want to doubt her but she was giving us all the reason not to trust her. Talking with someone else overnight, thinking we slept. maintaining distance from us, not letting us touch her. Going home early in the morning and returning late but I ignored everything and wanted to give her the time that she asked for but then she proved that we shouldn't trust anyone blindly as we trust her.