Chapter 89: Chapter 89

“When?” I heard Ryan’s voice and I quickly went towards them.

“We have to leave tomorrow morning.” My heart tightened as I heard one of them voice. I quickly walked towards Ryan.

“Ryan,” I said as all of them turned and looked at me. Ryan looked at me and smiled but I didn’t have a heart to return a smile.

“Sleep. I’ll come in a while” He said but I didn’t want to, so I quickly shook my head and looked at the three men who were standing around Ryan while wearing military suits.

“What’s happening? Why are they here?” I asked as I grabbed him from his hand and pulled him closer to me.

“Sorry for troubling you at late night madam. We’re here to discuss something with sir” I didn’t want them to discuss anything with Ryan because I don’t like it.

“Oh. I think you’ve already done your discussion. Then I’m taking my husband to sleep” They all looked at me for a while and their eyes fell on Ryan.

“Julianna, I have to go with them now” My whole world collapsed as I heard him. I quickly looked up at him and shook my head because I didn’t want to believe.

“You can’t go. Just ask them to leave. I’m sleepy” I smiled at him and said. Ryan’s gorgeous blues eyes were not normal like all days. I wanted to cry loudly but I forced myself not to.

“It’s an important mission and we have to go there. Julianna, wait for three months, hmm?” Three months? Is he crazy?

“No. I can’t.. I can’t stay without you. What is this? You can’t leave” I said as my eyes turned red.

“Please find any other suitable man for your mission. I can’t let him come with you. He has two small kids. So please understand and leave now” I looked at the three men in front of me and said. They watched me for a while and shook their heads.

“We were asked to bring Ryan Winston’s squad that they had years ago. I’m sorry madam. I can understand your feelings but he has to go with us because there are so many lives to be saved” Why only my man? What the hell?

“Ryan.. you can’t leave. How can you leave me and two kids? Raylie is only two years old and Noel is just six. Tell them that you can’t” I looked at him and said. He watched me for a while and sighed.

“I have to go Julianna, it’s about small kids” I shook my head and looked at him. Unintentionally my tears rolled down from my eyes. I didn’t want to be selfish but I just can’t let him go.

“Then what about your kids? If anything happens to you they won’t even remember you Ryan. Please don’t go. Tell them to find someone else”I clutched his shirt and said. Ryan caressed my face and wiped my tears.

“I promise. I’ll come in three months. I don’t think my children will forget me.” Does he still want to leave? Why? No.. I’m not letting him leave.

“No you can’t leave me. Just don’t go. I’ll kill myself. Please Ryan” I said as he looked at me and frowned.

“Julianna, don’t you dare. Wait for three months I’m coming back” Ryan spoke with a strict voice and I looked away from him.

“You even slept with me a few moments ago, how can you leave like this? Maybe I’m already pregnant” I said as he sighed and grabbed me from my waist.

“Even if you get pregnant I will be there okay? Don’t worry. I promise you, I’m coming back in three months” He gently smiled at me and kissed my forehead but that didn’t ease my heart. The feeling of losing him grew hard inside of me and I knew that he’s going no matter what.

“So I can’t stop you right?” I finally managed to ask him as he sighed and nodded at me. I forced all my emotions back and looked at him.

“You’re going now?” I asked him as he looked away from my eyes and nodded. No.. I don’t want him to leave. I’m scared… What if I couldn’t see him again?

“Can you go tomorrow morning after Noel and Raylie woke up?” I asked as he watched the three men for a while and nodded at me.

“Sir, we’ll be here at six thirty in the morning” With that three men left the house after saluting Ryan. As they left without waiting I ran towards upstairs and entered the room. I didn’t want to cry so I bit my lower lip so hard and forced myself back. I climbed onto the bed and closed my eyes tightly,

“Julianna” I heard Ryan’s voice behind me and I felt him climbing onto the bed. I didn’t look at him, I just turned away from him and stayed without speaking.

“Julianna I know you’re angry. I’m sorry. I’m coming back angel. Please, it's just three months. I also don’t want to leave but that mission is really important. Please don’t be angry with me. I love you” I slowly turned towards him and buried my face against his chest.

“You better come back or I’ll sleep with another man” That’s the only warning I could give him so I did.

“JULIANNA, don’t you dare. I fucking kill okay?” I heard Ryan’s angry voice and I felt happy because he would come definitely then.

“Then you better come back in three months. I’ll give you a maximum of three months and four days. Come back or I’ll sleep with men '' With that I hugged him so tightly and closed my eyes to sleep but it was so hard for me to sleep while knowing that I won’t be able to hug him to sleep for three months.

The next day I woke up early in the morning and saw Ryan was sleeping. I looked at the time and saw it was four in the morning.