Chapter 14: Chapter 14
XIV
After the school is over, I rush to Axel's car. I want to make sure that he doesn't leave before I get the chance to apologize, so I'm going to wait for him by his car. When I come into the parking lot, his car is thankfully still there. I make my way through the crowd towards it and lean on the black pick-up truck. People walking past me start giving me weird glances when I do so. Some girls and guys give me sympathetic looks, other girls glare at me and some just simply roll their eyes.
Right, they probably all know this is Axel's car.
I frown when I begin to realize what they are probably thinking. I bet they think that I'm just another girl, completely smitten with the boy who doesn't care about me. Scoffing to myself, I push that thought out of my mind. I'm not like that.
Another question forms in my mind, however.
How many girls did Axel sleep with? A lot, probably. Maybe 20, 30.
I gulp. I hope I'm wrong.
And then something in the corner of my eye brings me out of my thoughts completely.
Axel is in front of me, walking towards his car. He's wearing tight black jeans, black shirt which hugs his muscles and a tight leather jacket. Basically, he looks so good it should be illegal.
He isn't alone, though.
Walking close to him there's a blonde girl. She is an average height and has a curvy body. In her ears, nose and lip there are piercings, and her arm is tattooed. She is hot, there's no denying it, and has a hand wrapped around Axel's bicep.
I suddenly feel like vomiting, especially when his hand lowers down her body and you can easily see that he just squeezed her behind. I stand there, unmoving. My mind is screaming at me to move before they see me, but my body is numb.
When I finally snap out of it about thirty seconds later, it's too late.
Axel looks up from the girl straight into my eyes. I can see an emotion that I can't deciper flash in his eyes, before he frowns and clenches his yaw.
"What the fuck are you doing here?" he asks, now standing directly in front of me and with the girl by his side glaring at me too now.
"I- I..." I stutter and the girl starts to laugh.
"Oh, Axel I told you to stick with me. Now you're gonna have this pathetic, stuttering slut following you everywhere." she says and tightens her grip on him.
Her words snap me out of the transe.
She's right.
I've turned into a pathetic poor little girl who cries all the time and followes around an asshole who obviously only wants to get in her pants.
I scoff loudly and take a step towards the girl who's still giving me a daring look. "I'd rather be pathetic than a whore." I spit at her and she gasps. Then I look at Axel whose mouth is pursed in a thin line.
"Have fun fucking that. I suggest you put on a condom, though, you wouldn't want your dick falling off the next morning." With those words I storm off, pushing the people out of my way.
I need to get somewhere alone, fast. It's easy to put on façade and pretend that you're not hurt, but that façade disappears after a while and mine is disappearing with the speed of the Sun. How can he be like that? How can anyone be like that? One day so loving, so amazing, reading you a book and holding you close, complimenting you and kissing you. And then the next day being completely ignorant and groping someone else in front of you.
I begin to realize that he has never cared for me; not even remotely close. I was right when I said that all he wants to do is get in my pants and the realization burns like fire in my heart. This is awful; these feelings are ruining me and changing me and I hate it. I feel wetness on my cheeks and come to a stop to wipe my cheeks, realizing that I'm crying.
Again.
I purse my lips and stomp my foot on the ground like a child, beyond angry with myself. I look around and see that I have come quite far from school while not paying attention to where I've been running. I find myself at a small stream and surrounded by a few trees. Looking around me, I make sure that I can still see the school and know my way back to it, and then sit down on a small rock next to the stream. The water looks clean and pure, something that is rare in this world nowadays. Sighing to myself, I make a promise.
No matter what happens, I will not cry for Axel again, because he truly isn't worth it. I will also not let him in again, ever. The pain is too much and I can only imagine how much I will be hurting if I don't stop now. He'll only continue to play with me and my emotions and eventually turn me into a numb being.
"Hey, it's you again." I suddenly hear a voice behind me and jump, startled.
Standing there is Theo.
I smile and hope that he won't notice the dried tears on my cheeks.
"Hey, it's you again." I repeat and he chuckles.
"What are you doing here? How did you find this place?" he asks and stuffs his hands into the pockets of his jeans.
I sit down again. "Just wandered off, I guess."
He raises his brows. "Into my special place?"
I raise my brows and smile, too. "You have a special place?"
He nod. "Of course. Don't you?"
I shrug. "Not really. I guess this is my special place now, too."
He frowns and acts angry. "Hey, you can't do that! This is my place!"
I laugh at him. "I guess we'll just going to have to share it, then."
He laughs too and shrugs. "I guess."
Then he sits down on the rock next to mine and looks at me.
"Are you okay?"
I open my mouth to say "yes", but I stop myself.
What's the use of lying? I have lied too much today already.
So I shake my head.
"No, not really." I reply and look at the stream.
"Want to talk about it?" he asks and I shake my head.
"I'm sure you have other more important things to do than to listen to my problems." I tell him and he bites his lip, shaking his head.
"Not really. I'm the least busy man you know, Soph." he smiled at me and I take a deep breath.
"Okay then. So there is this guy-"
"Axel?"
I look at him and furrow my brows.
"How did you know?"
He laughs. "Oh, come on. It's obvious."
I give him a surprised look. "Really?"
He nods. "Yep. But go on."
"Well, he... He's a dick." I say and he laughs again.
"What did he do?"
I smile and get into the story, telling him everything, leaving out the private things like kisses.
His expression changes from surprised and shocked to understanding and somehow mad.
We end up sitting there by the little stream for hours and he tells me his problems too, something about some girl he likes but she likes someone else and it saddens me to hear that.
He is such a great person, the girl must be out of her mind. When we're done the Sun is already beginning to set and I sit up, alarmed, realizing I'm really, really late.
Theo however gives me a ride home and I thank him for everything; for making me feel better and for listening to me. He waves it off and smiles at me, telling me that it isn't a big deal and we say goodbye with smiles on our faces. The last thing I see before I fall asleep that night is how the white moon changes into a pair of two beautiful green eyes.