Chapter 18: Chapter 18

"Will you shut up, Oceana, my masturbation or anything I did has nothing to do with you. Will you shut the fuck up.'

"No, I'm not shutting up if you don't listen to me. I'm sick and tired of everyone hiding things and pushing me aside like an outcast. I am not a child, you hear me.'

"Oceana, let's forget this ever happened. You are getting married soon, let's go back to how we were, don't spit out nonsense."

"Gerard.' I shouted. "I'm spitting out nonsense now?"

"Yes, you have no idea what the consequences could be, that's why you are babbling. You are young and I want you to fucking understand that.'

"The kiss. You almost had me right there. Do you think I am stupid? Just say the truth that you are afraid of accepting me because you are nothing but a coward.'

"OCEANA.' His blue eyes glowed the instant he yelled.

"GERARD.'

The door opened and Carmine came in with my father as they both looked bewildered.

"What's going on here?' My father's dark tone rushed through my veins, I clumped down the table and shook my head.

"It's nothing. I'm just happy to see both of my fucking brothers." I wiped off my tears.

I was happy to see them and at the same time, disappointed.

What were they hiding? Gérard just told me that he has been my mate since I was born.

How could I not have felt it, back then.

Recalling the minute I was kissing him earlier, I felt it and knew he was saying the truth.

'Oceana,' my father called me with a worried tone.

I dashed past him and ran to my room, shutting the door.

The fear, anxiety, of being so perfect for the realms made me burst into tears, as I lay down on my bed and cried so bitterly.

The next day, I couldn't leave my room.

I stayed in my bed all day crying till the next morning with my wolf consoling me.

That's the reason he was not always home, because of me.

He left home and hardly stayed because I was his mate, he was trying everything possible to hide himself concerning us being mates from everyone.

We are both destined to stay together.

I can understand why I never saw him, and I can also understand the reason my heart aches whenever I think of him.

I realise it now, the signs, the sleepless nights were all him.

I was in love with him. I was in love with my brother.

Was that even possible?

How could I be in love with my brother for all these years and I didn't even realized it.

I wondered and yet, it is the truth.

I was in love with Gérard, why did the moon goddess have to grant me a mate from my flesh and blood?

He is my brother.

I felt bad and recalling his words yesterday broke my heart.

Why? Just why should Gérard be my first love?

It excited me the minute he said he was my mate and at the same time I felt disappointed.

If he wanted to reject me, he could have done it a long time ago, why inform me now?

I miss him. I miss and love my brother but the clan will never allow us to be together, it's strictly against the rules and forbidden for siblings to be mates.

I heard siblings who become mates get hanged, poisoned and their lives never ended up well.

However I do not believe that for a second. The moon goddess chose us, not us and the realms.

KNOCK! KNOCK!

I got up and wiped off my tears, jumping out of the bed to see who it was.

I unlocked the door and my mother was standing in front of the door dressed majestically as always as she walked into my room without a word.

I sighed and shut the door, turning to her as she sat down on my bed

"I heard you ran out of your father's chambers after seeing your brothers yesterday. What's going on, Oceana?" She softly asked.

"Nothing is going on, Mother." I frowned and sat down on my white couch beside the bed in the clothes I came with from my school yesterday.

After hearing the news from Gérard, I couldn't take a bath, nor eat the food that was brought to me yesterday.

I was just too weak to get up and eat, besides I lost my appetite in the process of my sobbing and all.

"Mom, what do you think is going on with me?"

"How will I know? That's why I came to ask you. You were weeping so bitterly last night which aroused my suspicion. Aren't you supposed to be the happiest one among us to see them? Why the sad face, I wondered. Then, I asked your brothers who refused to tell me anything and kept insisting there was nothing wrong with you. Though, I don't believe that because you hardly shed tears, my dear. What's the matter, let me know so I can help you to solve it, my sweetheart." She spoke, her voice was filled with concern but she couldn't help me.

This is not something that needs to be solved, this is my fate, my destiny that I am talking about, what will her reaction be, if she discovers my brother is my mate? Her son is my mate.

Wouldn't she be disgusted?

"Mom, this is not something you can solve simply because you are Luna, this is beyond you and you can't stop it," I revealed, putting my feet on the couch and pushing my knees to my cold chest, indirectly referring to Gerard. "No matter what you do," I added.

"I don't understand what is beyond me. Tell me and let's…"

"Mom,' With a broken voice, I said. "I don't want to get married to that Alpha. I've heard a lot about him, he's not a good man."

I changed the topic, I know she will be pissed at my words.

I can't tell her about Gérard, all hell will break loose if I do such a thing.

I can't help it, it will break her heart.

Her daughter was in love with the boy she gave birth to, it will damage her spirit.

"Is that what's bothering you, my dear?'

I swallowed. "Yes, Mom." I lied.

"My dear, you are the daughter of the ten realms, everything is at your privilege…"

I quickly interrupted. "I don't want to get married to him, I know what it's like being with him."

"He's a good man, Oceana, a good Alpha who has contributed so much for this clan, and laid down his life for everyone, your father demanded to grant him a favour and he asked for your hand in marriage. Everyone adores him. He's nearly the top in rank, a strong brown wolf who no one dares to bring up in combat before him." She explained.