Chapter 33: Chapter 33

Blade's POV

"I'm sorry," I said to the woman in front of me.

After I explained to her everything she needed to know, I knew she would be depressed, but it's better that I can't fight these feelings that I have for Alessia. They are too strong for me to handle, especially when I can't see her or she doesn't acknowledge me.

"Is this what you want?" Kycine said and she was kissing me.

I like what she does because I know she doesn't like it. She doesn't like intimacy without a proper marriage, but I'm different. I was looking for a taste and finally found someone. She started kissing me recklessly and at some point, I was returning it until I pulled her away from me and I was extremely exhausted.

"Stop, Kycine, this isn't you." I told him

And she started sobbing. I was also a wreck, but I know who I wanted and I'm going to fight for her. I want to settle everything I have with Kycine to fully tell Alessia that everything is fine and we can finally get back to normal. I hope so, because of Alessia's condition, I know she's not at the point where she'll be ready to listen deeply. I know that she can hear everything but not listen.

"Everything would be fine now. If only I was someone you'd wanted. I'm such a fool. " She said this while hitting her head.

I suppressed it, and it was stressful to look at.

"It's not your fault; it's all my fault. I should have stayed with you instead of being a womanizer. "

I told her, looking around her room, that it had been a shambles for so long; I knew Kycine, I knew something was wrong when something wasn't organized.

"What do you mean?" She asked me, and I didn't hesitate to say what I had to say.

"So I was involved in a scandal with different women, and I'm using them to get over you, so wait for the moment I can marry you. I'm a sex addict, Kycine. " I said this to her and she was shocked.

"I respect you because you wanted to perform that after your wedding. I love you so much, but when the company was collapsing and I was needed there, you know what our situation is." I told her

I know I don't deserve to be sad and I know remorse can't restore all the damage I've done, but I hope she forgives me.

"My parents didn't accept us, but I fought for it. I knew I loved you with all my heart, even if I was against my parents. But I knew I would come to the point where I would choose only one. " I said, almost crying.

She was just looking at the floor and was silently crying. It was a hurtful sight, but I have to say it for everything to be fine.

"Then I found Alessia. She's way different than you, Kycine. But I knew the moment I found out you were here, I'd come back running to you. " I said to her and she clung onto me, saying

"We can start again. I'll do better. Please just don't do this me. I can't."

Kycine was also part of my life for almost a decade, but that wasn’t enough.

"How can I stay in some relationships that I'm no longer happy in? I'm just work it out. No one deserves that, not even you Kycine. I'm sorry for everything, but I love Alessia. I hope you understand. " I said to her, and she was just crying. I caressed her back and I was crying as well.

But it was such a pain to learn that everything was falling apart; dreams, goals, and even plans that you had for each other. But I just can't sacrifice someone like Kycine.

"I love you, Blade." she said, and that moved me to tears.

"I love you too, but you have to love yourself first." I told her

"Please free yourself because if I stay with you, I know I will only feel pity for you and you don't deserve that."

I was comforting her and then my phone rang. It was Mrs. Williams and I stood up, getting away from Kycine's hug, but she didn't even flintch.

"Hello Mom?" I asked her.

"Blade dear, your wife decided to spend the night in her own villa near the sea. I was worried. I don't know what you are both going through, but please look after her. " She said over the phone that I was guilty.

She does look tired, but you can't deny that she is so beautiful, my Alessia.

"She looks dreadful, so please, if you have the time, visit her." She said, and I couldn't speak. I didn't mean to put her in this kind of way.

I was about to go, but I was stopped by Kycine, and she clung to my right leg.

"Don't leave me, Blade; please stay."

I looked at her and it hurts to see her in that kind of state and I can't even look at her anymore. She's precious to me too, but I needed to attend to Alessia. I know I'll blame myself, especially if I didn't tell her what I wanted to say.

"I'm really sorry, Kycine." and dashed out of her door.

I headed to my car and realized what I had to do. There was a part of me that wanted to stay next to Kycine because she might do something that was out of my sight, but I couldn't take or lose any chances. I needed to get to here as soon as possible and explain everything to her

I was drinking and my speed reached 90 because it was already 11 pm and there weren't many cars, and I didn't care about the violations I might have committed, especially since I was going through the red light. I know I'll face a court soon, but I'll settle the charge they gave me. I just needed to go to her as soon as possible.

I got there and she was dozing off and as I stared at her gorgeous face, my eyes started providing tears and it was helpless. I remember the time where I was confused and didn't want to attend to her. When I found her by the beach, it was a hurtful sight. I just stopped myself because I'd decided to go with Kycine pero

A day with Kycine felt like something hurtful and that isn't right. When it's love, it shouldn't hurt so much, because if it does, it's not love at all.

"My Alessia I'm sorry. I'm late, "I said, and then kissed her.