Chapter 90: Chapter 90

I got down from the bed and walked towards the washroom. As soon as I entered the washroom my eyes unintentionally covered with tears. I didn't want him to go and I was just scared. He got shot last time and what if anything happens to him this time? I just don’t want to lose him. I wiped my tears and quickly took a shower and changed into a new set of clothes. He’s going and I don’t want to ruin everything by crying early in the morning.

As I went out of the washroom I saw Ryan was already up and sitting on the bed while rubbing his forehead. He looked at me as I came out of the washroom. I smiled at him and walked towards him.

“I love you Ryan” I kissed his cheek and forehead. He chuckled and wrapped his both arms around my waist.

“I love you more than anything” He smiled at me. I forced myself to not to cry. I looked away from his eyes and nodded at him. How am I going to sleep alone in this room for three months after he left?

“Marianna, listen to me.” I looked at him because this is the first time he called me Marianna after two years.

“I’m coming back in three months and don’t be upset angel. You take care of them till I come back okay? Take care of yourself and eat your meals properly. If you’re bored go to Mark’s house or ask Amelia to come here because Chris is also going with us” Chris is also going? I nodded at Ryan without any argument.

“I’ll stay here until you come back. I won’t go anywhere.” I said as he smiled and stood up from the bed. Then he kissed my forehead and cupped my face as he made me look at him.

“I love you.” I bit my lower lip so hard, preventing me from crying. Why does he act like he’s going away forever?

“Ryan, why are you acting like you don’t come again? Please don’t.. I love you too” I hugged him so tightly and kissed his chest. I could feel his heartbeat increasing and I really like that sound.

“I’m coming again so you better stay away from men or I’ll chop everyone when I come back” I looked up at him and giggled as he smiled at me.

“I’ll wash and come.” With that he kissed my forehead and entered the washroom. I waited for a while and went out of the room. I went into the kitchen and quickly made his favorite chicken pasta and looked at the time.

It was almost six in the morning. My heart tightened as time moved so fast. Only thirty minutes and I won’t see him for three months. I went upstairs and went to Noel’s room and woke him up.

“Noel, wake up. Daddy has to go somewhere. He’s going now” As soon as I said that his eyes snapped open and he watched my face for a while before running out of the room. I sighed and went to Raylie’s room and saw she was in a deep sleep.

“Raylie… wake up baby. Daddy is going somewhere so tell him you love him and sleep again okay?” I woke her up as she giggled and nodded at me. She doesn’t even understand anything but smiling.

I lifted her up and quickly washed her before taking her downstairs. As I walked downstairs I saw Ryan who was wearing a military suit. He was just so handsome and he looked so strong. I smiled because my husband is really a handsome man. I didn’t see Noel because he was covered from Ryan’s body.

“Daddy, so cool. When can I wear this?” As soon as I approached them I heard Noel’s voice. I sighed because I really didn’t want him to wear that.

“When you turned eighteen” Ryan patted his head and looked back at me.

“Daddy… I like you” As soon as Raylie spread her arms as giggled Ryan’s eyes softened and he came towards me as he took her from my hands.

“I like you more little princess” He said while kissing her forehead. I watched them for a while and found myself still wishing that he would stay without going but I knew that’s impossible.

“Ryan have breakfast” I said as he looked at me and smiled brightly. I really like the way he smiles. I watched Ryan having breakfast while feeding Raylie. My heart was covered with an unknown feeling and I don’t know how to remove it.

I looked at the time and it’s six thirty. My hands began to tremble and my heart was beating violently. I wanted to cry and beg to not to leave but I just don’t know what to do and I’m helpless. I looked at Ryan who was still cuddling Raylie and Noel. Finally he put them down and came to me.

“Stay safe. I love you” He said as he kissed my forehead. I clutched his shirt tightly and looked up at him.

“Can I still stop you?” I asked for one last time. He simply smiled at me and pressed his lips against mine. All emotions surged into my mind as I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him back. The most annoying thing in my heart was fear.. I couldn’t let go of the fear that was inside of my heart. I was really scared of losing him.

“I’ll call you everyday okay? Don’t be upset.” He pulled away from me and said. I watched him for a while and nodded with a smile. Then I walked out of the house with him as I saw they were already here to take him.

“Ryan, I love you. Come soon okay? I.. I just can’t stay without you” I kissed his cheek and spoke in a low voice.

“I will and I also can’t do anything without you” I nodded at him and smiled as he kissed my forehead and left. I watched him leave and my eyes covered with tears. Before getting into the jeep he stopped and looked back at me and gave me the most beautiful smile that I’ve ever seen. I’ve never seen him smile like that. This is the first time. I smiled at him too and waved my hand as he got into the jeep and disappeared from my sight. I just couldn’t force them back anymore as I saw him leaving..

“Why is mommy crying?” I heard Raylie’s sweet voice and I bent down to pick her up. As I picked her up she wiped my tears and smiled sweetly at me. I couldn’t help but smile at her because of her sweet smile.