Chapter 43: Chapter 43

BELLA

Hearing Jayden said all those words to me, I knew he trusted me so much. He found solace telling everything he had passed through. I saw him as a very strong person. I saw him as someone who had passed through a lot and was able to still stand strong. I couldn't help but hug him. I felt my hug will be able to calm him down. Seeing him cry, I could not stop myself from crying. I tried putting myself in his shoe and then I realized I would have broken down for I was the one who had passed through all this. I realized he had trusted so many people in the past and they have betrayed him. He has lost his trust in the people he once and still loves. And If I keep the truth about who I am from him, I will be joining the league of his betrayal.

I sighed. It won't be easy to tell him who I am. I was afraid he might blackout considering the person my mom is. What if he says no to the relationship?. What if he gets so angry for not telling him in the first place?. What if he sees me as a betrayal?. Different thoughts ran through my mind and I doubted if telling him was the right thing to do.

"Do you consider what his reaction will be when he finds out you have been lying to him?" My subconscious mind said

I batted my lashes. My subconscious mind is right. I never thought what his reaction will be like when he finds out later about my identity. I never about his reaction when he gets to know the truth from someone else. I was more concerned about his reaction now. I sighed. He should find out from me than from someone else.

I tried to calm myself down and hoped things will be better after I tell him the truth. Assuring myself that telling him was the right and best thing to do, I finally spoke up. "I have Something to say"

He sniffed and then stared at me. I could feel his eyes boring into mine. "Y-you have something to say?" He asked.

I nodded. "I-it's about my true identity"

He stared at me and I felt my heart racing so fast. "Maybe this is a bad idea?" I thought. Maybe I should not tell him the truth. My nerves were jumping so badly I thought I would collapse soon. "Bella?" He called, jolting me out of my thought.

I batted my lashes. "Y-you called me?"

"Yeah. You seem off?. Are you ok?"

I nodded, trying to hide my fear. Why do I suddenly have a strong fear of losing him?. Why do I feel telling him, means losing him? I took a deep breath and then spoke up. "I-i, i-i" I couldn't complete the statement. This is a wrong idea. "Nevermind" I answered

He furrowed his brows. "It seems you have something to say to me?"

"No. I mean yes. B-but I don't know how to say it. I don't want you to feel I have been lying to you all along"

He blinked. "You kept something from me?"

The look on his face was disappointing and I felt my heart shattered. He must have felt a tint of betrayal. He brushed his hair backward and finally stopped up. "Y-you ain't ready to tell me right. I guess I will start going" he tried to sound like everything is all right but I could tell everything wasn't ok. I couldn't bear to see him looking this way.

I stood up. "I-i will tell you everything you need to know about me, but you have to promise me, you won't stop loving me"

He furrowed his brows. "You want me to promise you that?"

I nodded. "T-that's the only way I can trust not to lose you"

He sighed. "I promise. I will never stop loving you"

"Is that a promise?"

He nodded. "Sure". I could see the eagerness in his eyes. He wanted to know and hear whatever I have in mind to say. He wanted to get every clue of what has been happening in my life.

I shrugged. It's a good thing to be truthful to him if I do love him and wants to spend the rest of my life with him irrespective of our age difference, telling him the truth is the best way to not only make him trust me more but to know that there are still people out there he could trust. I sat down and gestured for him to sit. I let him place his head on my chest while I stroked his hair.

I felt that was one way to get his attention. "Jay?" I called. He raised his head and I sighed. "Do you want to know about my parent?" Those were the kind of words he used when he asked me if I wanted to know why he wasn't close to his mom.

He nodded. "With all pleasure"

I sighed. "You know the Anderson Enterprise?. The one in Washington D.C.?"

"Of course I do. It has branches in some other countries too. I have always thought it working there one of these days"

I rolled my eyes. "That's my father's company"

He sat up quickly. "T-that's your father's?". I nodded and he blinked. "Does that make you, Mrs. Mara's daughter?"

I blinked. "Y-you know my mom?"

He nodded. "I've met her once. Why didn't you say this to me all this while?"

"I-i was afraid you might not love me if you find out I came from a rich family"

He hummed. "That gives the reason you had your first degree at an early age and was able to have a second degree"

I nodded. "And I used to be a professor at St. Andrew university"

He batted her lashes. "You were a professor?. At St. Andrew?. St. Andrew is in New York. That means, you used to live in New York?". I nodded. "Then what were you doing in Washington, D.C.?. I mean when you came to the graveyard?". I rolled my eyes. "Don't give me the I came to visit someone bullshit"

I sighed. "My parent live there"

He nodded. "That explains why you were in Washington, D.C. the last time"

"My mom wanted me to visit"

He sighed. "But how come you taught at a university in New York when your parent lives in Washington, D.C.?. How do you do it?. I mean..."

I smiled. "I live alone in New York"

"And your parent wasn't against it?"

"My mom was but my dad always supports me"

He groaned. "Oh, mine. What else have you been hiding from me?. Why did you hide all this from me for a long time?"

"I just wanted the right time. I wanted to be sure you love me"

He sighed. "Why do you leave New York for St. Vincent?. Don't tell me you love islands please"

"To find true love"

He batted his lashes. "T-true love?. You left all your life in New York to find true love?"

I nodded. "I thought that was the only option left. I got jilted by men. Most of them loved me for my money and fame and when they felt they are satisfied with the money they get from me, they leave. I just wanted to know what it feels like to find true love and for that to work, I have to leave my comfortable life and live a new life. I'm so sorry I lied to you. I..."

He pulled me closer. "It's a good thing you hid your identity from me. Cause, if you had told me who you were from the beginning, we wouldn't be sitting here and having this conversation. I never loved ladies from rich families. I always see them as bossy, rude and sassy". He stroked my hair. "I'm so angry with you for taking so long to tell me this. But I forgive you. My only fear now is your parent. Will they approve the relationship?. I..."

I placed my hand on his lips. "Shhhh. Speak no further. My mom knows about you and my dad will support me for as long as it makes me happy"

He furrowed his brows. "Does that mean my mind should be at peace?". I nodded. "What about our age difference?"

I smiled. "I should bother about that and not you. And by the way, I am just a year and a half older than you are. That doesn't mean. We can as well keep it a secret if you think my parent will be against it"

He smiled. "I don't want it secret"

I chuckled. "You know I love you right?"

He nodded. "And I love you too"

He stroked my hair and I chuckled. He sighed and I had to look at him. "Are you ok?"

He sighed. "You signed only for a year course and it will soon be over. You will be leaving soon. I won't ..."

I smiled. "Come on, I can always visit you at any time. You can visit me too right?"

"That won't be like seeing your face all the time" he whined

I chuckled. "Don't be a cry baby. We still have some months together. Don't you think we should bother about the presence and not the future?"

"But.."

I shook my head. "But right now, let's enjoy the moment. Let's enjoy the few months we have together ok?"

He nodded. "Ok"

I smiled. "Come here". He moved closer to me and I kissed him. "I love you"

He smiled. "I love you too". I made to stand up hut he stopped me. "Where are you going?"

"To join the girls"

He furrowed his brows. "And me?"

"Watch some movies"

He rolled his eyes. "I don't want movies. I want you"

I chuckled. "Get me if you can and I will be all yours"

"Really?"

I nodded. "Really"

"Are..." I dashed out of the room before he finished his statement. "Bell" he called

"Get me if you can"

I hear him chuckle. "I'm right behind you!!!"