Chapter 19: Chapter 19

XIX

I slightly chuckle and roll my eyes.

"You're not serious, are you?" I ask him and he doesn't reply, but instead continues to stare down at me.

I lift my brows. "No, Axel, I'm not going out with Theo tomorrow. I'm not the type of girl to just switch guys." I tell him. He smirks, satisfied.

"At least if they don't give me a reason to." I whisper quietly to myself and he raises his brows. "What?" he asks in confusion.

"Nothing, nothing." I quickly reply and he slowly nods, not completely convinced. "O-kay." he says and starts getting off of me.

I frown. Is he going to leave me?

Even if it is completely rational and expected that he would leave, it still saddens me.

"Are you going home?" I ask, trying not to sound too sad and he smiles.

"No. Just gotta take a quick trip to the bathroom and I'll be right back." he winks at me and when he stands up, I'm able to see a prominent bulge in his pants.

I blush at the sight, nodding. "Okay. Bathroom is across the hall." I tell him and he nods, quietly making his way out of my room.

"Be right back." he says and closes the door behind him.

As soon as he's out of the room, I let out a huge breath.

I can't believe what has just happened. Axel is actually in my house, and we are back on speaking terms; well even more than speaking terms.

He has just touched me. Sexually.

And it felt so damn good, I can't believe what I've been missing out.

But, maybe it is just him who is so good at this.

I groan and cover my head with my hands.

Why did I let him do that? He has been ignoring me for the entire week and then suddenly he decides to show up and I let him do all that?! How freaking stupid can I be?

Oh god, it'll feel so bad if he's going to be rude to me again after this.

I really, really need to get some self control around him.

"Everything alright?" Axel asks as he peeks his head inside the room.

I nod. "Yep." I squeal and he comes into the room, closing the door behind him.

He makes his way to the bed and I notice that his bulge is gone.

He was that fast?

He notices my expression and smirks. "It didn't take much time because I was already pretty close from watching you. It's a miracle I didn't come in my boxers, really." he explains and I blush again as he climbs into the bed again.

Suddenly, he reaches for my pants again and I widen my eyes.

"Again?" I squeak.

Axel shakes his head. "No, I think you've had enough. I'm just getting you more comfortable to sleep." he says and I nod.

"Are you staying?" I ask and he nods, pulling my pants down and climbing back up to me when he's finished to cuddle.

"I was going to yeah, if that's okay with you."

I nod. "Yeah, but, um, my dad would kind of go crazy if he saw you in bed with me." I say and Axel frowns.

"He knows about me?" he asks.

"Yeah, my mother told him and we kind of had a talk this evening before I came up and found you being a stalker."

He smirks. "It's my speciality. What did he say?"

I clear my throath. How do I say this?

"Well, um, he kind of doesn't like you."

His brows raise and he chuckles: "A lot of people don't like me."

I frown slightly at that. "Yes, Axel but he really doesn't like you. He told me he doesn't want to see me with you and that he doesn't want to see you in this house again."

He purses his lips and buries his head in my neck.

"Fuck." he curses and I put my hand in his curls, gently caressing his head.

We stay like that for a while in comfortable silence. There are a lot of unspoken words in the air around us, pressing onto us yet we ignore them, refusing to step back into the cold reality. In the reality where the relationship between us is impossible.

Even if we forget the outside forces such as my parents and our friends, none of which support us, there's still a much bigger problem; Axel and I aren't compatible. It's a fact.

We're horrible for each other, fighting and ignoring the other one like two kids.

"Do you want a shirt to sleep in?" Axel asks me, bringing his head up from my neck. I nod.

He stands up from the bed and heads to my closet, but the sight of his shirt laying on the ground stops him.

He looks at me. "Um, would you like to sleep in my shirt?"

I smile.

"Okay."

He picks it up and sits on the bed. "Arms up."

I smirk, sitting up but leaving my arms down. "Really?"

He lifts his brow. "Arms up." he says and I groan, lifting my arms up. Axel slides the shirt on me, touching my breasts during.

"Good girl." he says and pecks me on the lips.

"I set the alarm for 6 in the morning, is that early enough?" he asks and I nod. "Usually my parents get up at 8 in the morning on the Weekend."

"Good, now let's go to sleep, baby." he says and lays me down, putting his arms around me and holding me close to him.

"Good night, Sophia." he says.

"Good night, Axel." I reply and snuggle up to him.

We lay there, holding each other in the dark. It is extremely comfortable and feels kind of familiar and comforting, especially since I have his shirt on, but I somehow can't bring myself to fall asleep. One particular thought keeps nagging me.

I feel Axel's breathing get slower and calmer, inclining that he is falling asleep, so I quickly blurt out:"Axel?"

He stirrs. "Yes?"

"Are you going to hate me and ignore me again?" I ask, my voice barely audible.

I am scared of the answer, but I have to know.

"No, baby." he replies after a moment.

I smile. "Promise?"

He gulps and I feel him place a kiss on my forehead. "Promise." He hugs me closer to him. »Do I want to know what your answer to our deal is?« he asks, calling out the elephant in the room. I let out a deep breath and look up at him.

»What do you think I should say?« I ask him and he smirks. »I think we don't make such a bad couple, Soph.« he admits and if I was less proud I'd say that I think so, too. Instead, I call out the problematic fact. »Yeah, but you don't date, Axel.«

He stays silent for a few moments. »We could still hang out.«

He doesn't know it but he manages to crack my heart with those five words. I sigh and turn away from him. »Let's just talk about it tomorrow, okay?«

He comes up close behind me and hugs me from behind, spooning me. »Okay. Sleep tight, Sophia.«