Chapter 61: Chapter 61

Being nervous was an understatement to describe Alvin's state of mind at the moment as he barged into the living room.

" Quinn!!! He called out for him thinking he might have left without saying goodbye.

" Quinn? Mom! He changed names then Bianca, Kate, and Quinn walked into the living room with smiling faces unlike his.

He couldn't help but wonder if things were turning the other way around.

He might as well be a dead man without seeing that smile.

" Dad! Look who is here" Quinn declared referring to Kate who smirked staring at his teary eyes.

She was enjoying it.

" We've already met darling. Can you give us a minute? Quinn looked at his sulking father and excited mother then pecked her leaving them to talk.

" You look like you saw a ghost. Wondering how I found out I think" she said proudly approaching him.

" I gave you a choice. It's obvious you never wanted me to find out. I thought you acted out of David's influence but I know better now. You're a wicked, obnoxious selfish man. How could you make me mourn a living child? I fucking have depression. Someone died to save him. How could you Alvin? His eyes were puffy and red in guilt then held her warm hands but she yanked it off but he was persistent.

" I'm sorry Kate. I don't know what came over me. I'm ready to do anything please don't take him away from me. Don't leave me. I won't survive it. I know I hurt you and I am sorry. Don't do this to me. I didn't know what I was doing" she cackled trying to prevent herself from crying in front of him again.

" I cried on your shoulder all week. You told me he was cremated. How cruel can you be Alvin Reagan? How could you do that to me? Why did you do that to me? Why Alvin? She challenged him but he had no answers at the moment.

" I don't know. There's no excuse for what I did. I wanted to tell you Kate especially when I found out you still loved our son but I was scared this will happen. I was scared to lose you two. Quinn is my life, Kate. You both are. Do you know how difficult it was living without you for the past five years? I survived it because of him hoping you'll return to me someday. I swear I wanted to tell you please believe me" he pleaded with so much remorse that had Kate stepping away from him.

" I'm sorry Alvin. I'm here for Simon. You can have a say in his life as well so you can come for visits whenever you like. That's the least I can do. I'm nothing like you Alvin neither am I conceited. I just want to be with my son. I want to relive the years I wasted mourning. I want to replace the things I missed all Thanks to you. You're lucky you came for me unless you will be at the hospital fighting for your life. Meanwhile, enjoy your life with Cynthia otherwise enjoy your lonely life" she stated in finality about to leave but Alvin held her back on his knees.

" Don't leave me, Kate. I'll change. Heck, I have changed. I promise to be good to you. I'm so confused right now. I've atoned for everything I did to you. I've become a laughing stock to my peers and employees. I lost Millions to your revenge. I lost good deals and board members. I lost my power. What else do you want me to do to prove how much I regret hurting you. How do I prove to you that I love you? I love you Kate" he confessed which had her in shock.

If it was the other Kate she'd melt at his confession but not her maybe before she knew her son was alive but now all she felt was contempt maybe not hatred but she had no intention of forgiving him yet.

Perhaps as time goes by but not now.

" I don't know Alvin but I need time to heal. I don't trust you at all. You were right to be scared I'm indeed leaving. Have a good life and please stop kneeling. It won't change anything" her hands were stretched out to help him up while he pulled her down staring at her grey eyes with his hands on her waist.

" I have always wanted a family with you. A complete family where I get to redeem myself to you and Quinn. There's nothing I won't do for you, Kate. Nothing" her eyelids faltered as she sniffled locking her gaze with him.

She found herself uncomfortable with his teary eyes and livid face.

His soulful brown eyes that once held untold stories now look at her with love and warmth but how long will it last?

" Forever Alvin? He pulled her closer caressing her hair.

" Forever Kate. I promise" she twitched her mouth itching to wipe his tears away and that's exactly what she did as he moaned placing his hands on hers.

" I need help, Alvin. I don't know what to do with myself. Sometimes I think I'm losing myself to the revenge. I just want to be normal for our son" she revealed in acceptance.

" I'm here for you" he reassures her placing kisses on her palms.

" I don't think so. It's something I have to do alone. I don't want you to spend the rest of your life putting up with a shell of me. I need to find myself again. I have to especially now that I have found Simon. Whatever conclusions I make will be delivered to you. That's the least I can do" he grinned satisfied with her reply.

" I'll be there to support you. We both need therapy, Kate. I know you're it for me. Let's heal each other but if you insist on returning to Jamaica to find yourself, then fine by me. I just want my wife back. My beautiful wife" she hummed softly wondering why she can't hate him no matter how hard she tries.

She always found herself going back on her words.

He's lucky for being the man after her heart else she would have made sure he lived a lonely life perhaps with boring Cynthia.

That would have been fun but she can't.

Quinn will hate her for it, truth be told she doesn't either.

She's just happy to be a mother again. Someone's anchor.

" Good. My knees are killing me" she complained while he helped her up.

" My bad I'm sorry" he professed closing the space between them while she took a step back.

" Not now Alvin. I know you want all of me. Give me time" he nod in agreement placing a kiss on her forehead lingering there while she tugged on his check shirt.

" I'm ready to wait an eternity if that's ok by you"

" If you say so. I'm taking him with me now"

" Okay but I've to confirm David's death first. You can live here if you want or at the hotel according to your preference" she put her hands on her jaw.

" You think he lives?

" Colt couldn't find his body. So I think he's alive"

" Security at my resort is tight plus I have a backer. You don't have to worry about me. Quinn will be fine"

" Okay. Take care of him please"

" Of course"