Chapter 65: Chapter 65

Chapter 63

As I observed Beta Miguel's eerie smiles at me, my heart was pounding quickly because of a horrible feeling. I haven't seen him in a long time, and he's changed a lot. His beard had grown and his thick hair had become unkempt, unlike before. When he started walking towards me, I took a step back. He came to a halt and gazed at me with contempt and rage in his eyes.

"Perhaps luck is still on my side, huh?" his hoarse voice asked. It seemed like a wild and dangerous animal was in front of me.

"W-What are you doing here?" I tried to talk despite my nervousness. He smirked evilly and tilted his head. He looks at me as if he may kill me and attack me until I'm in pieces.

"To avenge everything you took from me," he grumbled. I have a hollow feeling in my stomach. My heart was almost in my throat, and I couldn't even swallow properly.

"I-I understand that... everyone has faults but please... let everything go and just surrender—"

"Surrender?!" he yelled; his voice thunderous. His voice rang out in the woods. I was seized by fear. But right now, I need to be brave. I no longer have anyone except me. I must save myself.

"You say that now because you didn't know what I've been through because of you..." his voice lowered. My heart prickled as I heard his words. I recall the letter and the portrait I discovered in his room.

"What..."

"Just fuck you! Fuck you for making my life miserable! Fuck you for... getting the only woman I loved in that kind of situation! Fuck you because... you are the reason she's gone now!" His screams chilled me. I felt something hit my heart. I felt like I had lost myself. I felt like I was stuck in darkness. I felt numb and... broken at the same time.

"I didn't even plan on betraying Alpha Greyson! I didn't even plan on brimming up with my fucking father! But... I had no choice! I want to avenge Shena! I want to kill you! I want you to pay for what you've done! Because Shena doesn't deserve anything she's been through! Fuck! I searched for her!" I was just stunned by the crying Beta Miguel in front of me. My whole body is weak. My tears were falling in my eyes shamelessly. My heart is breaking so much I don't even know how it feels.

"Yes... I killed the true Miguel Ramirez not because I'm teaming up with Dylan, but because... I want to have my own identity. I don't want to live as a rogue. I don't want to live as Dylan's son and... I want to be with the woman I loved! And because of that, I finally entered the palace. All I did for Alpha Greyson was true! I... wanted to be his loyal soldier! I want to be his friend! After that... I finally met Shena! I fell in love with her. Even though she's not at her right age, I still feel we're mates! She is the woman the Moon Goddess chose for me. But... You fucked up your way into the picture, and because of you... She prefers to suffer at the hands of that old man! I looked for her! I couldn't live without her! Exactly on her birthday... I found her..." his bloodshot and sad eyes raged at me, breaking my heart even more. It's not just a needle that sticks here; the pain makes me feel like I'm being stabbed repeatedly.

"S-She... was running for her life. She was wounded... blood... was coating her dress... she was crying when she saw me. She was asking for help. And in that moment... I discovered that we're really mates. But... it's all too late... because... she lost too much fucking blood! She... died in my fucking arms! And you know what she last said to me? To fucking find you and protect you! But I can't. I just can't! I can't let you live when you are the reason for her misery! You're the reason why she fucking died!" he spat with rage and too much hatred.

Everything I heard made me want to cry. No way... Shena died?

"T-That's not true... she's still alive... I'm still looking for her..." my voice shook.

"Didn't you hear me? She's now dead! She's fucking dead! Because of you! Fuck you! You deserve to die because of what you did!" he yelled angrily. I couldn't take it any longer and collapsed on the ground. All I could feel was pain... sorrow... and endless regrets. I should've been the one who died. I should've been the one who suffered.

"I promised myself that I would live from now on to avenge her death. I would even put up with Dylan just to kill you. I already killed that fucking old man omega, so the next is you," he said evilly. I closed my eyes tightly. My tears didn't stop falling. I felt like my entire being was being divided into two. This time… I just wanted to die.

"T-Then... kill me," I said, looking at him. I saw him come to a halt as I said it. I attempted to rise up despite my legs shaking. I can't take it any longer. I no longer wish to live. After all, my life is a shambles, and that's fine. Alpha Greyson will find someone else, I'm sure. I am not that exceptional woman. He can still find a woman he loves even if she is not his mate. I am not deserving of this life. I've harmed so many people. Many of them will suffer because of my existence. I'd rather die than see the people I care about suffer.

"Are you feeling sorry for me?" he questioned. I kept shaking my head. Despite the tears that continued streaming from my eyes, I stared at him with conviction.

"No... but you're right. I deserved to die. I should have died and not Shena. I am so sorry that I caused you so much pain. If I could turn back time, I would gladly come with that fucking old man and won't even let him touch Shena. I know I don't deserve your pity or even your forgiveness... that's why kill me now. I am worthless. Alpha Greyson will be more... happy when I'm gone, Beta Miguel. Everything will be better without me. Everything will be back to normal… so please kill me now,” I sobbed, almost begging him to end my life.

His jaw tightened as he took a slow step toward me, and I remained motionless, waiting for him.

"What about your child? Are you really such a useless person?" he remarked sarcastically, as my tears streamed and I bent my head, remembering my unborn child.

"I-I lost my child... Beta Miguel. I experienced a miscarriage. From that, I realized that maybe the reason why the Moon Goddess took my child was because... I'm not fit to be his mother. I don't belong with Alpha Greyson. I don't deserve this life..." My heart is constantly tearing apart.

I fixed my gaze on him. I noticed him staring at me. I can't read him. I'm not sure if I was mistaken, but I noticed a hint of his grief. His eyes returned to coldness as he glared at me. "Alpha Greyson will be happier without me..." I said faintly. His jaw clenched. I know he considered Alpha Greyson to be his best friend, and that he valued him above all else. He didn't mean everything he said. He was only driven by his feelings. He was so desperate for vengeance that he collaborated with his father. But he had no intention of doing so. He simply betrays Alpha Greyson because I am Alpha Greyson’s mate.

He cast a glance behind me. When I heard footsteps behind me, my brow wrinkled. That scent... it was familiar. I thought...

"What are you doing here?" Beta Miguel inquired. When I looked around, I nearly dropped my mouth when I saw Dylan! I thought... he was dead?!

Dylan laughed heartily. "I just want to watch how you will avenge your woman. I'm a proud father you see," Dylan said. My lips were parted. "Y-You're alive?" I couldn't help but ask.

"Ah yes. Elder Mateo was the only one killed in that battle. Alpha Greyson thought he killed me already. He didn't even check because he was so worried about you at the time," he continued. This... isn't happening! Alpha Greyson was relieved and at rest because he thought Dylan was dead, but he isn't! Damn it!

"I'm sure you're surprised, too, my dear son?" Dylan asked, turning to Beta Miguel. What does it imply... Beta Miguel had no idea his father was still alive?

Dylan approached us. He came to a halt five steps away from us.

"I'm here to... watch my son... turn to be like me," Dylan added, laughing demonically.