Chapter 67: Chapter 67

Kiara POV

A week has passed since Nigel and my brother started fighting. I don't want to ruin their friendship but I can't do anything because it was my brother's decision. I ran away several times just to go to Nigel but he still doesn't listen to me, and if you ask why I run away because my brother is always watching over me.

It's a good thing now because he's not so strict anymore.

I'm here today in a bar because I know if he's here, even if they say I'm a fool or a martyr I don't care, I'm not the person who just gives up for the one they love. As long as I can I will do everything. Maybe that's how it is when you love.

I just had a drink while looking at the person I love happily talking to a woman, it hurts but it's necessary to accept that. I was the one who wronged him so I have no right to complain. Later I decided to stand up and approach him.

"Nigel," he looked at me in surprise. "Can we talk for just a second?" I said.

"Kiara,"

"Please," I begged him and then he sighed and stood up.

He just said goodbye to his companion and then went out so I followed him. "What are you doing in this place? Who are you with?" he asked me

"I'm alone, I know you're here that's why I went," I answered him.

"For what? To talk to me? What else do you not understand? How many times have I told you that I no longer care about everything related to you? As you can see, I am happy in life without you,"

I avoided looking at him so I wouldn't cry. "What else do you want me to do so you can forgive me? I'm doing everything to make it up to you but why are you so stubborn?" I said.

"You can say that easily because you are not in my position Kiara. You are not the one who was deceived,"

"I-I didn't lie to you Nigel, why don't you want to believe me? Why don't you want to listen to my explanation?" I couldn't help raising my voice at him.

He laughed. "What do you think you did? Wasn't cheating? So if I did it to you, that's okay?"

"Nig, please," I beg him.

"You know what Kiara just stopped. Stop chasing me because you won't get anything, don't be desperate!"

"If what I'm doing is what you call desperation then so be it. I-I love you so I'm making a fool of myself!" I couldn't stop crying in front of him but his face remained emotionless.

"You're the only one who loves us, Kiara. Because if you ask me? I regret everything."

"W-what do you mean?" I asked him.

"I don't love you anymore Kiara, I honestly regretted meeting and loving you. I realize that maybe I was too hasty the day I proposed to you."

"I can't believe you, Nigel, I-I don't believe what you're saying." I almost fainted.

He grinned at me. "After all, you're here, it's better if I tell you so you don't have to wait. Kiara, I'm not going to continue our marriage anymore. There will be no wedding because from now on I'm cutting off any relationship we have. You are not my fiance anymore." he said emphatically and he was about to turn around when I quickly hugged him from behind.

"D-don't do this to me, Nigel, please," I beg him. I felt him slowly remove my arm.

"Fuck it! What else do you want, huh? Are you that stupid? I don't want you anymore! Don't force yourself on someone who doesn't want you anymore!" he yelled at me and pushed me but I didn't stop him. I knelt in front of him which surprised him.

"I-I love you so much Nigel, d-don't leave me,"

"Stand up, Kiara! What the hell!" he tried to pull my arm to stand up but I just tightened my grip on his legs.

"Kiara please, let me go. Don't torture me. It hurts me every time I see you because I remember everything. I can't be with you, I can't marry someone I don't love anymore. So have mercy on me, please, If you really love me you'll let me go. If you love me you won't hurt me like this." I feel like he is struggling.

I almost cried. "Is it really our end? Can't we fix it already? Is even a little bit of your love for me gone? Even if it's just a small percentage, I'll accept it. E-even if you have another woman, it's okay, just.. just stay with me. I-I won't interfere with whatever you want. As long as you're still my fiance." I'm begging him.

I can see that he is also crying because it hurts me so much. After all, I know that I am the reason why he is struggling and hurt.

"K-kiara, listen to me. You will find someone better than me. You will also find the man for you but it's not me anymore. I'm the one begging you to let me go." he calmly promised.

"B-but I can't! I love you so much, Nigel!" I said weakly.

"I don't love you anymore Kiara. I deserve to be happy after being submissive to you, right? So don't be selfish Kiara!" he shouted at me.

I can hardly believe what he says, am I selfish? Did he become submissive to me?

"Is it true?" I asked.

"Yes! So now that I have a chance, I will choose my true happiness. So please, leave! Get out of my life! Because  I don't love you anymore. Just please, get lost!" after he said that he turned back.

I was left alone here in the parking lot while on my knees crying. I don't know how he feels about our relationship. I'm not doing anything wrong, everything is okay with us but why? Why is it like this?

I just bowed down while crying, the pain of what he said to me was so painful. In the several years of our relationship, he has never once been able to hurt me like this, he cannot say hurtful words to me, but now it seems that it is easy for him to crush me. I did everything I could, I lowered my dignity to him but he couldn't believe me.

I fought him but... how can I win the fight when I have no one with me from the beginning because... because the person I was fighting for left me.

I just cried and later it started to rain heavily but I didn't care, maybe the rain was keeping up with what I was feeling right now.

"Mommy, Daddy. I hate my life." I whispered.

"K-Kiara." I heard my brother's voice but I didn't have the strength to look at him. He knelt next to me and hugged me tightly.

"B-brother, he doesn't want me in his life anymore," I promise to cry.

"I hate seeing you cry." He softly whispered to me which made me cry even more, could Nigel feel the same way?

"Let's go home baby and you might get sick." My brother imitated me in his car. I just cried until we got home.