Chapter 63: Chapter 63

Chapter 61

I tried to be okay for the next few days... for Alpha Greyson. Slowly, the entire kingdom returned to its original state. Troubled communities have been resolved, and there is less fear of Rogue assaults. Several battalions of wolves were also deployed throughout the North Snow kingdom's forest in search of Beta Miguel. Everything appears to be normal. Except for me.

More and more people have been keeping an eye on me since the night Alpha Greyson discovered me almost jumping off the balcony. Alpha Greyson also pays me frequent visits. He checked on me from time to time. I can see he genuinely cares about me. And it hurts me every time he attempts to bridge the chasm, I'm slowly forming between us. And every time I push him away and see how hurt he is, it makes me feel even worse.

I'm trying to live normally as he wishes, but it's difficult. It was quite difficult... I feel like I'm just getting in his way. I feel like I'm dragging him down with me. Our relationship is crumbling around me. He is the only one attempting to construct it, while I am moving away from him. Because I feel like... I'm falling for him more and more... the more I allowed myself to be around him... I feel like I'm simply destroying him.

"Elder Agnes will be visiting you tomorrow; I know you like having someone to talk to while I'm at my office," Alpha Greyson stated as he removed his royal cape. I had already finished dinner and he was late as usual. That's why I ate first. When his gaze returned to me, I averted my gaze. I fixed my gaze on the book I was holding.

When I noticed him approaching, I tried to remain calm. I'm currently sitting on our bed, trying to divert my attention away from what I'm reading.

"How's your day?" he murmured sweetly as he sat next to me. He tucked a lock of hair behind my ear. I didn't move and just let him be.

"Fine," I replied quickly.

"Do... you want to go on vacation with me?" his calm voice soothes me, but I have to be guarded. I don't want to cause him any more pain. And in order to do so, I must separate myself from him.

"No, I'm fine here," I answered dismissively. My heart hurts. Damn it!

"But... we... need a vacation, don't you think?" his voice was sweet, and when he kissed my cheek, I was even more startled. He's just done it again. He kissed my cheeks gently till he got to the side of my lips. My heart was pounding. I feel like I'm losing my breath, yet I need to gather myself. I closed the book I was carrying and pushed him a little before he could reach my lips.

"I'm... sleepy. I'm going to sleep now," I muttered as I lay down on the bed, my back to him. I could feel him walk away after hearing his loud sigh. I closed my eyes tightly.

I'm sorry... But, Alpha Greyson... I need to get away from you till you realize I am not better for you. That is until you realize... you don't need me. Until you realize... that you don't love me anymore.

Because... I no longer want to be with you. I feel like... I'm better off by myself. In that way... I would never cause anyone harm. I'm not going to lose anyone else. I'm better off by myself.

Elder Agnes did come to see me the next morning. I attempted to talk to her normally. He told me that the South White Pack was improving. I am delighted for them.

I went back to being cold when she departed. My smile faded like I was so tired of faking it. I had just come to a halt when Kylie informed me that Alpha Greyson was calling me from his office. As I approached the office, I was astounded to find the guards marching outside. I was even more taken aback when I realized they weren't North Snow Kingdom's guards. They come from... Rema.

Kylie helped me open the door. The towering man with his back turned and facing Alpha Greyson was the first thing that caught my attention. Alpha Greyson approached me. He smiled at me, but I was perplexed. I blinked twice when the man turned to face me. He looks so familiar. His emerald eyes are similar to mine. He cocked his brow at me. His cheeky smile reminds me of my childhood playmate cousin.

"Prince Troy..." I mumbled. He grinned. "I'm an Alpha King of Rema Kingdom now, Princess Harper..." he replied, offering a handshake. That did not sit well with me. I remained amazed by him. I was surprised to see him today.

"I'm sorry if it surprised you, but I told him everything about you in order to finally begin a new friendship between our kingdoms," Alpha Greyson stated alongside me. I didn't say anything. Alpha Greyson stepped outside to give us some privacy. Alpha Troy gave me a menacing smile. His emerald eyes are as vivid as mine. His golden hair is likewise similar to mine. I am really an Evans.

"I was so surprised to find out you're alive and even more surprised that you're Alpha Greyson's mate!" he laughed gently. I sat on the couch, staring at him. He was sitting like a king in his chair.

"I don't have any plans to introduce myself to you, but I guess I don't have much of a choice now that you're here," I stated. He burst out laughing. “Ouch. That hurts, little cousin."

I kept an eye on him. He appears to be a cheerful individual. But when he becomes serious, everyone becomes intimidated and afraid.

"So... wanna visit the Rema Kingdom? Everyone knows that you're alive now. They are expecting you there," he said. Visit the Rema Kingdom? It's not bad and maybe a good opportunity to... stay away from... Alpha Greyson. I turned to face him, biting my lower lip.

"All right," I answered, "I'll accompany you."

"Whoa! You make rash decisions; you should consult with your husband first—"

"There's no need. I'll go without his permission," I said coldly, and he came to a halt just as the office door opened, and I felt Alpha Greyson's presence.

"Is everything fine?" I felt Alpha Greyson's hand on my back, and Alpha Troy gazed at me, trying to figure out what was going through my head.

"I asked her if she could come to the Rema because everyone is waiting for her, and she can, right?" Alpha Troy inquired.

"Of course," he says. "I'll only rearrange my schedule so that I may accompany you—"

"I can come with him alone, Alpha Greyson, and you can stay here in the palace to work." I cut Alpha Greyson off, and they fell silent. I rose up and looked at Alpha Troy.

"Please wait here. I'll just pack my belongings," I remarked as I exited the office, sighed deeply, and went into the walk-in closet, and less than a minute later I felt Alpha Greyson behind me.

"I'm coming with you," he said, as I busied myself with my baggage.

"The kingdom needs you here. You don't have to," I said in my cold tone.

"Elder Raymond can do it without me,"

"But it's better if you are here—"

"Or do you just want me here to get away from me?" he asked, shocked me. I need to stand by my decision. I turned to face him. I keep all of my feelings hidden. I must maintain my resolve. If I don't want him to get hurt because of me I have to do this.

"You can say that," I stated flatly. His eyes were enraged. I can see the escalating rage in his eyes.

"What?" he exclaimed, stunned.

"We need space, Alpha Greyson. I need it.” I said emphatically. He closed his eyes tightly, holding back a surge of anger.

"But... this is not what I want! I don't want a space with you! I need you close! Amara, why do you have to do this?" His voice was tinged with bitterness. Tears are welling up in my eyes, but I'm trying hard not to show them.

"I can't decide for myself now?" he tightened his teeth at what I said.

"You can... but... can't I be a part of your decisions?" he asked, as my eyes welled up. I feel like crying, but I have to keep going. Amara... please... Don't screw this up.

"I'm sorry, Alpha Greyson, but... you can't... please... just let me go," I whispered as if a dagger was tearing through my veins and possibly his soul.