Chapter 32: Chapter 32

I was waiting for his response. I don't know if I was just carried away by my emotions, the main reason for me to called him. I had no where to go, and I knew he was the help that I needed.

It was taking him so long to answer what i've said, so I didn't know how to proceed and I was losing hope. I knew I was too greedy for this, but what do you expect me to do? I want to get out of here.

When I couldn't be bothered, I grabbed my mom's car and sent Dred the address of my villa.

"I'll take the rest of my break at the villa. I hope you understand." I told Mom.

I said goodbye so she wouldn't have to worry.

"Send Dad my regards." I said and drove the car that I borrowed.

On my way, I find myself a bit calm and I knew this would help me, but I wish there was a never-ending road for me to take. That's all because I can think of a way to lose everything I'm thinking of.

I stopped at the side of the ocean near the cliff and opened the roof of the care. I could already see the ocean and I was greeted by a cold breeze. I don't know but this was calming. At some point, I knew I was free. I sat back in the car seat on top of it's compartment only to think of the peace I was having. I was surprised by a stopped car but I didn't bother to look.

"May I be your company tonight?" He asked me and I turned around; it was Dred.

I smiled at him. I don't know but I didn't cry when he came. He stayed next to me and we were both sharing the same drink.

"Is living a life always this hard? Or am I just not used to it? Because I always get everything I need is just a few fewer words." I said while looking at the peaceful waves.

"Do you want me to tell you something in return, or do you just want me to listen to you?

I gulped the beer and gave it to him in return, and I responded by

"Anything is fine." I said to him.

I don't know, but I seem to be disappearing into the world little by little. If only there was a universe you could go to or someone could replace you, but I'm too weak to allow others to feel what I was feeling and I wouldn't let them to go through this.

But I feel like I’m just running, but how long will I run? I thought that was the answer, but why does it seem to be getting worse?

In the back of Dred's mind, he knew that he was being used by his friend and chose not to tell her anything hurtful. If only he could do something for her to ease the pain, he would definitely do it

As he looks at the girl who's looking into the ocean, he feels something like a spark inside of him that he's been long gone ignoring. He knows that the woman he loves is in love with someone else. But he wants to give it a shot, all or nothing.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked Alessia.

And she just looked at me, and I knew that I really liked her, but I've known this since I saw her again at the bar, but I can't ruin someone's happiness, but it doesn't give her happiness anymore, so I need to give it a try.

"Why do you always keep on running to me when there's something wrong?" Dred asked me

And I paused. Why do I? And the answer is "i'm not sure why," which means "I don't know."

"I feel safe around you. You're someone I can be vulnerable with. You're my friend. " I said to him.

Dred's feelings were hurt, but he did expect Alessia to say that, and he was glad that she felt that way.

But it was like the air was getting thinner and thinner for Dred as he knew what he was about to do wouldn't make this situation any easier and he knew it was just a mere fact that there was no possible chance, but there is no wrong on trying to risk something worthy,

"I lied to you. I didn't know that I'd give in this easily." Dred said, and I was confused and my mind was out of this world.

"What?" i said to him acting all confused but i know where this is going

"I know this is my fault, that I gave in, but what do you expect me to do? I've liked you since college, Alessia." He said, and I was dumbfounded. I didn't know what to do, or how to react so as not to be awkward around him.

"I know I should have fought it because this isn't right, but I can't take it anymore, and at least I'm honest." He said and I was silent.

He's my friend and I am in a situation where I don't receive any words. Yes, I can hear them, but I don't listen.

"Can you let me just this once, prove everything what I've felt for you?" He said this as he was getting closer and closer.

I was hesitant at first, but when I thought if anything had happened to Blade and Kycine, I rushed in to take his lips and everything was bitter.

I knew this wasn't going the way I planned and my mind was even more confused and I didn't know what to do.

We separated from the kiss and it was tasteless. I don't know, but when I'm with Dred I'm thinking of Blade and this is the worst feeling in the world

We were both quiet and both of us felt awkward. I was the only one feeling it. I don't know what I feel. I felt guilty and disgusted with myself. I didn't even know why I returned his kiss. This scenario is making me confused.

"You like me, Alessia. You're just confused." Dred said and he was looking straight into my eyes.

"Let me love you please. "Let's give it a shot," he suggested.

I don't know how to answer it and he seems desperate for my answer, but he's right, let's give it a try.