Chapter 103: Chapter 103

Kiara POV

After we went swimming, I invited Nigel to go for a walk near the sea, just now I felt this joy again since I got out of rehab. Maybe it's not bad if I try to be happy first, even just for today.

"Aren't you cold? You might get sick," he said.

I shook my head. "This is just for now, tomorrow we will go home," I answered.

He laid out the cloth he brought that we can sit on. We could hear every crashing wave. This place is just refreshing.

"It's so peaceful here," I exclaimed.

"You're right, it's nice to listen to the waves, it's nice to breathe the air."

"They're still good, aren't they? They don't seem to have any problems. They have their freedom." I said.

"Because they are not human like us, we were born this way. We have to face problems, we have to experience happiness and sadness. But even though they are not human, I know they have a life, they also have problems and face something in life, like animals they need to be protected also because they also have feelings,"

He was just seriously looking at the waves in the sea. "Problems that come our way make us stronger, so that's okay. Life doesn't have the same thrill if it's just fun." I said and looked away.

"We lived to have a problem and of course, we also lived to find a solution,"

"Why are you staring like that?" I asked him.

"You're beautiful." I bent down so he couldn't see my blush. It's annoying when he speaks I feel like I'm melting.

"Kiara," I looked back at him when he mentioned my name.

"Hmmm,"

"I love you so much and that will not change no matter what happens. I am very sorry for hurting you and letting you deal with what happened to you alone," he said seriously, I don't know what came into my mind and I suddenly kissed him, maybe because of the alcohol. At first, there was a look of shock on his face, but later he also answered me.

I felt his hands crawling on different parts of my body, I don't know what could happen to us now but I know that we both couldn't stop.

"N-Nigel." I almost stammered because I could feel him squeezing my chest until he slowly laid me down on the sand.

"J-just tell me Ki if you want me to stop, as long as I can hold back now." his voice was hoarse.

"B-Maybe someone will see us here," I said nervously.

He chuckled. "Don't worry about it, there's no one else here if it's not just the two of us."

I hit him on the shoulder. "I'm serious here."

"What I said was serious, we're the only ones here right now. If you didn't kiss me, my pet wouldn't be alive." he laughed so loudly that I frowned.

We both stared, I could see his love in his eyes and then he kissed me again. He said no one else is there. As time goes on, the kiss he gives me gets deeper and deeper so I can't help but moan.

He quickly removed my clothes from my chin and did his thing. "Nigel, oh. shit! You are so good." I almost beat myself up because of what he's doing to me now. He is an expert when it comes to this.

"Ahhhhh!" I screamed loudly as he inserted his finger into my womanhood. At first, he was doing it slowly until he sped it up and when he wasn't satisfied, he added one of his fingers.

He just continued what he was doing while I didn't know where to look but I chose to look at his gentle face. I still really love this man even though what he did to me was painful.

Later I felt as if something wanted to explode inside me. I can also feel my knees shaking until I finally come out, but Nigel doesn't seem to have any plans to stop working on my womanhood until I feel his lips here, I inhaled when he sucked my juice.

I looked at him when he stopped what he was doing, I felt that my strength was exhausted even though I didn't do anything but lie down. I would have closed my eyes to feel it coming over me so quickly I opened my eyes and saw his manly stance. I didn't even realize that he was naked.

I swallowed a few times because of what I was seeing, not because it was the first time I saw it but because I felt like it was getting bigger. I was about to speak when he quickly inserted it into my womanhood, and at the same time, he covered my lips with a kiss. The pleasure is already consuming me and my whole body has started to heat up again. I heard him groan and moan when he showed his length to me.

I can't stop staring at him. I can see pure desire and lust in his eyes.

"You are so tight," he whispered to me and started to move inside me. I was clinging to his arm, knowing that my nails would dig into it because of the tightness of my grip.

"Shit it feels so good!! Ahhh!" he growled. I quickly wrapped both of my thighs around his waist and met his thrust into me.

"Ohhhh! Nigel faster!!" I said to him and he quickly obeyed. I feel his full masculinity inside me. He is hitting my spot.

I grabbed his hair and pulled it out. I could feel the rapid thrusting causing me to moan even more. I don't care if anyone sees us doing this thing here on the sand but I don't care anymore because I am surrounded by so much happiness with the person I love.

I almost closed my eyes every time he tried to enter me. Every time he thrusts, I can feel its sting.

"Oh fuck! Fuck!!" he cursed several times while continuing to beat me.

"I-am cuminggg! Ohhh Ahhhh!" I shouted.

I was surprised at how quickly he pulled out his manhood! Fuck! I glared at him but he just sneered at me and quickly switched places.

"If you want to cum baby then make me cum too," he whispered to me which sent shivers through my entire system. This man had a different effect on me.

I put my hands on his chest and slowly grabbed his still-hard manhood and inserted it into me. I started to grind on top of him. I felt his grip tighten around my waist and helped me to go in and out even faster.

"Fuck! That's the right babe. Ahhh!" His voice is almost hoarse. I could see on his face that he liked what I was doing so I tried harder.

"Ohhh! Shit! You're so good K-Kiara." he said, I accelerated the movement on top of him even more.

