Chapter 67: Chapter 67

Ryan let out a deep breath and started to kiss my neck while caressing my belly gently. Then his hands moved to my breasts and he started to squeeze them gently.

“Mmhhh” A little moan escaped from my mouth as I felt my body wanting to have sex. I can’t do it.. I quickly pushed his hands away and got up from the bathtub and grabbed a towel and wrapped it around myself before looking at the man who was looking at me who was looking at me with a shocked face.

I looked at Ryan and saw the hurt look in his face and without staying there for more time I left the washroom and came out as I grabbed a nightgown and wore it. Then at the same time Ryan came out of the washroom while wrapping a towel around him. I quickly walked past him wanting to leave the room but before I could do he caught my wrist and pulled me to him. Then he locked the door.

“I should check on Noel. Let go” I said as his grip around my wrist became even more tighter. I looked at him and saw the fury and hurt.

“What’s wrong?” He simply asked me with a calm tone and I looked away from him as I tried to break free from his grip.

“Answer me” Ryan again said as he touched my cheek and caressed. I didn’t want to answer him and I didn’t want to act like this. I just couldn’t get those things out of my mind.

“FUCKING ANSWER ME JULIANNA”

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~ Ryan ~

“FUCKING ANSWER ME JULIANNA” My patience flew away as I shouted at her and let go of her hand. She gasped and looked at me with a frightened look then she slowly took a few steps back as her eyes turned moist. Shit, What did I just do? Why did I forget Julianna is afraid when I shout at her or anyone.

“Angel, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to shout at you. Tell me what’s wrong” I slowly walked towards and tried to touch her but she shook her head and wiped her tears from her palm.

“I.. I.. don’t …” My heart shattered into pieces as she took heavy breaths while trying to speak. Fuck, she’s scared. What did I do? Her breaths became even more heavier as she placed her hand on her chest and tried to calm herself down.

“Julianna, let me hold you” I stepped towards her and hugged her but she pushed me away with the same frightened look. Fuck.. What did I just do?

“Julianna I.. I’m sorry. Please” My eyes turned red because I was afraid and I didn’t want anything to happen to her. Without caring anything I hugged her and gently stroked her back and kissed her forehead and finally to my relief her breaths became normal. I sighed and looked at her as she looked up at me.

“Who’s Marianna?” My whole body shook violently as I heard her mention the name I wanted to hide from her. Did she find out anything about her true identity or did she meet Mark? No. I can’t lose her and give her back to the Holland family. They would fight me till the death if they found out their young lady was my wife and I’m hiding her from them.

“How.. How do you know?” I asked with my trembling voice and she just pushed me away while looking into my eyes.

“I know everything” Everything? Fuck.. she knows that she’s Marianna and the young lady of Holland family? How did she find it?

“Am I just a substitute, Ryan?” What a substitute? What the hell is she talking about?

“What are you talking about Julianna? I don’t understand” I again grabbed her from her waist and hugged her but she again pushed me away.

“You’re keeping me with you because I look like her? I look like Marianna?” What the fuck? She’s fucking Marianna. What the hell with the look? Wait… did she think that I’m keeping her because she looks like Marianna? Damn.. What is this mess?

“Speak Ryan” I watched Julianna’s tears rolling down from her eyes as she spoke. I sighed and looked at her. That’s great she thinks that she looks like Marianna. So it’s easy to keep her away from Mark.

“You look like her” I said as I tried to pull Julianna to me again but she just simply dodged my touch and took a few steps back.

“What is she to you?” Suddenly she asked me while wiping her tears. Of course, I love her and she’s already my wife and my children’s mother.

“She’s mine and I love her, Julianna.” Suddenly I wanted to tease Julianna so I said.

“Yours? You love her?” She asked me with hurt filled eyes. Fuck did I over do it?

“Ryan I stayed with you for months and slept with you on the same bed but you haven’t told me that you love me. Not even once. But you simply said that you love her. Alright” My heart tightened because of the broken voice and the face Julianna had. Shit.. Why did I do it? I just wanted to tease her.

“Julianna.. I..” I wanted to say that she’s Marianna and she’s the woman I love but I couldn’t because if I let her know she would definitely go and find Mark because he’s the only family of hers. I looked at Julianna’s tear filled face and saw she was looking at me and she was waiting for me to finish what I wanted to say but I just shook my head as she gave me a painful smile and left the room.

Shit… What should I do now? I want to let her know but I can’t. Mark will go crazy if Julianna goes and finds him. What the fuck should I do now? She’s upset with me because of what I told her. I quickly changed into my pants and left the room as I grabbed a shirt. When I walked downstairs I saw Julianna who was cuddling Noel with a smile. I watched her smile but it’s just not the same smile she always had.

“Daddy” as soon as Noel saw me he shouted and raised his hands up. I walked towards them and picked him up. Then I looked at Julianna who was looking away. Fucking hell..

“Little princess is moving,” Noel said happily while wrapping his hands around my neck. I looked at Julianna again but she was still looking away.

“Daddy feel her” Noel kissed my cheek and smiled. I sighed because I have no idea if Julianna let me touch her or not. I sat beside her and put Noel on my lap as I placed my hand on Julianna’s belly. I was scared and nervous because I know how dangerous she is when she’s angry. Damn, baby is moving.

“Does it hurt?” I asked her but she just stood up and left. Why don’t I just tell her who the fuck is Marianna? I can’t let her ignore me like this. I fucking love her. It was totally my fault and I didn’t have to tease her like that. Shit.

“Mommy is angry with you daddy?” Noel looked up at me and asked with a worried face. Of course his mommy is angry with me.