Chapter 59: Chapter 59

The ringing sound in my ear becomes deafening, Shutting everyone out. Why won't it just stop, I Can no longer hear Chrissy hysterically crying or Carlos giving out orders and the smell... that awful hospital smell is gone too.

Shit...

Am I.. am I, No!

“Vanessa, you’re okay.” A familiar voice calls out to me in the darkness. “You’re okay Lil sis.” She calls out again.

“Celeste is that you?” I cry.

“Yes, Sweetheart.”

“Why...Why can’t I see you?” The panic is evident in my voice.

“Your eyes are swollen shut, and you have swelling in your brain. But you are alive Vanessa.”

“I need you..”

“I'm here, I will always be here. But you can’t stay here.” There’s sadness in her voice.

“Just a little longer, Let me stay a little longer, please?” I plead.

“I'm sorry Nessa but you have to go back. The longer you stay here the less chance you have returning to your body.”

“I don’t care, there’s nothing there for me now.” I cry.

“That’s a lie, you have my baby there that you promised to look after.” Her voice is hard snd clipped. “Just like I promise to look after yours.” Her voice fades.

“You have my baby?” A new surge of pain courses through my body.

“I do, and he is beautiful. Lucas genes are as dominant as he is.” A light laugh surrounds me. “It's time to return my dear sister, we will always be with you, and when your time DOES come we will be waiting.” The beeping sound returns.

“I am here, Cara Mia, wake up. Please, just wake up.”

I’m here and I can hear from you.

“I’m sorry, I’m so...sorry.” His words are etched with great pain.

I’m sorry too. The baby...

I lost our baby.

I.. I... couldn’t protect our baby.

“Ti Amo,  I will wait for you to find your way back to me.”

I’m here. Wake up damn it!

I will myself to wake up from the paralyzed being I have succumb to. Though my limbs feel heavy and every inch of me screams out in agony, I can no longer yield to the suffering torment of the darkness.

As the fog lifts and consciousness resurfaces, a burst of light hits me like a train and everything around me no longer engulfs the darkness. It is the fear of time I have no memory of that worries me most.

“Lu... Luca.” I croak.

“Cara Mia.” He chokes out as he grasps my hand and brings it to his mouth kissing it.

“Water,” I murmur. God, it feels like I swallowed balls of fire.

“Si.” He quickly gets up and pours me one into a small plastic cup with a straw.

I struggle to sit up. Fuck! It hurts so much. Luca comes rushing to my side and helps me. He puts a few extra pillows behind my back then holds the straw to my mouth as I gingerly take a few slow sips. When I finish and he seems satisfied I’ve had enough, he puts the cup down and looks at me.

“Do you know where you are Vanessa?” He looks at me anxiously

“The hospital.” I stare back at him after my eyes roam the room.

That’s why the awful smell invaded my nose.

“

Si.” He nods his head and sighs relieved.

“I need to go to the bathroom,” I whisper with embarrassment.

“You have a catheter.” He frowns at me.

“You have got to be kidding me right now?” I shake my pounding head.

Ouch! Don’t do that again.

“I will have to pull it out th...”

“No... Call a nurse.” My cheeks start to burn just thinking about him removing it.

“I can do it.” He moves closer, determined.

“Stop, I want a female nurse.” I glare at him.

“Fine.” He sighs giving up and turns around leaving the room.

Moments later he returns with a nurse and a scowl on his face.

“Leave.” I look up at him as the nurse stands at my bedside.

“What?” He asks surprised with narrowed eyes.

“I need you to close the curtain and leave. You... You’re making this more difficult for me to endure by standing there glaring at me.” I whisper.

He nods understandingly after a moment of silence. “I’ll wait outside.”  He leaves the room after pulling the curtain.

Once the nurse stepped foot out the door minutes later, Luca was back at my side again.

“There’s a bedpan under the bed.” He bends down to retrieve it.

“Luca, No!” I cry out. “I want to use the bathroom.”

“I need to check you over before I can move you, Cara Mia.” He runs a hand through his ruffled hair. How long has he been here?

“Please..” I beg him on the verge of crying.

He frowns at me for a moment. “Jeez, how can I deny you of anything?” He bends down and kisses me on the lips.

“Ouch,” I hiss, pulling back.

“I’m sorry.” He looks at me with his eyes full of pain and regret.

“It’s okay, The pains are gone but I still need to pee.” I smile weakly at him.

He stares at me for a moment before he gently removes the IV from my hand and pushes the stand to one side, carefully he scoops me off the bed, I wrap my arms around his neck and lightly plant a kiss on the side of his mouth and smile as a low growl escapes from the back of his throat.

He kicks the bathroom door open and gently puts me down on my feet. He then gathers the hospital gown up to my hips and slowly guides me to sit down on the toilet seat then he turns around and just.. stands there. Nope... Cant pee with you standing there.

“Uh,.babe, I’m into some... kinkiness. But this... This is a whole new level.” I ground out sarcastically.

“I just want to make sure your okay.” He says softly with his back still facing me.

“I’ll be okay. I just...I can't pee with an audience.” I sigh.

Luca doesn’t protest which surprises me. He simply walks out and closes the door gently behind him. I painfully go about my business, when I’m done I walk over to the basin on wobbly feet to wash my hands and rinse my mouth out with water. It bloody hurts like a bitch.

I look up as I’m washing my hands and catch my reflection In the mirror. A low piercing cry escapes my lips, I quickly clamp a hand over my mouth and squeeze my eyes shut.

Hoping Luca didn’t hear me and doesn’t come flying through the door. What the fuck did that arsehole do to me? I take a deep breath and slowly open my eyes taking another look in the mirror, I drop my hand and slowly turn my face side to side getting a good look at Mikal’s work.

My face is covered in bruises, the purple and green coloured ones, My jaw is swollen and there is a cut on the bridge of my nose and my lower lip is fat and split. I slowly bring my hand up and touch my lip. Ouch! I hiss barely touching it. God, I’m a mess! Slowly lifting my arms I gather all my hair and put it up into a high ‘mums’ bun. I should have been a mum, I was going to be a mum! This time I couldn’t stop the wave of tears and the shriek of pain that tore from my lips.

My legs give out and I slowly started to drop to the floor when Luca comes barging through the door and he just manages to catch me in his arms just before my butt landed on the cold hard surface.

“The...Th..our baby!” I sob.

Lucas hold on me tightens as he walks to the door, he kicks it closed before he slides his back down it and cradles me, rocking us back and forth.

“Di..did he ra..rape me?” I stutter as my body trembles in his embrace.

“No..” He sneers deeply and quietly. “He almost succeeded though.” His shoulders rising and falling rapidly with pent up anger radiating off him.

“I lost our baby, didn’t I?” I pull back and look at him, using the back of my hand to wipe my nose.

“Yes.” He hoarsely grounds out as he looks down at me with tears threatening his eyes.

“No....”

I cry out and he crushes me to him.

So he wasn’t able to ruin me physically, just emotionally destroy me. My heart begins to feel heavy with heartache and  I can understand how a broken heart can be the death of you.

“I am sorry Cara Mia.” He strokes my hair softly.

“It.I..It hurts.” I claw at my heart. “I.I...I’m not strong enough!”

“You have to be. Look at me..” He tilts my head back and looks into my eyes. “You have to be strong.”

“Why? I lost our baby. What’s the point.” I push his hand away and cover my face with my hands crying harder.

“Si, our baby is gone.” He gently removes my hands from my face. “An angel called upon early.” A tear slides down his cheek. “But... I need you to remain strong Tesoro... I need you.” He sighs deeply