Chapter 75: Chapter 75

His poisonous laughter. Just one more time.

I wanted to hear from him again and bring him back, but it was already too late.

He was gone, leaving behind no traces of him because I have killed him.

Hundreds of live white worms filled my right eye. Forcing themselves out of it, dropping screeching to the floor as I continued staring at the mirror with my true form showing itself.

I have consumed myself in darkness and wiped off Oceana's memories because there is nothing like freedom in this world.

There is no peaceful place.

Freedom doesn't exist.

~Oceana~

Five Years Later.

I walked along the roadway staring at the supermarkets, admiring couples giggling and kissing passionately at a corner.

I smiled sadly and walked ahead on my red heels.

My feet were hurting so badly, so I stopped.

I bent down and took off my red heels, from my red painful feet.

I sighed and began walking again, feeling relieved, and my feet were touching the ground as I strolled.

My long white hair blew away with the wind, my pale pink lips flushed at the cold.

My sparkling blue eyes shone in the dark.

I am an attractive young lady, you might say, and of course, my skin was as delicate as a pudding rose.

I was slim and curvy and taller than a female Alpha’s height, but I was okay.

It still feels like a dream up till now.

Five years, huh!

When I got to the hospital, I could feel my chest on my throat, sweating profusely on my forehead, even though there was wind blowing around.

I sighed a thousand times, my eyes nearly popping out of my sockets from crying so much.

I composed myself and went inside the hospital.

I knew he would be there waiting for me.

I went inside the hospital, strolled straight to the ward and met the doctor inside after knocking on his door.

“Hello, Mrs Oceana.” He greeted me.

I smiled at him, took a seat, and sat down.

He brought out an envelope and handed it over to me.

I grabbed it and tore off the seal, bringing out the test result.

I was devastated and nearly collapsed on the floor when he quickly came over to me and consoled me.

“Everything will be alright.”

I got up, pushed him away from me as I came out of the ward, walking over to the reception, looking dejected.

My face was in tears as I wiped it off my cheeks and my direction moved to my husband as he sat down pressing his phone and when he raised his head, his eyes were up at me.

He frowned.

I turned my face away from him and wanted to sit down when he broke the silence.

“What did the doctor say?’ Garold asked without looking at me.

I nodded with a sad smile.

“He said I wouldn’t be able to conceive.’ I replied. Hearing no response from him, I went on. “He said if I should try to get pregnant, I could get a miscarriage or I could lose my life.

“You can’t get pregnant.” He said still, typing on his phone, and then he looked at me again. “So, you are an empty vessel, and all you could produce was one child.”

My heart suddenly felt pierced with a dagger. I tried hard to breathe.

He sarcastically continued. “Such an empty barrel. All these years, I’ve been wasting my sperm in a bottomless pit.”

“Don’t say that.” I jolted up and hot tears poured down my face. “I am your wife.” I struggled to speak.

“My wife?” He scoffed. “I don’t think so.” He got up, and I quickly held his arm.

“What’s the meaning of this?’ He frowned.

“Don’t leave. People will see you and please, let’s do this together.”

“What do you want to do together? You are barren, Oceana. What should I do with someone like you?’

“Garold.” I whispered. He forcefully pulled my hand from his arm. “I’m getting married again. I need a child, a son to take over my name and rule, not some nutcase. If I had known you would be an Alpha this useless like you are, I would have thrown you out a long time ago.” He walked out on me, putting on his jacket.

I fell to the floor and sobbed bitterly. I couldn’t even give him a child. How pathetic of me.

I heard footsteps echoing to me.

I sniffed and knew the Luna of the pack. His mother was coming towards me.

I quickly stood up and bowed before her. “Greetings, Luna.” I was forced out, my heart torn into pieces.

“I heard about the devastating news from my son. I am very disappointed in you. I didn’t expect that from you. I did not carry my son in my belly for three hundred and ninety-five thousand, two hundred minutes and thirty seconds so he could be with a dummy like you.’

“Mom,’ I called her, getting up from the floor. “Not you too.”

“What,’ she snapped. “Why are both of you disgracing these families?” She yelled.

“I sacrificed so much for this family…”

“You did nothing, Oceana, but pounce so much disgrace on this family, that’s what you did.” She talked back. “I regret giving my son to you instead of that maid.”

Do you know the worst thing in life is to be placed on obligations, chosen for something you are not destined to do?

You don’t love or neither did you anyway except it coming your way and I have tried for so long convincing myself to keep it up and swallow it down my throat.

It was a hard pill to push down my throat; it was hard, but I tried to do it anyway just for the sake of the realms and for my family’s reputation.

It seems like I made a huge mistake.

I felt nauseous and ran to the trashcan and threw up as long as I wanted.

When I was done, I took another pill and was about to drink it when the doctor held my hand.

“Don’t do it, Alpha Oceana.” he stopped me.

I burst out in tears and cried so much; he kept patting my shoulders.

I took a handkerchief from my bag and wiped the tears off my face.

“I can’t do this anymore. I’m still going to have another miscarriage again, Ragnar. I don’t want to go through this pain anymore. I’m fucking tired.’

“This child might live…”

‘`This is my sixth pregnancy, Ragnar. I don’t want to give them hopes and end up losing my child again. You have no clue what I go through, Ragnar.’

“Oceana.” He hugged me as I cried bitterly and I didn’t know what to do anymore.