Chapter 13: Chapter 13

XIII

Sophia’s P.O.V.

I sit on the bed, unmoving and watching the window Axel has just stormed out of.

What the hell just happened?

We were having such a good time, it was amazing. He was so funny and so comforting, I wanted to stay in his arms forever.

Now that I think about it, I haven't felt this close to someone in ages. I never really had a lot of friends and when I did, I wasn't close to them. I've never had a boyfriend.

My mum, yes, with her I'm close, but she has never seen me in such a vulnerable state as Axel did today. I cried when my rabbit died and when I broke a toy, but those were childish things. What happened today isn't a childish thing.

Actually, I have never felt as close to somebody as I did with Axel, as stupid as it sounds.

And then I went and ruined it.

I groan and plop face down on the bed and hug my pillow to me.

I'm such an idiot.

And I've never even wanted anything bad, I just wanted him to be as opened to me as I was to him in that moment, but I fail to realize it's much harder for him than it is for me.

"Hi, sweetie, I'm home." my mum says from downstairs and I quickly sit up and wipe away my tears.

"Hi, mum." I reply.

She comes up the stairs and into my room, sitting down on the bed next to me.

"Is everything okay? Have you been crying?" she asks with worried voice and I shake my head.

"No, I'm fine, mum." I reply and she looks like she doesn't believe me but lets it go anyway.

Then she smiles. "You have a pretty boy there, Soph." she smirks and raises one brow.

I chuckle and ignore the need to cry again.

When did I become such a crybaby?

I shrug. "Yeah, I guess."

She frowns. "Doesn't really seem your type, with all the tattoos and stuff. He has been good to you, right? Guys like him..." she trails off, deep in thought. "They are usually not the most loving people." she says and I sigh.

I don't know whether to agree or disagree. She's right on one hand, but on the other hand people like him are the most loving of them all.

"Wait, mum, how do you know this?" I ask with a frown and she laughs.

"I was young once, too, sweetheart."

I stare at her in disbelief and then laugh with her.

"I love you, mum." I say and hug her side.

She smiles."I love you, too, Sophie."

***

I struggle to wake up on Monday, wanting nothing more than to stay in the warm and comfty bed.

Yesterday I met up with Amber and told her what happened with Axel, leaving out his name. Knowing Amber, she is able to do anything for a revenge and I don't want Axel to wake up without his brows.

I dress in a pair of jeans and a light blue shirt my mum bought for me which I really love.

I haven't had any contact with Axel since he left my house, and the guilt is starting to kill me.

Today, I'm going to apologize to him.

I put extra effort in my makeup, even adding eyeliner.

"Have a good day, sweetie!" my mum hugs me and then I leave for school.

The entire walk is spent with me trying to figure out how I'm going to apologize yet nothing seems good enough. By the time I have arrived to school, I still have nothing.

"Hey gurl, are you better?" Amber asks and throws an arm around me and I nod, even if I'm not really better.

"That's great. See you in lunch okay?" she asks and then Liam comes up to us.

"Hi, girls." he smiles.

"Hey, Liam."

"Hey, Johnson." me and Amber greet and Liam laughs.

"Shut up, Amber. Get your ass to your class."

She rolls her eyes and leaves.

"She's great." me and Liam say at the same time and sigh.

In that moment, I sense him somewhere close to me and tense up.

Looking in the opposide direction of the hallway, I see Axel and his friends walking in my direction.

I quickly start to make my way to him but as soon as he sees me, he looks away from me and walks right past.

I gulp, watching his back walk away from me without a word.

Ouch.

Seeing the way he has flipped me off makes me feel a hundred times worse.

"Hi, Soph." Theo says and smiles at me. I force a smile back. "Hey Theo. I would love to chat, but I gotta get to my class."

He nods."Yeah, me too. Have fun."

"You too." with those words I turn away from him and walk back to Liam, who has been watching the entire exchange between me, Axel and Theo.

He doesn't say anything though, and simply throws an arm around my shoulder comfortly.

"You okay?"

I nod.

He sighs, obviously not believing me but doesn't say anything.

"Come, let's go." I say and we head to English.

***

During English I tell Liam about Axel and I can see the sympathy in his eyes. By now it's clear that I care about him more than I should.

I know Liam doesn't like that and that he is scared for me, but nobody is more scared than me.

To be honest, I feel like a huge idiot. I care about a person who fights, who is completely rude, mean and cruel towards me. I care about a person who says they don't have a heart.

Isn't that a completely stupid thing to do?

But I can't help it. Somehow the last two days have changed my opinion about him.

I think that deep down, below that harsh attitude and a sky high wall, there is a heart. A heart buried beneath everything else that even he forgot that he has it.

And I have a plan.

I'm going to find that beautiful heart and prove to him that he is not as horrible as he thinks he is.