Chapter 60: Chapter 60

I... I couldn’t save our child.. how can you expect me to help save you?” I stare at him.

“We need to save each other, but the only way for us to do that..” He looks me dead in the eye. “Is if we help pick each other up. When the time is right we will be blessed with another baby.. our time will come, Cara Mia, you just have to wait and see.”  He gently kisses the top of my head.

I don’t want another baby, I just want my baby back! My perfect baby. His words cause my insides to seize up and my heart to ice over.

“No... I want my baby back! How can you sit here and talk of another when I just lost my baby?” I sneer at him unbelievably.

“Our baby, We lost our baby. Si, I may not have carried our child.. but I did help create it and I did grow to love it too.” He snaps at me.

“No..” I struggle to get up from him but he doesn’t let me go, instead, he just crushes me closer to him. “My baby, you told me kids weren’t on your agenda remember? So don’t you dare... sit here and tell me how upset you are and tell me we can try again... eventually!” I continue to struggle against him.

“I am here am I not? You have been in a coma for two weeks... two damn weeks, If I truly didn’t give a damn about the baby I wouldn’t have bothered to drop everything back at home and fly straight over here to you now would I?” He lightly shakes me trying to reason with him.

“You should have stayed.... home. There’s nothing here for you anymore.” I start to sob, shaking my head.

“You’re angry, you’re hurt and you feel broken. But don’t mistake my grief as weakness Vanessa, I won't allow you to push me away. I have sat at your bedside for two weeks... Waiting for you to come back to me.” His voice is soft laced with fear.

“I’m broken... I’m a mess!” I begin to pant. “I am sick of feeling like this... feeling weak.”

“Hey..” He runs the pad of his thumb down my cheek. “You are anything but weak! You have endured so.. much pain in your life and yet you still hold your head up. You are strong... stronger than I ever thought you to be and I admire you so much for it Cara Mia.” He says softly.

I have lost my sister, my parents never gave a damn about me, I lost my niece until recently, I was nearly raped, I have lost two weeks of my life and my baby is gone. Soon I will lose Luca, what else is there for me? I have no one and nothing.....

“I’m tired.” I lay my head in the crook of his neck and breathe him in, intoxicating myself with his scent knowing that this could be the last time I allow myself the gift to do so.

“Rest.” He holds me tightly and runs a hand up and down my back. “Just rest Tesoro.” He whispers. “I’ve got you.” I listen to the soft beat of his heart as I slowly and willingly succumb to the darkness again.

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I drowsily opened my eyes, I take in my surroundings and realise I’m back in my bed in the hospital. I look to my side and I smile. Conrad is sitting awkwardly in a chair as he cradles Chrissy in his arms as they both sleep. That guy would move the seven heavens for her.

“Hey, you two.” I croak out. My throat still feels as if it's on fire.

Conrad’s the first one to stir, he opens his eyes and the moment they land on me he smiles.

“Hey yourself. You gave us quite a scare.” He clears his throat and taps Chrissy on the leg.

She slowly rubs her eyes and yawns. “I need coffee and a bagel.” She groans.

“I’ll take an O.J thanks,” I say to her with my husky voice.

Chrissy jumps in Conrad’s arms at the sound of my voice though she hasn’t bothered to look at me. Instead, she looks at Conrad and smiles as he nods his head. Slowly she turns around in his arms and looks at me.

“Nessa!” She rushes over to me and wraps me up in her arms tightly.

“I missed you too Chrissy but.. I still hurt and..I.. I’m finding it difficult to breathe with you squeezing the life out of me.” I say breathlessly.

She pulls back and looks at me with her eyes full of unshed tears. “I’m sorry. I.. I.. Shit Nessa I thought we lost you all.” She bursts out crying. I take her hand in mine and squeeze it weakly.

“I’m sorry.. I didn’t mean to scare you guys...”

“No! You stop right there.” She cuts me off as she angrily swipes away her tears. “This... this is not your fault you hear me? I will not allow you to take a hint of the blame for this.” She motions her hands up and down my body. “The blame is Mikal’s to drown in, that bastard deserves nothing but a slow torturous death. I swear if I ever lay eyes on him again I... I will..”

“You will do no such thing babe,” Conrad says in a clipped tone.

Chrissy turns her head and looks at him with pained eyes, Conrad sighs after a moment of silence and rubs his hand over his stubble jaw standing up. “Come to me.” He says softly and I watch in awe as Chrissy obediently goes to him and he pulls her trembling body in tightly against his, soothingly whispering calming words in her ear as she cries. I stare at them for a short time watching them comfort each other. With a heavy heart that feels fragile as fuck right now, I close my eyes and take a deep breath. A lone tear runs down my face. Gods... I wish I could rewind time, the last thing I want is to cause the ones I love so... much any unnecessary pain. I slowly open my eyes and brush away the tear from my cheek. I look back at Chrissy still wrapped up in Conrad’s arms with her back towards me, My eyes roam up and they land on Conrad’s.

“Shhh... Everything’s going to be okay, Your safe now.” He says quietly looking me in the eye. I can't help but feel as if the words he spoke, were meant more for my ears than hers.

The hospital’s room door swings open and Carlos walk in with his head down looking over the notes on the clipboard in his hand. He reaches the end of my bed before he finally looks up and when he sees that I’m awake he smiles relieved.

“How’s my favourite patient doing?” He says softly winking at me.

“I bet you say that to all your female patient’s.” I roll my eyes, laughing.

“No... not true at all.” He beams at me knowing I see right through him.

“Sure you don’t.” I narrow my eyes. “So... what’s the verdict?”

“You are healing as well as can be expected but you will still need to remain here for a few more days.” He sighs. “Nessa... I’m sorry..” He starts to say with his voice full of sympathy.

“No, please don’t say it.” My voice begins to tremble.

“You know I’m here for you too.” He pauses briefly. "Sanz and Keri want you to know, that you've been in their prayers too.” He nods at me.

Just as I begin to think that I have my tears and emotions under control Rosalia walks in. Looking vibrant and stunning as she usually does. Our eyes clash from across the room and she rushes over to me pushing Carlos aside,  throwing her arms around me and crushing my torturing body to hers as we both break down into tears. Once the tears have subsided Rosalia leans back and looks at me with sad eyes.

“Aunty, I thou... I thought I lost you.” Tears start to run down her face again.

I slowly struggle to sit up.

“I know babe... But did you honestly think I’m that easy to get rid of?” I wipe the tears from her cheeks.

“No, But you are mamas sister after all Si? And I hear the Maddison blood in our women, is furiously strong ” She chuckles lightly.