Chapter 60: Chapter 60
"When your mental health isn't in the best state. Give yourself a break. And don't feel guilty about it."[Author]
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Jacqueline:
I felt bad for Tina. Like real bad! But I was sure she didn't need my empathy. I looked at her face once more, she looked terrible.
Blood, blood, everywhere on her face. I could feel that her bleeding had not stopped despite her friends filling her nose with tissues.
Her friends helped her up as they took her away shouting profanities in a much lower tone than I would have expected from them. Unexpectedly Rohan's head popped in front of me blocking my view of her back. I grabbed the corner of the table to balance myself. His left side of the lip twitched as he moved back.
"Looks like you weren't expecting it? Huh?" He cocked a brow at me.
"I. I don't know." I failed to give him a response. I was no Mahatma to forgive her for her wrongdoings. But I sure didn't ever want her to bleed too.
"You. You what?" He asked looking at me strangely.
"I just don't like the sight of blood." Squaring my shoulders, I looked him in the eye and responded. Explaining to him that I did hate her and might have been looking forward to the day when Karma slaps her in the face. But I didn't want her to be hurt like that even as a result of what she did to me.
It wasn't a lie. I hated the sight of blood even more than I hated anything in life.
"Seriously? She didn't even bleed that much Jacqueline! Are. You. A Fucking. Coward?" He almost yelled the last five words through his gritted teeth.
"Shut up Rohan. She is my friend. You can't say anything to her." Nina intervened in between us and I realized he was standing in front of my chair.
"Hahaha. Seriously Nina?"
"Are you fucking kidding me, Nin? Do you think she can be your friend for long if she hates the mere sight of blood?"
"Shut the fuck up Rohan. What's wrong with you?"
He calmed down. Take deep breaths. His face that was red a second ago returned to its usual calm face.
"Suit yourself. I have to go." He said and marched out of the canteen throwing one last glare at me.
'What's wrong with me getting scared of blood. Isn't it a normal trait?'
Nina sighed. Her eyes softened, her posture relaxed as she plopped down on the chair next to me.
"He is as moody as hell babe. Don't Mind him!"
I looked at her and smiled.
"I understand. He is just frustrated with his life and took it out on me. I guess I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. So It's okay."
"You are too good to be true." She looked at me with adoration and my cheeks reddened at her sight. I guess nobody ever adored me.
The bell rang signifying the end of lunchtime and we moved back to classes. All afternoon was spent in the usual subject classes. Tina was nowhere to be seen. Perhaps she took half a day and went home.
That same night after having a long day of classes at school and preparing dinner I was now laying on my bed with my phone. I scrolled through the newsfeed on Facebook after spooning myself in the sheet completely. Nights in Delhi were hot and humid, and we didn't own an Air conditioner so sleeping was not an easy task here. Suddenly, I received one message on messenger, without checking the message I went to the person's profile to identify him but it was from an unfriended profile and his name was extremely hard to pronounce with the starting letter X. I have never heard names starting with the letter X. When I viewed his profile, my mouth watered for a while. Yeah, it happened. He had long eyelashes, Hair like the night sky and a straight forehead, and a delicate face with blue pupils. He was wearing a black shirt with blue jeans enhancing his beautiful body. He was perhaps the most handsome guy I ever saw except for some celebrities. The smile on that picture was mesmerizing. My first thought was he might be fooling by uploading someone else's pictures. Without delay, I opened the message in suspicion. The message was, 'Hi'. As soon as I saw his text I replied with the word, 'Hey' along with a smiling emoji. He saw my message and texted me back.
"I am Arhaan Khan, From Jharkhand. And where are you from?" He typed.
"I am Jacqueline, from Delhi." I pressed the send button. I had lots of questions like if the picture is yours. So I asked him and he told me it was his picture with a joke. 'I am too handsome to be real. Huh?'
To check whether he was speaking the truth or not, I went to his profile and checked all of his pictures. He, however, flirted back and forth on every chance he got.
"It's 11:55. Why aren't you sleeping?"
"I don't know. I just can't sleep."
"Oh. I see. Would you like to play an exciting game with me?"
"Yeah. Sure. Why not!"
"It's going to be a dirty game though."
"What do you mean by dirty?"
"An adult game!"
"Oh let's play."
"Wow. You sure are brave. I thought you would back out."
"I would if I feel it is getting too much."
"Hold me."
"Sorry. What do you mean?"
"I said, imagine you are holding me."
"You mean hug you? Right?"
"Yeah. Hug me tight."
"Okay. I am hugging you. And laughing." I sent him a laughing emoji because he was making me laugh. Why would I even imagine hugging him, when it was not the case?
"Don't laugh baby. I am serious." He sent me a hmph emoji and I regarded his behavior as weird.
"Can't help it."
"But okay. I have stopped laughing."
"Good Girl. Now caress me all over."
"I am sorry, I am laughing. This sounds funny. How can I caress you when we are the states apart?"
"You are ruining the fun baby."
"Imagine, I am kissing your nipples."
What's wrong with him? That's too much. How can he even say that to a girl he is talking to for the first time? Is this how guys talk to girls on Facebook? How can this be normal? For some reason, I shuddered at his words and typed.
"Okay, that is too much. Stop."
"Okay baby."
I noticed just now that he was calling me baby all this time and I have disregarded the word while on the other hand I always stopped Remo to call me that.
'What's wrong with me? Fuck! Am I looking for guys to substitute for his place in my world? At the cost of this dirty talking that makes me cringe so much.'