Chapter 111: Chapter 111

Hearing the doorbell sound, Julia, who was busy on the call, immediately said," I'll call you later. Someone in the door."

"Yeah bye." She smiled wide and cut the call.

After putting the phone on the couch. She went towards the door to open it.

But what? she never thought to see her friend's depressing face.

As soon as the door opened, Rebecca's hurtful eyes shocked Julia.

"Rebecca?" She immediately touched her shoulders and looked at her full with concerned eyes.

Her forehead creased with worry and without waiting more than a second she asked with an anxious tone, "Babes, what happened? Why are you like this? Is everything okay?"

Rebecca looked at her friend with a blank gaze for a moment and finally let herself sob without any single thought.

"Rebe…"

Before Julia called her name Rebecca hugged her immediately. Like she is the only person she has in this world, on whose shoulder, she could cry without any worry.

Julia felt too concerned to see her friend this miserable. And the way she's sobbing gives her anxiety.

"Babes, Let's go inside. And tell me everything." She mumbled with a soft but hurried tone and helped her to go inside with her. She locked the door behind her slowly and walked with her.

After making her seat on the couch, Julia said," I'll bring water for you first."

But Rebecca held her hand and whispered with a shaken voice," Don't go. Please."

Julia couldn't bear to leave her and sit beside her.

She held her hands and asked with a soft tone," Alright, I'm not going. Now, tell me, what happened to you?"

Rebecca looked at her with red puffy eyes and spoke out in an unstable tone.

"Julia, I hurt him "

Julia's face frowned to hear that.

"Whom are you talking about Rebecca?"

"I hurt Edwin…"

"What?" Her eyes widened.

"Yes, I hurt him, Julia. I hurt him so badly that it hurts so much here. It hurts to think about him." She pointed to her heart.

Julia's eyes filled with sorry.

"Babe, please tell me everything." She wiped her tears.

Rebecca looked at her and started to tell all the things which happened between her and Edwin.

How he confessed his feelings! And how she rejected him and gave him a cold shoulder.

"I don't know Julia! I don't know! What is right that time but I...I just can't let him feel hurt to know the truth. How would it feel when he knew the girl he fell for was carrying someone else's child and she didn't know who the father of her child was? Will he be able to handle that?"

"Babe…" Julia's eyes got tears.

"Julia, I loved him and that's why it hurt so much to let him go. It hurts to see him hurt because of me. I felt someone take my breath and I can't breathe anymore. I felt someone dragging a sharp knife between my chest and there was bleeding. But I don't dare to stop the knife from going deep. What should I do to make myself not feel hurt or feel this helpless?"

"Rebecca…" She squeezed her hand.

"Why is it me every time?"

"Why can't I get love whenever I want it? Why do I need to leave alone? Suffer alone like this? Why does everyone come into my life just to go away? First Mom (from dying), then Dad (from marrying), and now my first love. The love I wished I could get. But now I need to make him stay far from me because I can't bear his hated eyes for me?

Julia's tears fell from her eyes. She won't know what to say to her friend. What are suitable words at this moment?

" Do you know Julia? Sometimes I feel, that if I died there is no one to cry for me?"

"Babe, don't say that!" Julia tried to stop her talk like that.

"But this is true. Julia!"

"Just look at me! I got nothing to make myself say it's mine. No person wants me in their life. Even my family hates me. My step-sister hates me for my beauty, my stepmother always wanted me to die, and my step-brother was the only person I felt reliable after my dad. Whom I thought going to protect me, but turned out to be my one of the biggest nightmares, he tried to rape me, his own sister. But the end has not come here. I was bullied by a stranger for his own selfishness and got pregnant by him. Just see how miserable my life is."

Julia never knew how Rebecca survived to feel like this all the time. If she is in her place, she would be depressed.

"Do you know Julia, even a person like us wanted to be selfish sometimes? Wanted to stop thinking about others and just live our life the way we want. But things never let us do that. And these people need to understand I'm human, I feel hurt. I felt every single bit of emotion when they looked at me with despised stares. What did I do wrong to be treated like that?"

Julia felt heartbroken for her and couldn't help but hug her the next moment, letting Rebecca sob on her shoulder.

"Babe, you did nothing wrong. And you deserve every single bit of love. Trust me. They are evil people who just wanted to take advantage of you. But you need to believe in yourself and your love."

Rebecca felt silent to hear her last sentence.

While Julia continued to talk, breaking the hug and squeezing both hands giving her strength.

"Rebecca, Edwin is your love and I feel he will not like other men. I think you should tell him the truth and let him decide if he wants you or not." Rebecca's body shuddered.

"I know, I know, you are scared to see the same stares in his eyes, which you get all these past years. But could you please forget your past and don't let yourself suffer so much." Rebecca's eyelashes flickered to hear her words.

And soon she reacted to her.

"No." Rebecca stood back from her seat.

Julia's brows raise as she also stands back and asks," Why not?"

"Don't you love him?"

Rebecca closed her eyes feeling too heavy at this moment.

"Rebecca…" She touched her one shoulder.

"I know, it's a big truth which you never wanted to tell him or let him know. But will you please think a little bit seriously?"

Rebecca looked at her and asked," What do you mean? Julia?"

"What if he doesn't mind your child? What if he is still ready to accept you?"

Rebecca flinched her place as she never thought like this ever.

"Why are you thinking like that, Julia?"

"It's not a fairy tale where you got what you want." Rebecca doesn't want to get any hope.

Julia sighed and responded," Yes, I know what you are trying to say but how can you make this thought that he will hate you after knowing the truth or he will change his feelings for you?"

Rebecca pressed her lips tightly.

Julia gave a small smile and continued," I know, you are hurt, and trusting someone is too much for you. But why don't you give yourself this chance Rebecca?"

Rebecca got tears back. As her lips started shaking.

"Why can't you trust at least once in your love? If he truly loves you, he will never disguise you! But if his love is just only for your beauty, you don't need to let yourself suffer for someone like him."

Rebecca understood her words and finally responded,'' Give me some time Julia. Everything is already too much for me."

Julia nodded and hug her last time before saying this," I understand! I understand you clearly, Rebecca. But I hope my friend does not live in sorrow for her whole life. Or feel wrong not to take steps at the right time. And I promise if things go wrong. I'll always be there as your sister and your family."

Rebecca buried her head and cried out to hear her words.

"Thank you, Julia! Thank you for being here. Thank you for taking me into your world and letting me be your world part. Thank you."

Julia warmly smiled at last.