Chapter 17: Chapter 17

...Light of hope, shone my world, filled with darkness. Giving me the best gift I can ever receive, You...

Evelyn POV:-

A profound feeling of solace filled me when Lawrence put his hand on my waist and pulled me close. I convulsed when I made contact with his muscular form.

When he pulled me close I felt protected. I felt like nothing in this world can cause any kind of harm to me. I want to lock myself in the prison of those arms without any intention of being released.

I put my head on his chest and listened to the harmony produced by his heart. It was a blissful feeling filling me with a poison called love.

‘Am I falling for Lawrence in just a few days?’

“Lord, is this even possible?” I whispered to myself.

“Hmm? What? What’s possible?” Lawrence asked, turning his head to me.

“To convince Danielle.” I chuckled nervously as my heart raced to think about it.

‘Is this what they called a sacred bond between husband and wife?’

All I know is that I want that moment to stop and last forever. Him and me, nothing else. I wish whatever we said that time would be true. I want to lose myself in the tenderness shown by him.

“Oh, I can handle her. You stay here, I will go make up with Danielle.” He smiled.

After being with Lawrence, I realized, when he is with me, I never cared who's around me. I even love his touch in front of Adrian.

“Sure.” Smiling, he got up and left for Danielle.

My thought came to a halt and the truck of awareness hit me that I am sitting in this room alone with Adrian. I was so lost in the thoughts about Lawrence that I didn't notice his presence at all.

I closed my eyes and let the feeling of being blessed filled me up. For the first time in my life, I felt nothing about him. Neither fear or something else.

“Evelyn?” Adrian called when we were alone.

“Hmm?”

It felt like a delusion but it's real. As I was thinking, I remembered that I used to write a diary about my dreams and Adrian- mostly Adrian in the hope that one day he'll read it and accept my feelings. But right now, I want this dairy to never exist.

“Do you-” He was about to speak but I got up immediately.

“Sorry, I have to go.” I muttered, turning my head away.

“Why are you avoiding me?” He asked sternly, getting up as well.

“I am not. I need to do something. Sorry.” Excusing quickly, I walked out, unable to hear further or stay in his presence anymore.

Mother sent my suitcase along with my diary. I quickly ran to my room earning a strange look from Adrian but I didn't care.

“It shouldn't exist. Not in my life.” I didn't find it when I was checking the suitcase.

What if Lawrence found it? No, Put these scary thoughts aside.

I took out my suitcase and began to search for it. After looking for it thoroughly, I finally let out a sigh of relief.

It was a brief reprieve from the dread which was causing me to crumble but I am still secure because of that bind which is preventing me from falling apart- marriage.

"What are you doing?" I squeaked as I heard Lawrence's voice and the diary fell from my hands. When did he come back?

“N-Nothing. What are you doing here?” I asked with a sudden gasp of tension.

“We just came back but what are you doing?” He asked, coming closer.

Was I daydreaming for that long? How can I not notice?

I looked at him and he looked at me then at the diary with a smirk, arching a brow in amusement as if knocked upon him jest

"Writing all the bad stuff about me?" He teased and walked closer. I quickly picked it up and hugged it tightly.

"No, It's about something else," I said sternly. He narrowed his eyes at me for a second and I scold myself for showing that stupid emotion of being what I am not- In his eyes.

"What is it then? Let me see." He said. Oh no! It intrigues him.

"No!" I said and turned to leave but he stood in front of me and took a step closer. I took a step back and my heart began to race.

"Lawrence... I am not showing it to you..." I spoke in a barely audible tone. His smirk grew wider, sending a shiver down to my very core.

“Hmm? Why?” I felt like all the power within me was deprived, leaving me with the incapability to think anything else but him. I looked at his intimidating green eyes filled with amusement and as for me.

“N-No..” I am not enlivened by it. I just want this dairy to vanish from this world all along with those irrational feelings I used to think.

“Why? I thought we shared everything with each other.” He smirked.

He was playful, not even serious, only to tease me but my lips began to quiver as I took another step back. “No- Eh!”

Unfortunately behind me is nothing but the bed. I involuntarily let go of the diary and held his shirt causing him to lose his balance as well and we both fell on the bed with him on top of me.

“Lawrence…”

A blush crept upon my cheeks as I felt his hot breath on my face. Goosebumps formed on my skin evoking a sensation of lust in me. We stared at each other for a while. He then moved a little closer.

“Evelyn…”

My breath hitched at the closeness. Our breaths mixed up and the sound of our breaths filled the absence of sound in the room. A little intimacy shared by us is consecrated for both of us.

“You’re so beautiful…” Our eyes never leave each other. He leaned in a little closer and our lips brushed against each other.

“You too… Where were you before?”