Chapter 68: Chapter 68
Nigel POV
I leaned on the side while crying, I left because I might not be able to take it anymore and hug her. I need to do this for her, for us. I can't hurt her so I have to stay away. As long as I haven't fully accepted what she did wrong, I still can't forgive her. I love her so much and it's not true that I don't want to marry her anymore because that thing won't happen but I'm already hurting her and I don't want to hurt her more especially if I let her do what she's doing. She doesn't deserve to chase me.
"I'm so sorry babe, I hope you could forgive me in time, I hope you'll wait for me as I heal myself from pain," I whispered.
"Are you just going to let her go?" I looked at my cousin because she was with me when I went to the bar.
"W-what do you mean?" I asked her.
"I've been here and looking at you for a while now, I heard everything you said Nigel, and I will not tolerate you. You don't know how much your words hurt her. Do you regret meeting and loving her? Really?"
"That's my only way so that she avoids me, I'll hurt her more if she keeps chasing me," I said.
"You think now you didn't hurt her too much? Grow up, Nigel! You're not stupid! Do you think when Tito Dark and Tita Calli find out what you did they'll be happy? Think carefully before it's too late,"
"What do you want me to do? Just accept her again and forget everything? Just ignore the pain I'm feeling?" I said.
"Your feelings are valid but you shouldn't have hurt her in this way. Yes, she made a mistake but do you think it's enough for you to say those words to her? Come to think if you were in her position and she said that, would you be happy? One mistake cannot be corrected by another mistake. A wrong done does not need to be repaid. I know you love Kiara so much."
"B-but I can't face her now! How many times have I pushed her away because I get hurt every time I see her? All the things I've seen come back to my mind, it's not easy for me to do this either because I'm hurting too. It hurts me to push away the woman I love." I said weakly.
"Look at her now," I looked at Kiara when suddenly it rained heavily but she still didn't leave her kneeling position, she was just bowing while crying. I want to go and hug her but I stop myself.
Later I saw Storm arrive, he quickly approached Kiara and hugged her tightly. I smiled bitterly as I looked at the two important people in my life who were hurting right now. Kiara is hurting because of me and Storm is hurting for her sister because of what I did.
"Let's go back inside," I said to my cousin when I saw Storm had put his sister in his car. I'm sure Kiara is doing well.
I just had a drink when we got back inside the bar, no matter what I do I can't get Kiara's face out of my mind. God knows how I wanted to kiss her.
"You're making yourself suffer too much. Just fix it, you know, cousin, you can talk to her properly. Ask her for space to think and forget, and then when it's okay, you can talk again. It's not like what you did earlier, for it's just a simple word but it has a big impact on the person. Words can kill physically, emotionally, and mentally, I hope you thought about that,"
"There's nothing I can do because it's already happened and I've already told her that. I can't take it back. Maybe it's better for both of us." I promise weakly.