"Nigel, I'm cumming! Oh shit!" I'm almost delirious because of what's happening to us.

"Me too babe, me too," he said.

I accelerated what I was doing to him until I finally came out but he still didn't stop.

Later I felt a warm liquid inside me. I almost overcame the wilted vegetable because of the tiredness I feel now.

"It feels like heaven babe," he whispered while still catching his breath.

I thought we were done but later he grabbed me for a kiss again. I can't count how many rounds we did but what I do know is that by the time we finish, it will be morning. I feel tired and sleepy. I just felt him pick me up and he took me to the room.

"Take a rest now Kiara." He said this softly as he laid me down on the bed.

"How about you?" I asked him with my eyes closed.

"I'll sleep later, rest now,"

I couldn't speak anymore because my whole body was so tired, I didn't know that I would feel this thing again and with the man I still love. I don't regret giving in again because from the beginning he was the only one who could claim me.

FAST FORWARD...

A few days have passed since Nigel and I got home, he still comes here to visit our son but I notice that he doesn't talk to me much anymore or tease me. I don't know if he just really wants to focus on Chase or if he's tired of chasing me. After what happened to us that night, we didn't talk about it until we got home.

It's just annoying because after that he didn't talk to me again after he said that he loves me and he won't give up, but the behavior he's showing me now is to others. I also don't understand why I feel something like this when I shouldn't. Because I'm the one pushing him away. Could it be that he realizes that he doesn't love me anymore and he just feels guilty because of what happened to him and because his parents were angry with him? But I told him that he has no responsibility to me if not to Chase.

"Is there a problem?" I looked at Bea who had just arrived.

I shook my head. "Nothing, I'm just sleepy." I lied, she walked closer to me and sat next to me.

"Are you sure that's the reason?"

I looked at her. "Why? Is there any other reason?" I asked back.

"It depends on you because I noticed that you were very happy when you and Nigel got home and then these past few days you seem to be lethargic,"

"Well, it was really fun for the two of us and we were also able to talk somehow," I said.

"And then? What are you thinking about now?"

"I don't even know, I don't understand myself," I said.

"Why?"

"I don't know if I'm just overthinking or if Nigel is avoiding me, I noticed that since we got home he hasn't been talking to me," I said

"You miss him?"

"No ah! I just noticed. I'm just used to him always scowling." I said.

"You still love him, that's why you wouldn't notice such things otherwise. You know it's not bad to give a chance to the person who hurt you, I know what you went through wasn't easy but I hope you don't close your heart, especially to the person you love and who loves you,"

"I know Bea, but I'm not ready yet. It's hard and I'm scared. I don't want to go through the pain that I went through because I know that I'm not the only one who's struggling, but my brother is also. " I said.

"Your feelings are valid Ki, no matter who experiences what you experienced, it will be difficult to trust again. You don't need to rush yourself, let yourself heal before you decide. If you are ready then try,"

"It's just... I just don't know how to start. I'm afraid maybe because of the trauma I have. I know it can come back anytime. I don't want to get hurt again and I don't want to hurt especially the people I love." I said.

She held my hand. "I know you will overcome that pain and fear soon. You will also get the true satisfaction you deserve. Okay? I know your brother wants the best for you and he just wants you to be happy,"

Later we looked at Nigel who had just arrived. "Is Chase here?" he asked, not even greeting me.

"Yes, wait, I'll just call him," Bea answered and then stood up.

My brother is not here today because someone important has come up.

"Do you want to eat?" I asked him,

He shook his head. "I ate earlier so I'm full,"

"Oh, okay," I said.

"Did you go to your doctor?" he asked me when he sat down.

"Yes, yesterday, my brother accompanied me," I answered him.

"Good, I'm sorry I forgot about it. I was taking care of something yesterday,"

"No worries, like I told you, I'm not your responsibility, my brother is here." There was a hint of sullenness in my voice, but of course, I didn't let him know that.

"Daddy!" I looked at my son who was going down the stairs.

"Hi buddy, how are you?" he asked his son.

"I'm fine,"

Nigel messed up his hair. "Are you ready?" he asked and Chase nodded, I was surprised because of what he said.

"Where are you going?" I  asked.

"Chase and I are just going out, I already told you last time," Nigel answered, making me nod. I lost that thing in my mind and he didn't even invite me.

"Daddy, can't we take Mommy with us?" asked our son.

I saw Nigel look away and later he turned his gaze to me. "Do you want to come?" he asked.

I quickly shook my head, "No, you two go. I need to do something," I said.

"Kia ---."

"That's the bonding between you and your son," I didn't finish what he had to say and I spoke. He nodded and then later they left completely.

"Oh, did they leave? " Bea asked.

"Yeah," I said.

"Why didn't you come? I heard that Nigel invited you."

I hesitated. "He only invited me because of what Chase said, so I don't want to come if he's forced," I said.

Bea laughed. "That's why your face is like that because you want Nigel to take the initiative to invite you,"

"Nothing funny Bea." I was annoyed and then went upstairs.

I don't care if he doesn't invite me, who is he? That's why he's here because of our son and no one else. He's just playing his father's role.