Chapter 17: Chapter 17

His sweet and smooth voice touched my soul.

"I love you too, Gerard.'

"Oceana."

"Then, why didn't you say anything to me, love.' His eyes shot up because I called him "Love"

I don't care. He is like love to me.

"All this time I have been searching for my mate, going from one ceremony to another, I once began to have these certain thoughts that maybe I am woofless." I softly asked with concern.

"You were just a child, it was hard keeping it away from you, yet I tried and I'm sorry for taking this long to say it." He took his hand away from me, the instant he touched me.

"What do you want me to do now? You've made me suffer so much.' I said through tears, my voice choked at my words.

"I'm sorry about what you went through, let's do the needful since I'm here now.'

"And what is that?" I asked with curiosity.

"Reject me." His words took me by surprise, several minutes to get a sense of what he just said. "Let's cut it off, the bond.'

"What? I should reject you?" I asked in disbelief.

"Yes, it's better for the both of us, you are getting married soon and I will not like anything hindering between us. Do you understand, my love?"

"Gerard.' I whispered, my eyes were welling up. "We haven't met each other for years and this is what you say to me, how hilarious." I snapped and he held both of my shoulders, and got really close to me.

I could feel his hot breath on my face.

My heart skipped.

Suddenly, I wanted to do all sorts of things to him, kiss him, touch him and hug him, not to ever let him go again.

For in the sense, he is my mate still shocks me.

I never expected my fate to turn out this way.

I have always wanted my life to be filled with blissful memories with the one I love, including my mate and my brothers alongside me, congratulating me on my wedding day, giving me flowers and presents.

I love them and I look up to them so much as my role models, finding out he was my mate didn't make me feel disgusted at all.

I felt so happy he was fated to me, though he is my brother, I don't care anymore.

What gives, does it matter if he is my brother, I love him for who he is.

"I'm sorry, we have to part ways, I don't want to have anything to do with you or ruin your life. I can only say that we have to let go of each other." I raised my toes up and kissed him.

I could feel he was stunned at what I just did as he swallowed.

I needed to know how it felt like, kissing him, how awkward it would be, would it be abnormal or disgusting.

To my dismay, to my excitement, it felt wonderful.

His lips were so soft and firm.

I can't explain this feeling of mine, but he accepted me.

He kissed me back and we both roughly smooched each other's lips, panting.

His firm hands roamed around my fat curvy ass, as he carried me up and put me down on the table, moaning and groaning with lust.

His lips grabbed my lips as he sucked them.

I wrapped my arms around his neck as we continued kissing, including my legs fastened around his waist.

I felt the bulge in his trousers.

"Fuck, Oceana, you are fucking damn beautiful." He moaned and grinded his bulge in between my legs.

"Gerard, I want you so bad. I have missed you these past fucking years.' I moaned out loud when he licked my neck.

Fuck, I was enjoying this which made my body to release my pheromones on him.

Suddenly, he pushed me away from him. "Let's cut this off, Oceana."

"I'm not rejecting you, I'm not sitting by…"

"WE ARE SIBLINGS." He yelled, ruffling through his hair. "You kissed me, Oceana, did you forget that I'm your brother? I think I should remind you about that, so you will know what I'm talking about."

"If you are my mate, was that the reason you've always been away from home," I asked.

"Yes, that's the reason and we have to stop this, it is not right." He licked his lips and rubbed off my lipstick. "This is insane," he muttered.

"I don't care if you are my brother." I shook my head. "I don't give a damn. You are my mate and that's all that matters." I was persuaded by these feelings and sensations running through my bones, how could I let him go?

"You are an Alpha. You should know this, we can't be mates, we are siblings. Siblings can't be mates, Oceana." He turned away from me.

"I don't care, you are the one I want.' I went to him and grabbed his shoulders.

Gerard frowned and shoved me away from him.

"Don't come close to me and be ruled by your feelings…"

"I think I understand now, why I always think about you," I revealed. "The reason why I always yearned for you is because you are mine, Gérard."

He began laughing and sat down on a chair opposite me and looked up at me. "You are just a child..."

"I'm eighteen.' I reminded him.

He sighed and went on. "You will find someone you truly love soon. You are saying this because you don't have someone you are currently in love with and I don't care if you are eighteen. This has to stop." He got up and walked past me.

"Is this how you choose to behave after fucking ignoring me for eight years? You never called me or asked how I was doing,' I yelled with tears spilling down my cheeks, my heart was aching. "You…you pushed me out of the way without any remorse. You and Carmine blocked me out of your lives because I caught you jerking off. You both didn't act like you were my brothers anymore. Do you know how that felt? Do you know how hurtful it is to me for all these years struggling and everything to keep up with the rules of the realms because I am an Alpha. You have no clue how that made me feel. You don't know what I have been through. Now, you came back out of nowhere, telling me I'm your mate and all of a sudden, you want me to reject you. Just like that? Am I a sort of tool, a robot with no feelings you can push around anytime you feel like? What sort of a brother are you?'

"Yes, keep that in mind and don't ever forget, I am your brother, Oceana.'

"And my mate.' I talked back. "All these years, you yearned for me. Did you think I had forgotten how you were masturbating because of me, that proves it all."