Chapter 91: Chapter 91

After I sent Noel to the school, I went into our room and laid on the bed. I just couldn’t help but think about Ryan. It's been two hours but it felt like ten years. I missed him. I just missed him so much. Then I heard my phone ringing, I took my phone and saw the caller was Amelia so I quickly answered the call.

“Amelia” I spoke first as I heard her sigh. I could understand why she’s sighing. Chris also left with them.

“Why couldn’t those men find any other suitable men for their bloody mission?” I sighed because I also agree with her. We spent our time so peacefully but those men came and destroyed it.

“I agree with that” I said as she hummed.

“Did you try to stop?” Amelia asked me.

“Yes.” I spoke as I grabbed the pillow that Ryan uses and hugged it so tightly. I miss him already.

“I see..” She sighed and talked with me for a while and hung up the call. As soon as the call was hung up I buried my face against the pillow and inhaled the sweet scent of Ryan’s hair. Urghh.. I want him so badly now.

Time passed and it’s already night time. After having dinner I put Noel and Raylie to sleep and then went into my room. I took a shower and changed into one one Ryan’s shirt as I climbed onto the bed. I stayed normal but in the deep inside of me my heart was freezing without Ryan. I just can’t stay without him. I closed my eyes to sleep but suddenly I heard Ryan’s phone ringing. What the hell? My eyes snapped open and I searched for it.

Did he just leave it? Now hoe is he going to call me? I took his phone out of his coat’s pocket and saw the caller ID was unknown. It’s already late who’s calling? Without caring about anything I answered the call.

“Hello?” I spoke and didn’t get any response. What the hell?

“Hello?” I again spoke but gained nothing. I sighed and decided to hang up the call but before I could hang up the call I heard someone’s voice.

“Going to sleep?” My heart covered with happiness and love as I heard the voice.

“Ryan, how are you? I miss you” I said as I heard him chuckle. I really want him now.

“Do you really miss me that much? Oh yeah.. It’s night time right?” Why do I feel like hitting him across his face? He even dares to make fun of me.

“Jerk” I said as he laughed.

“Are they sleeping?” Ryan asked as I hummed the response.

“Who’s phone you’re using?” I asked because I was curious.

“I bought a phone as soon as I remembered that I left my phone with you.” I laid on the bed and listened to his voice. I felt like I didn’t hear his voice for years.

“Take a picture and send it to me now.” I heard him say with a sigh.

“What?” I again asked him because I wasn't sure that I heard it correctly.

“Take a picture of you now and send it to me. I want to see you” My heartbeat quickened as I heard what he said. Why am I acting like if he was my boyfriend and we’re having a secret affair?

“Okay” With that I took a picture while showing my teeth and sent it to him as a message. Soon after I heard Ryan’s chuckle.

“Why are you wearing my shirt?” Urghh.. Why did I forget that? It’s okay.. Anyways his clothes are mine too.

“I missed you Ryan.. Can’t you just come back here secretly?” I sighed and said. I knew it was a dumb suggesion but I really wanted him so badly.

“I’ll come in three months and I love you so much. Julianna, I’m not sure that I would be able to call you again because the place we’re going is not good at signals so don’t be afraid. I’ll call you when I get a chance okay?” My heart is covered with disappointment but I can understand his situation.

“Okay Ryan… call me. I love you so much more. Please be safe. If there’s any danger stay away or run okay?” I spoke while hiding my nervousness.

“Okay angel. I will take care. I’m hanging up now. Sleep now” With that after waiting for a few seconds Ryan hung up the call. As soon as he hung up the call I felt my life just became empty. Am I depending on him too much? Is that why I can’t stay without him even for a day? Or it’s just that my love for him is limitless? I don’t understand anything.

I closed my eyes to sleep as I hugged one of his shirts tightly. This is the first time I’m spending a night without Ryan around me after we got married. Every time he was there. Even if I was at Mark’s place. At least Ryan comes late at night and stays with me so I’m not used to this sudden change.

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Time passed and it’s almost two months. Ryan never talked to me after that day. I tried to call him many times but there were signal problems. I couldn’t ease my mind because every day I felt like ten years without him. I hardly passed almost two months but deep inside of me, I’m dying day by day without him.

Amelia said that Chris also called her only for one day and after that she didn’t receive any call from him. Raylie kept asking me where her daddy was and she even cried because she missed him. Ryan had spoiled Raylie so much and she can’t stay without him now. I don’t know how to answer her questions and I was always helpless when it came to Ryan’s whereabouts.

The feeling of losing him grew hard within me and I don’t know why but for some unknown reason I felt something bad was going to happen. I forced myself to forget that useless feeling because no matter what Ryan is coming and I have to wait only for one month. I shouldn't be scared of anything because he promised me that he will come to me.