Chapter 68: Chapter 68

“Yeah I made mommy angry.” I kissed Noel’s forehead and sighed.

“Daddy why? You can’t make mommy angry because the little princess will also get angry. You’re dumb daddy” I looked at the little adult on my lap and he was lecturing me. I bet I wasn’t this intelligent when I was a kid.

“Okay daddy’s fault. I’ll be careful next time” I smiled at him and patted his head as he giggled against my body. Then I got up and carried Noel to the dining room. As I entered I saw Julianna was staring outside of the window and she was in a deep thought. I put Noel down as he looked up at me with an understanding nod. Then he ran out of the dining room. My intelligent boy.

After he left I slowly walked towards Julianna and yet she didn’t hear me. She gasped as I hugged her from the behind. Julianna waited for a while and tried to remove my hands from her but I didn’t let her because she’s mine and I won’t let her push me away.

“Let go Ryan” Finally she spoke.

“No.” I simply said as I buried my face against her neck. Julianna let a deep breath out and tried to push me but she was just wasting her efforts.

“I love you Julianna. I fucking love you. I’m sorry I couldn’t tell it but I have always loved ever since I saw you for the first time” I kissed her neck and spoke as I stroked her belly. She was carrying my child and how am I supposed to love another woman apart from her. It was always her.

Suddenly I felt wetness on my hands and I knew it was Julianna’s tears. I made her cry again. I turned Julianna towards me and kissed her forehead but she pushed me away again.

“How can you love two women at the same time Ryan? Just don’t lie to me” god, how am I going to solve this problem now? I knew she went to meet that fucking Natasha but I never thought this could be this worse.

“Julianna, just believe me. I only love you and about Marianna, I will tell you but I can’t now. I just can’t lose you” I sighed and explained but she just shook her head.

“No need to explain Ryan. The thing is I was just a substitute for you and the woman you truly love is Marianna. She was long gone but yet you love her.” Why is this woman so stubborn? Can’t she fucking listen to me? Women are just complicated.

“Juli…” Before I could even say what I wanted Julianna left. I rubbed my forehead and looked at the direction she left.

While we were having dinner Julianna didn’t even look at me; she just ate her food while feeding Noel. I watched her pretty and angry face. I remembered her when she was a kid. She was always angry when she saw me in the past. Shit.. she’s ignoring me and that was fucking hard for me to stay without her attention.

I decided to grab her attention back to me so I tapped on the table loudly and watched her but she didn’t look at me. No I won’t give up. I drank mouthful water and started to cough.

“Young master are you okay?” Why the fuck? Shit. Did I want his attention? I glared at uncle Haden who spoke and he let out a forceful smile before going back away. Urgh Why Julianna can’t see me? Doesn’t she care about me?

“Julianna, my head hurt. It was about to explode. Give me a massage?” I asked her but gained nothing. I looked at Noel who was looking at me with a disappointed look. I frowned at him and coughed again.

“My stomach is also hurt. Aghh. but my head hurts more than that” I spoke with a pain filled voice and yet she was eating her food without even looking at me.

“Someone just help before I die. I can’t die without seeing my little princess” I spoke with a broken voice while watching Julianna. I saw her lips were slightly curling upwards. Damn she’s smiling.

“Julianna don’t let me die. Help it hurts” I again spoke. Finally she looked at me and frowned. I smiled brightly at her because she finally looked at me and I was happy.

“Can you just shut your mouth and eat your food?” She’s angry. Did I fail again? Shit, how am I going to coax this woman now? She’s fucking hard to deal with.

“Oh, yes” I looked at my plate and started to have my dinner before she could go crazy and hit me. I looked at Noel and saw he was laughing without letting any voice come out. I wanted to hit his butt and threw him away but he’s my lovely son that I loved so freaking much.

After dinner Julianna left with Noel and went to his room. She’s going to wash him. I waited until Julianna came out from his room and saw she went into our room. That’s great she’s sleeping with me. I went into our room and as soon as I entered a pillow hit on my face. What the hell?

“You’re not sleeping here. Go away.” Julianna looked at me and said. What? Not sleeping there? Why? I can’t sleep without her and she knows it.

“Julianna I can’t sleep without you” I stepped towards her and said. She watched me for a while and looked away.

“You can sleep without me Ryan, the only thing you cannot sleep without is my breasts.” Her words turned me silent. She was correct, I wanted to feel her breasts before sleep because those were fucking soft and comfortable but I want her too.

“I want both okay? I want to hold you to sleep too” I forcefully smiled at her as she threw another pillow at me. I quickly caught it before it could hit my face.

“Julianna, will sleep together okay? You can hit me if you want” I didn’t want to sleep without her and I wanted to feel her breasts. Shit. Why the hell is this happening to me?

“Alright, then I’ll go” Julianna walked towards the door but before she could leave I made her stop.

“Alright my lady, I’ll go” I smiled at her and kissed her forehead before leaving the room. It was all my fault and there’s no way I’m going to tell her that she’s Marianna so it’s better if I let her calm down.

“Did mommy chase you daddy?” As soon as I entered Noel’s room I heard his giggle. I sighed and nodded at him as he laughed loudly.

“You brat” I walked towards his bed and started to tickle him.

“Daddy, sorry. Stop.. hahaha” I also laughed because of Noel’s laugh. This guy is really something.

“Sleep” I kissed his forehead and hugged him to sleep. Damn, I missed his milky scent. It’s been a while since I last slept with him.