Chapter 64: Chapter 64

Chapter 62

Alpha Greyson stood motionless as we departed the palace. I could sense his disapproval in his eyes, but he couldn't do anything about it. He looks helpless. My heart ached as I turned aside and took Alpha Troy's hand in mine to lead me inside the carriage.

"Don't worry, I'll take care of her," Alpha Troy reassured Alpha Greyson. I cast a quick glance toward them and caught Alpha Greyson's gaze on me. I shifted my look away. When I felt him move near to me, my heart began to pound. He stretched for my hand and gently touched it. His hand clasping mine feels like home, and the warmth he's giving me is like a shield that could protect me from harm. But I'm terrified of bringing him down again. I'm terrified of seeing him again. Every time I get too near to him... anything can happen. And it might get much worse.

"Is this really what you want?" his voice pierces my heart like knives. It's triggering my already erratic thoughts. Damn it! "Yes," I answered emphatically. He nodded as if he understood. As though he could give me anything I desired. As if he would always be supportive of anything I liked.

"Fine... I'll miss you... be sure to come back here after a week," he said. I didn't say anything and just nodded. I turned my gaze forward, asking him to let go already. He immediately notices it and releases my hand. When the carriage finally moved, I swallowed hard. As the carriage pulled away from Alpha Greyson, I clenched my teeth. I'm feeling suffocated. My heart is aching, and no matter what I do, I can't stop it. Why is it so difficult? Why is it so hard? I still want him... But I can no longer be with him. The closer I go to him, the more misery I cause him. I can't let that happen.

Alpha Troy and I exchanged glances. I didn't even realize he was watching me the entire time.

"What is it?" I inquired. He cocked his brow. "Did you have a quarrel with your husband?" he asked.

"I had no idea you were so nosy," I remarked. He laughed, revealing the dimple on his left cheek. I wouldn't be surprised if, like Alpha Greyson, girls chase him too.

"I'm sorry. I can't help but ask because Alpha Greyson obviously doesn't want you to leave," he stated. I closed my eyes and fiddled with my fingers to distract myself from the pain I was feeling.

"It's for the best; he won't be hurt if I stay away from him," I reasoned coldly.

"Do you think he'd be happy watching you leave?" he spoke again, and I return my gaze to him, wondering why he is interfering.

"I said it's for the better—"

"It won't be for the better if you hurt someone else, Princess Harper," he interrupted. I gave him a dagger look, but he didn't appear to mind.

"I am not hurting him! Instead, I am trying to protect him from me!" I couldn't stop myself from screaming. He tilted his head and stared at me as if I were a petty thing, and I clenched my teeth because I am irritated by the way he looks at me.

"I understand now. You blame yourself for losing your child," he stated, nodding as if he had just grasped something significant. I locked my gaze on him even more. How could he be so casual about it in front of me?

"I'm sorry. I just heard what happened, and I'm sorry for what happened, but... don't you realize that in times like this, you should both understand each other? Only you two will understand each other because you've both lost the child. You shouldn't stay away from him," he implored.

"You don't understand, Alpha Troy," I said tentatively. He smirked. I already despise him. He's not the prince I used to play with!

"Let us understand then. Especially Alpha Greyson," he said. My jaw clenched. I lowered my head and used my fist to crumple my dress. Tears welled up inside my eyes.

"Even if I tell you, you won't understand! You have no idea what I've been through! Since I was born, all of my loved ones have been taken from me! I am unfortunate! Every time someone gets close to me... I always lose them! My biological father... my foster parents... my closest friend... Mrs. Vikki... I almost lost Mrs. Clea and then... I lost my child! And... I'm afraid that if I get too close to Alpha Greyson... he'll be the next one to disappear! I don't want that to happen!” I cried. My heart broke, and my body trembled because of the images inside my mind. The people I lost and the person I don't want to lose. All of it.

"I know you think it's your fault, Princess Harper, but you're wrong. Everything happens for a reason, and sometimes they end up like that because it's their fate, and you can't defy fate no matter what," Alpha Troy stated. I came to a halt and stared at him. He is presently peering out the window. I could see the landscape reflected in his green eyes.

"We sometimes lose someone to learn and be stronger in life, not to turn into a coward," he continued. My tears came to a halt and fell silent. I'd like to believe him, but... Every time I recall those wonderful times, there's a voice in my head telling me that it won't last long since I'll soon lose that happiness.

They greeted me heartily when we got to the Rema Kingdom. They're quite friendly to me. I was introduced to Alpha Troy's officials and councilors. He even takes me on a tour of the castle.

"This is our grandfather," Alpha Troy said, pointing out the elderly but lovely guy in the photograph. He's dressed in a royal cape and a gleaming crown. He appears to be powerful, and his aura exudes authority and bravery. "And this is his mate," he said, pointing out the lovely woman with a loving smile. The way she smiles makes me smile as well. But there was something I observed.

"Her looks..." I muttered. "You're right," Alpha Troy said, nodding. I looked at him, perplexed. "Our grandmother came from the North Snow kingdom's pack, North Pack. Grandfather had already visited the North Pack when the kingdoms were at peace. They met and discovered they were mates. They married and had our fathers," he explained. So... we also have North Snow Kingdom blood? I couldn't believe it.

He led me to my room after we returned. Silence enveloped me. The room was enormous, as was the bed. I closed my eyes and slid down the bed slowly. This will be the first time I've slept without Alpha Greyson since my marriage. I awoke at midnight because of a dream. It was a flashback of when I was tending to a wounded Alpha Greyson. I stood up, straightened my clothes, and carefully opened the door to my room. Because there are no guards here, I can securely leave my room.

From what I remember that secret house is in this way. When I finally discovered it, I came to a stop. It was in the secret house that I treated Alpha Greyson's wound. I took my time walking and saw where I found Alpha Greyson unconscious and bloodied. I was horrified at the time and drew him to my secret home to help him. I looked after him for two days. It was a secret that I kept to myself, even Alpha Troy, my closest friend at the time didn’t know about it.

As I approached the secret house, I realized that it had grown older. The walls are practically collapsing. There is also a lot of clutter and wild grass surrounding it. When I saw the familiar hammock, my eyes were drawn to it. This is where Alpha Greyson was laid. Despite its filth, my hand gently touched the hammock and I sat on it. As I carefully swung the hammock, I heard a metallic clang.

I was reminiscing everything when I heard something outside the secret house. I could hear footsteps approaching. Who was it? I slowly rose to my feet. I crept up to the door and hid behind it. I peered through a little crack and was relieved to discover that no one was there.

Maybe I should go back now. I walked softly out of the house. But I was already in the midst of the woods when I became aware of a presence behind me. I turned around but saw no one else. As I felt the cold flood through my body, my heart stiffened. I began walking quickly till I noticed a silhouette in front of me.

My head slowly rises. When I saw Beta Miguel..., my heart began pounding in my chest and panic gripped my entire body.

"It's nice to see you again... Luna Amara," he said, creepily smiling.